Chapter 73.

QUILL
He said it to me. While I was so tired for any kind of further questions. So I just earned on, more in the little space I had and I wondered to myself that what is it going to be like now on? Shoup I,
Jo how can you even think of it like that? You are not that naive that you get into words with you father. You are strong and know what you want. Right? You know that.
I don't know why? But I was trying to convince myself out of it. I don't know exactly which part it worked but everything my father said that I am interested and I would like it once I am there. Also, that Jade wanted me to do it. I was just kind of considering.
Well, No. Quill. You are not naive to get played by whth words. He is smart. You are a woman who wants to do everything better and not instead ruin life's. Do you know everyday how many people die just because there is something like mafia in the world? They drug you and they sell you off. They do. All kind of human trafficking. They murder. Just everything they do that will ruin lives.
Do you want to be the murderer like that?
I told myself, when I just nodded that I was thinking right. And closed my eyes. Resting down. But he heard me resting so he interrupted me again. "Are you sleeping?" He asked me, "Or are you thinking about being my successor?" He asked me. I don't get it. Why suddenly he feels so much urge to make me sit on that place?
"No. There is nothing to think about being in that position I don't want to ruin the live sig innocent people with my own hand. And I would never trample on those little flowers."i told him he laughing
"Seriously?" He asked as he starts to laugh? What's with this laugh that sounded like he founded my words so amusing that he can't stop from laughing. "Why are you laughing so much." I asked finally after a while when I got curious. "Do you think you can save people just because you don't kill them? If there fate says that they have to die? They will die anyway. You doing anything won't change fucking anything. They can jump of car? They can get driven by a car? Or anything that includes accidental death. " He explained me.
" It's not that we kill them early then what they deserved but its more like they deserved that kind of attention. "He agains said explain me a sentence that was urging to make sense to me and be a one more step interested in being the heiress? Should I even consider it? I think I should.
I mean, just because the business isn't going well. People hand over the business to their young child so they can blow it up with their new ideas. Same is what my father wants to do? Because he knows that now Harvey sons are determined to get the position of Don from my father. And I also know that they will do anything and will go to any extend for remaining in that position.
I must do is more then just consider and talk evil about that possition.. My father isn't all wrong is he? I mens. We always say be the change you want to see. Once I am the Don of the mafia, I might make all the changes I feel are meant to be. I can do everything with power that I don't like about the mafia?
Yes! Right! That's the main and most important thing isn't it? I came up with the conclusion of taking and considering my father's option about the position. But suddenly the car drive through the the bushes and big yard. Looking big and beautiful. The big and huge mansion. Above my head, which I looked at. It was just so big that I had to twist my head all the way up to have a look of the house.
"That ie our house." My father speaking beside me. "What?" I jumping off on my seat "Yes, that's your and mine and Jeremy's house. This is what we actually one. And this is what will be yours if you become and act like my daughter. And it's not like I am asking this from you in return of anything but I am. Offering what is already yours. He said the car parking in front of the house. As the men stared to come and help with the door. While my father caught my arm to pic me by my arm and started to drag me out if the car with him.
I didn't wanted to or want to? I don't know but all I know is that I was entering the mansion. The big hide place with this beautiful and extraordinary designed and paints on the wall. It looked like something that will be like living in heaven. Waking up looking at everything good and sleeping looking at this beautiful place. It will be like blessing I belive.
My father justt kept walking inside while he had my arms stucked in his arms. He dragging me out with that arm. Which wa skins if hurting from his grip now. He taking me while dragging all the way up with the stairs while I just decided to give it a shot. And soon I know that I am at the top floor of the mansion.
And here there was this chair on the top floor in the middle of the room with guns and things all around the house. And he the high chair in between all the explosive things.
"You see this place? This can all be yours! You will be the one who will sit on that chair over there. And pass the commands to people. It will be you who will decide which capo lives and which dies. It will be you the power of this organisation. You the owner. I am sure you want that. Because you are my daughter by blood.. Dont you feel deep urge in yourself to ho and explore that chair area over there? Don't you feel like you wanna touch that heaven which makes you high with no drugs? My daughter" his sudden words was kind of playing well with my mind. And I seriously was getting wierd and serious thoughts regarding them.
Am. I interested in it? Yes I sure am. And I do wanna go and touch the chair. Well it's not just some mere. Chair.
It's a throne and I would sit on it like a queen empowering the whole LA and Cali. Being the ruler of kindgom of organization and mafia. Being the sole owner.
I want to do this! I want to be addivte dto this place and get lost in here. Own it out and enjoy it. I want to be this place's queen. And rule the Harveys and Bellonas and Lucas. I want everything.
I said go myself se my slow but stable steps started to move towards the throne. Slowly. The Closer I go the urge of its strong power was grinding in my chest and a new kind of power was growing inside me. I was really liking it. The position
I was feeling the urge to give up on all my principles and just embrace this chair and this position and be this new person with this new kind of motive set. To bring the change for the better in the mafia world. Beginning with being the disruption of the Harveys
And now I was close. I was so close to that place that I felt like I am. Already the boss. I went by the throne my hands on its hand rest while I ran my finger all over it, dragging them to. The Edge. I was taking the hands down there to the sit while I kept my hands on the seat and check dig throughly. And I wanted to sit on it.
I was already so pleased with the place that I was ready to sit on it. I coming up to the front while I made my mind if sitting there but stopped halfway.
Being in this position and taking this position means I have to betray Acalian. I have to go against him? I have to bring him down? That means cheating on him? Also, he might have the chip since he went in there? He might already bring troubles for us. What should I do to prevent that from happening?
Am. I really fine with going against him if I really want to be here? I asked myself for the last time. And then sat down on the chair with no thoughts.
For a second the world before me turned blur but when the sight came back. It started to look like this whole another place. The place that I own. I am the owner. The attitude the love. Everything came before my eyes for this place and I was just as my father said. Thrilled with the place so much that I longer leave it for anyone. I smirked as I kept both my arms on the hand rests. I leaned back on the chair. As I raised my own leg and kept it down on my other. Crossing it.
"Yes. That's like something that my daughter should have done and should be looking like." My father yelling from the distance. As I really liked the burden and responsibilities that this place grow as soon as I was on here. I felt like I had revieved this new place and I smiled at the confidence I was gaining.
Ahh, I was in love
I was inove with this place because I have never really been this high palce in my life. I have always been petite and littleand hiding behind the shadows. I have never really owned my own but right now was different. Very different. This place is like something that I can own. This place is something that was meant for me. That belongs to me. And I like that about it.
I am getting a sense of belonging from this place, as if it was waiting for me? I don't know if this everything is just my pure imagination or not. But consider myself in a place like this? What do you feel when being the side kick all your life.
Suddenly you are the power that the world will look above at.
It's more then just thrilling.
Living in abndomeed building, or at my friend's house uninvited. Working extra shifts to pay my bills and every fucking other things in the world? That have been my problem will turn in nothing.
I might own this bug mansion. This money, this powers.
I have never been at this high before this one. So di didn't know what it feels like to be at one, but right now when I am I care about none.
Nothing!
You should be selfish for once Quill. You like sitting here and owning it out here. You want this. And if you. Just take it. You had all your life to be a nice woman and we all have seen how well it have paid you from all the wounds on your body.
All. The betrayals from the most loyal people in your life.
Enough with this hits, now you should be the power. Because its your time. Just take it, smile and own it. That's the only way to make it up for yourself for all. This years.
I told myself.
You are supposed to be ruling by your destiny. So no guilt.
Take them down, the Harveys.
Be the ruler of them and all. The others.
Fine, I am the ruler now