Chapter 25. Past

QUILL
Seeing someone strong I know having a breakdown was tough for me, even though it was not the tears that escaped her, I can still feel all her, pain from a far. Her sister can see it, her brother in law can see it. Money or not. Power or not. No one's life is perfect, and here is the proof. Being the strongest in the world they yet are powerless with each other. Being shattered is the most common fate all human share with each other.
"Enough Mileva, stop before I forget the fact that you are her sister and my brother's wife. And I won't hesitate to declare war between the two families if you say something more." The first Capo held back alot because ekf her sister who was holding on his hand, ans didn't come up to kill her right away. But even though still Mileva stood there."Now tell me what we were here to find." She said asking her sister about Jeremy again. But her sister didn't reply instead just kept watching her little sister. "Milly? Do you hate me?" she asked her something that was hard to reply and hear for both of them.
They just stared at each other no more questions and answer, when Mileava just turned and started to walk out. She grabbing her hand, "Please Milly? Reply me. Because if so. Then I will start trying to win you all over again. Please tell me that all your anger is just because you feel betrayed, and that you don't hate me. You know I love you don't you?" She asked her again. And I can see Mileava. Getting hurt in her eyes. For the first time, something shined in her eyes that looked like tears." Please tell me Milly that your anger will just wash of Someday. So I will patiently wait for that day." She kept continuing. And somewhere I can see her breaking down. But then she rested her eyes at me, asking me to be with her, to take her out of these place. And I did so.
"Can't you just tell us. What we were here for please?" I asked her, the Capo's wife's eyes turning to look at me, "Your nephew is fine, and if you are really that worried, why don't you stop threatening the organization and just go on with your life?" She suddenly turned mean to me. And left Mileava's hand. Walking towards me, "How much do you want? Aren't you doing all of these for money? Making the Capo's wife your friend, and threatening, playing with mafia, how much you want? Name it!?" She said the most ridiculous thing I can figure out from her lips, seriously. She is just as equal garbage as anyone else in these different world.
"Fine, name it? You want me to name what I want in return of saving ass of organization? Get the so called second Capo abandoned from this world." I shrugged her, her eyes not shock at all. Of course they must have talked it with each other. Everyone knows all I want is the disruption of that man."Forget it Quill, that won't do. I want to torture and kill that man with my own hands after I fry him enough in boiling oil." Mileva said and took my walking out. I can hear the brother of that Capo groan behind, but before we knew, the door across us in little far long hallway, was reveling the devil, standing there with his smirk. And eyes resting upon me and her. Mileva, staring intensely back at him. But before that we just turned and went downstairs, ignoring him and the couple behind us. "Where are we going now?" I asked her, again curious to where she taking me. When she just kept going downstairs, ss we were now we were all on ground, walking out of the back door. The door that takes us to where there is Capo's chamber. "Remember this place?" She asked me, me repeatedly nodding, "Yeah! After the Chamber incident he just started to bring them in our room. Even that day he was pretty intense about me interfering." She revealed the big thing I didn't knew. "So? Did he? Again? That day? Because of me?" I asked her when she just smiled. She doesn't know that hsyt the way she easily smile will kill me with guilt and as expected I already started to die inside of me. Thinking all the cause of pain I would have given her unknowningly.
She slid the sleeve of her dress down, "See this?" She showed me a bug nail scratch that was as if some kind of animal did it to her. My eyes going to her, when she just smiled. And was believing all this while that she is powerful and that even Capo can't do anything to her. But there are alot behind that strong mask and rebellious nature of her. She suffers alone. This. I thought that she would be safe out, and get me out too. But it's never like that. There is always a price to pay.
After all there is not thing as free lunch in the world.
She walked me behind the chamber, and there was alot of alcohol bottles lying around. Empty. "They bring it here," She said to me. As she picked one and threw it on the wall of Chamber. Pretending to me alright. But I was feeling guilty. That I caused her that. How can I ever do that to her? I am sure he will do something again to her for acting out tonight. I went to her and hugged her, because I can't help it. Sometimes all they need is a hug. She getting really shock at me. "Wha-what-ar-?" She started to ask but she started to loose her stiff body too, her questions dying down. "I am so sorry! I am so sorry for everything," I told her, when I can feel her breaking down, crumbling under my embrace, as she started to cry. Whimpering at first but then out loud. She was crying intensely. For hour. Seems like it's been caged for so long.
We both sat down, when our legs were dead, but I kept hugging her till it all gets out. She distance after a while, and wiped her tears,"I am sorry! I am sos sorry," She begged me, when I shake my head taking her hands, "Look. You should never be sorry for crying. If you think crying is easy, don't kid yourself. Crying is as hard as getting the wounds. Because taking in hurts less that letting out." I told her, rest her assure when she just looked at me, really shocked.
"I haven't cried, even when I saw him dying in front of my eyes, killed by Emerson. Right before me. When he dragged me through out the aisle, and forced me in staring yes for the marriage. I haven't cried at all. I was just to angry and shock. That it never got space to come out. It was my sister, my so own sister who did that. Who told Emerson that I was about to runaway. Funny right?" She asked me, and cried again. Making me feel terrible for her. How did she keep it all in? I wondered to myself.
When she just sat across hugging on her legs at her chest."He was the one and only man in my life who meant more then anything. He was my everything. And I never ever wanted to get married as a fated daughter if Bellona to another Mafia boss. That's the common fate of people like us. And everyone knew this. Everyone was aware that I am reblious and that I will never ever come to the alter and marry that monster. Even he himself as aware. But they didn't care. If not by obedience, then by force. I was dragged out, from the room I and he was to meet, he killing him in front of my eyes and smirking. By my hair, took me to the alter, dragging me in front of all the guests. And by his force, got the yes out from me.
Look at me now,"She told me everything as the hatred inside me for him just increased more and more. That shitty man. He sincerely deserves something more then just death for his crimes. I wondered to myself. She reading my sincere pain for her. Smiling. As the cloud and sky above us turned slightly blue. The sun rising in the side, as the morning greeted us ahead. She standing up. Looking at it.
"Someday there will be a morning like this after torture the hell out of that man. But it will be much more beautiful." She remarked. And I agreed with her.
"Let's kill him." we both calling it out together.
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I came back to the den, when I felt all the Silence here. Everyone just quiet and down, looking at the middle of something. What is going on? I wondered to myself and entered inside, crawling between everyone. Seeing that the Capo was here too. David, and Daniel standing up front, looking in the middle, after a litte sailing I finally went in the middle, when I watched there eyes and follow it. Finding James head on the ground kept straight. Standing. And all his body parts chopped and spread out of the sack, all in blood. My mind going blank. My eyes wide. While I couldn't understand and believe in what I was looking at? Everyone too saw me, and kept staring.
How can they look?
"James?!" I called out, and went ahead, in the front. Honest i was scared of his body parts but I can't just stay back. I sat on the floor. Looking at his head, my hands ahead to see the smile on his face. Frozen. Couldn't help but bleed tears from my eyes.
"Who did this to him?" The Capo asked the men, "James?" I calling him again and again, all his vision of smiling, his jokes ahead of me. Filling my mind. "It was the Spanish," They replied, when all I can sense and feel right now was rage and pain. "What are you doing here? Standing? Go and kill those bastard!" I screamed, at the crowd, when one of the man came and held me up. They feeling his back in the sack. While I screamed in pain all I was feeling getting to much to endure for me.
"Dare you all! If any of them are left alive I will kill you all!" I shouted at them when Jake came towards me and hugged me, I couldn't help but cry at his shoulders. "Why? Why? Why would someone do this?" I wondered crying, when they put the head of him in sack, "Make sure he rests in PEACE."The capo said, everyone standing straight asking me to do the same, as they all looked down and prayed for his soul. But it was not prayer. It was chanting. Chanting something related to the blues and Harveys. The soldiers and others coming and pouring in the den. The chant got so loud that it was clear that this would reach all the ears in the mansion. And as expected, Mileva too ran in the Den. But didn't saw James. Her eyes catching on mine. Trying to ask me who was this? But then she looked at where the sack was and then she saw the ring.
The purity ring he use to wear. That she came ahead and picked it from the floor. Understanding who it is.
After a brief while the chanting stopped and the top dog handed something to the Capo. A paper written from blood.
What does it say? My mind wondering when he looked up at me. And then turning to see Mileva.