Chapter 31. Gaining.

QUILL
I don't want to admit but his words does really makes sense for me, what he said, really got me thinking that perhaps he is right. But it's nit like that I didn't really already thought that it will be like that. I had it in my mind, now listening it from someone esle, had me rethink everything. "Look, I want your good, I want it to be good for you. Okay? I don't really want you to get back stabbed like everyone else. Do you hear me out?" He asked me, wanting me curse at him.
As if he is not the person who actually back stabbed?
He I'm self is actually the man who should be made to suffer and cry out. After all. I wondered to myself but calmed myself down. Let's don't get it through you when you have to collect people who might come out as a support.
And always remember one possibility that out of ten people, seven will betray you so prepare yourself knowing that count. Okay?
I taught myself. And just looked here and there in the lawn, "Don't worry, I don't trust on him, neither have I considered him joining with me." I clearly explained him, when he nodded repeatedly, "That's good then," He murmured, and then once again on the concern mode on, "Also, remember this. Even Mileva is not someone to be trusted, no matter what she is the high class blood, one day or another she will turn loyal to them," He pointed out some good reminder I wanted at the time like this. I agreed his words, "Now, stop acting out. If you want I can ask the Capo to not make you go there, I am sure he will accept my request," He asked me, when I shaked my head repeatedly, "Don't even dare doing something crazy like that Romeo! Please!" I begged him. When he just gave up.
Only if my doubts haven't told me the other wise, I would have trusted on this man dearly. But I don't even understand. What and why he did what he did? Did he planted the recorder and when caught, he wrapped everything in hands if brother? That makes sense. Wait. Does that mean he still has recorders around in the house? That's something worth checking. And if it really is. Why don't the light house control room lightens that unrecognizable metals? Perhaps, he has his way under them too? Well, why this just tarted to feel like conspiracy? I mean so far it was just about some one man who planted the recorder. And through Ava. I started to believe it was this man, also that he was weirdly nice with me. But... This is turning into something now. Making me concern. Well, I am still on assumptions I don't have anything to prove that it was this man, yet! "Quill," He suddenly called me out of my thought, my head up at him looking at his face. Again thinking, "Come out of slumber." He asked me, when I just nodded and turned telling him that I am missing on practice that's on the end. Already. He agreeing on letting me go.
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It was the change of shift time again. While I sat my arms elbows on the knees, thinking should I go in the house and check the recorders now? But for doing that I have to at a place which is most likely to have the recorder, that is the meeting room. The one above, but going in now is dangerous because, the whole Bellona's are here. So there might be more safety them I can think off.
"Oyee!" I heard the top dog calling me, when I just raised my head, "Come let's play the Carrom," He asked probably caring about me that I will be missing James. I just shoved him over but everyone started to force me and come on to play with them, I had ji choice but to stand up and go for the play, sitting against the top dog. He gave me the first break, I did, as he asked for, taking the first chance I made a hit on the side key. Making him fall down immediately.
They all cheering on my side, when it was his ton. "Is the Lex from the other being an asshole? We can get him over!" He asked me, making me feel like I have support around. "You don't have to. For someone as pussy as him I can deal myself," I said to him, but he stopped his hit shot and looked at me, "What?"I asked on his halting gaze and then i saw others face, they too giving me the same look.
" What's wrong? Am I looking like a joker? "I asked them, when they shaked there head," Not that. You just sounded like one of us. All this time you were like a girl out of place. But you talked like us, carelessly, "He said astounded, when I just sighed."Of course I am turning in one of you. I am learning fighting, I am learning to survive on bun and milk. I have taught myself to be stiff. I'm like you all now. But the difference is, you are protecting the organisation. I will be disrupting," I commented but it didn't came shock to them, I guess seven tehy have been so fine with me being and acting up like this."Just always keep seeing the line between being rebellious and turning into a monster like us. Can you please. We don't want to watch you turn like too much us. Be the we in morning not at the midnight." They asked me because that's what I called them that time. He finished his words and shot his hot winning on.
Making me feel terrible.
"I will," I replied shooting mine. "Quill, some of us will be around the house! When you go inside, it's not an order from anyone it's what us have planned because we can't let you go alone. So we will be waiting for you by the walls. Whenever you feel like you need us, just give us any kind of signal, a red light or anything. "He asked me, and put out a pen towards me," This is red light. Get to the windows and give us signal we will break through the walls, " He said to me, but something else concerned in me." Won't that be a problem? " I asked him," seeing that it's not an order from the Capo this will probably turn out in a war. And I can't cause that? "I asked him, when he nodded," Even we know that. Let the war happen if that will. Cost your life. "His words really moved me, and made me feel like I really earned something great here. He asked me to keep the pen. And I didn't revolted back. Just know that you will not burn down them along with yourself if something happen.
I have made enough people to loose there lives. I am not going to do that. I will die or live. Let's not take them with yourself.
I promised myself. And get along with the game.
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The midnight approaching the David guy walking inside with the bunch if girls. Staring at me. He really hates me it's clearly visible in his eyes. As if he just comes in the den to look at me, he was standing with the girls, when the top dog went towards him and, they talked about something the David guy really shocked his eyes at me, while he watched me closely. What the hell are you looking at dude? I wanted to scream at his face but he took his eyes at everyone.
"Do you all agree with this man? Are you all really agreeing with him?" He asked psychotically. When everyone didn't say anything or reacted out on anything, what did the top dog say? For him to turn this crazy? I hope I could hear, them I must have been enjoying this right now. Its a shame I can't. Damn! I wish I had Vampire ears. The top dog kept telling him to go down and not act out, it's sole decision not me but the David was really angry. Maybe he told him that he will come with me.
"Do you all are agreeing that you all don't want girls at midnight anymore?" He asked the ones behind. Much to my shock. It wasn't what I thought. It was rather really somethings shocking! They are giving up on womens tehy get every night for me? I asked myself. Everyone agreeing. The David guy rushed out really angry. He turned to see my face before completely dissapearing. The top dog turning. While I stood. "What the hell are you all thinking? Look I do hate it but that's something you are about-"
"We are not! As I said, we might have crossed the line before but now I want to come back to the better place. He said everyone agreeing. Looking at them made my eyes turning teary." Why the sudden thought?"I asked them holding back on my sobbing when they all shrugged. Someone saying from the side."Because we didn't had a family to think about when we hurt some girl. Now we do. And we can't hurt some girl again. Because we got a family to protect," He made a comment making me really teary and almost crying out "Is that girl and family me?" I cried, when they all laughed and came towards me hugging me. "Stop crying!" They all asked, when I looked up at there face, "Why did you all suddenly turned like this?" I asked them getting curious on what they are planning. When they kept laughing.
"Because someone cried for someone like us, because someone is trying to break her body for protecting a guy like us carried away from some mafia," He told me truly, when it made sense and we all huddled. "I didn't realise this but I think after looking Jade luckyly I gained a whole bunch of brothers," I told them when they laughed, "Can you not consider all of us as brother please?" The top dog asked, making all of us laugh. We broke our huddle.
As we sat back on the game, again playing on. I winning like always whole they all laughed or cried out at failing. They all getting angry,"But, I had a doubt!" I asked them between the play when they asked me to question them. "Do all the people die on duty are matyr?" I asked them. Because during war like situation they are killing mercilessly when they shaked there head. Of course, because some die everyday.
"If you kill someone noble before you die. You are considered Matyr. Our James killed the second lead head soldier from the Spanish. That's why we consideres him as matryr." He explained me, making me nod several times because I got there point. I winning this game too again.
" Oye! Oye! I am winning! "I said loudly, some on my side cheering up. While the others on the other edge made a pout," Oh come on babies! Are you gonna go to your mom and cry. Oh i failed! I failed by a girl? "I joked, they eyeing me. " What? "I asked getting really dominating.
But they stopped, and turned to see someone entering in the den. When the iron door screeched, open. Gaining our attention at the door. It was Mileva's sister's husband we saw earlier, he looked at me with a frown. Seeing me and everyone getting along so fine. He wondered something.
But the associates walking up and greeting him. While I kept on my seat. I don't need to bow at nobodies. He did notice that, his ego on hurt. I know he hates that. But I won't bow.