Chapter 26. Loosing someone close. Again.

QUILL.
I got confused when he did that, as all the men just kelt staring at the boss, and I was not in the midset of reading face and acting out keeping in my curiosity. So I just went towards him and took the paper off from his hand, much to him and all his associates shock. I started to read the paper. That says that he is not a man, that he can't get a simple chip from my hand. And that he should cut his balls off and feed it to dogs.
Stating that if they want one of the member of the crew back, he should send me to him, so that he can get the chip he failed to get out, and since his dick been retired, send the wife too. Those BASTARDS, "Fuckers!" I recalled them, as I scrunched the paper in my hand. And looked at the sack, pouring blood down on the blood. James!
As long as I see it. The harder it was getting for me to just stand and watch. I wanted to get back at however did this to him. And be his nightmare forever. Until the day he dies.
Well, James,
I guess you have just joined in the people who I am going to take revenge for. I am going to avenge what happened with you. The same way, he did with you. The Spanish Mafia? I don't give a fuck! I said to myself, and walked toward James. But then heard the top dog behind me, "Quill," He called me, as I turned to see him. "Yes?" I asked him, when he just handed me a bag, "He went to bye this for you." He said to me, as I looked at the bag. He went out for me? When I just turned out to be his death? How can this happen to him? How! How? I wondered to myself as he kept giving me the bag, making me take it from his hand, tears pouring in my eyes. My souls shattered, when I opened the bag and found a palm size little pillow. Because, I couldn't sleep on the tough surfaces. I complaint to him about them, when he slept on my legs that day.
I! I did this to him! I made him go out and got killed! I! I screamed out, everyone looking at me, when someone holded me from behind, "It's not your fault. It's not.." It was Romeo. Trying to assure me something I know is all my fault. He embraced me from behind when I kept crying, thinking about every little thing of James. His laughter, his terrible jokes, his ways and funny things. Everything. How in a little while he made this den like a home for me. And now he left me.
Why? Why? Do I always have to trade my house with a death of my closest one? Why? I kept crying, broke down, when he kept his hold on me trying to assure me. The man started to take him away from the front of me. They taking the sack. While I keot crying. Capo behind me, Mileva behind me. While everyone too left behind James, probably to bid him farewell.
It's not the time for you to cry Quill. It's not should be thinking about the revenge now about crying here. Please, stand for him. I told myself and stood walking behind, wiping my tears off. "I will go there," I told him, his eyes widening on what the hell was I spouting but I was dead serious. I really will go there and get my revenge for James. And also for Dad.
"What do you mean?" He asked me, not understanding when I inhaled deeply and sighed, "I mean, I will. Go there and kill that man. Who did this to James. He think he can get the USB out of me. I will get his organs out of him instead," I gritted when he laughed, "Do you think he is some chicken you are grilling? Shut the fuck up!" He loudly yelled at me, but wasn't scared and I wouldn't budge. I meant it when I said it. And I will get it for James. The same way. I don't really think and kind being dirty anymore for people like that who are just merciless bastards. With no heart. I don't think my hand will hesitate a but to chop him down the same way. I told my self. And assured my words.
"If you didn't hear me, I will tell you again! I will go there no matter what?! If you are not feeling the pain James must have felt, now. Don't worry, something same will happen to you too. When one after another your men will be chopped like that. And only you will be left. I stated the truth an obvious, his eyes widen, "Quill, I think what Capo is saying is right and that what's should be done right now," I heard Romeo behind me.
What Capo said? "Do you mean too that I should shut up? Seriously? You might now know who James was. I did. And in the world of heartless monsters like you all. He was the sole light. You think more then just your head to understand that. But as previously stated, you all re just heartless, "I committed without guilt. And Joe even Mileva taking my side," I will go along with her. I met James too. And as she said, he didn't deserve to die. Every man in here do deserve to die for there deeds. But he didn't. He never belonged here. And just as reckless as your behaviour towards him. We won't be reckless too. I will go with her..
"Mileva!" The capo loudly yelling out, when I saw her not getting scared at all like always, "I am not asking I am telling you Emerson! I will go with her. And I will slit his head." She said and I can see the rage passing through each other, when they both just closely stared until on eof them broke the glare. And looking at it right now none did, until I spoke."No Capa, you won't come with me," I made a demand using her title and not her name. Because right now she doesn't need to be my acquaintance, she needs to be her status. "You won't come with me, because if something happens to me. I only rely on you. One of us has to survive for better cause," I told her giving on the hint when she just wanted to revolt but she got my point.
"You are going no where! Do you hear me! I disagree! I deny! I made the choice and I have made mine clear! You are not going anywhere! Fucking anywhere!" He screamed loudly at my face but I was not scared of him at all. If he is fooling himself with that.
"I will go there! And why do you care? That if I die there your USB will be out? Or that I will give it to him? Don't worry! I am not the type of person who will clean the drain with putting my hands in it. I won't be and do dirty things like you all, to get my revenge. I am strong enough to get it myself, "I said to him when he just laughed,"Do you think those Spanish are some easy birds you will sway away? Don't fool yourself! Those are monster!"
"Worser then you all?" I asked him, counter. Not a second late. Making him shut off and just listen standing there, "I don't think so anyone will be worse then you all. If I survived you, I will survive them." I told him but he laughed, "We were easy on you. They won't be." He said and I started to laugh. "Do. You think you were or are different then them? Please stop joking. Capo. Both of you want the same thing to me. And it didn't hand it over to you. I so will not to them. Definitely not the one who killed my father. So-" I just shrugged him, when he didn't had to question or revolt ahead of this.
He just silently turned and walked out, as I saw Mileva walking behind him too, as I turned to Romeo and ignored him running out towards the crowd, of den. Coming out towards out when I saw them walking behind the warehouse, no they were standing. I went to them, and saw them with fire. "What are you doing?" asked the confused on what they were doing, when they were chanting something loudly. What are they burning? Why are they burning him? What the fuck are they doing? I screamed and keot asking them repeatedly when none if them said anything to me, or explained me, making me more and more confused. What was going on? Is this one of there tradition? Is this something they do too? What the hell is going on? I wondered to myself when Romeo got me again and started to drag me, "Don't disturb them. Please calm done! Please!" He screamed at me, yelling at me as he took me away from them, trying to jump off from his grip or his hold. But he won't let go. He would just keep dragging me out.
"Just shut off!" He loudly called me to shut myself, when he just took me to the ware house and his room, throwing me between the beds, "What are you doing? Let me go! And stop them? What are they doing? Destroying his traces forever? Really? They are killing him again." I asked him. When he just shoved my question and took a step towards me holding on my arms, "See, I know you are hurting but can you please try and come out of your dead senses and see things clear?" He begged me, making me hate him.
"How can you expect me to be calm? How?" I loudly screamed at him when he hugged me, trying to calm me down. I just know James for very small time but I feel the same pain as loosing brother. Because he was like that for me. And knowing I was the reason for his death everything is being more and more tough for me. Its making me blame myself for everything. I could have Maintained distance from him like others so it wouldnt have turned dout like this. "Just try to calm down okay. Please, listen, what they re doing is the Harvey blue tradition to burn the martyr who died on work. And not let it soul walk around us and rather have peace. They all are doing for his own good. It's an very old tradition. Trust me, and please don't go out of control like this it hurts me see you like this, " He said to me making me almost laugh and feel terrible. He and his act. I laughed inside myself. He distant me and looked at my face.
" What are you planning? Look I understand you were very close to you. And he must be even like little brother. But if you are here for revenge. You shouldn't be that close to someone. Okay? It will just be a big problem when the time will come for you. And what did you mean when you said you will to take revenge. Have you gone insane? Please don't play like that! " He asked me making me feel like dumb. I am not playing. I am dead serious. I mean it! When is ay i will go and take my revenge on them for him."see you be with me and take my side or not. It doesn't matter an ounce for me. To tell you. I will do what I want at any cost. Now you choose. Not me."