Chapter 41. Alone in world.

QUILL
"What the hell? It was David! The capo's tail?" I asked him once again because I can't trust on my ears. He nodding. "They say it was a chocking accident. But the others say he killed him with a knife because he wasn't still pleased. And alot if others rumors. It's so bad." He started to gossip like a woman.
Bad? This is damn ridiculous. How can someone do that?
"What about dad? Where was that man when this was happening to his wife?" I started to interrogate taking interest along with him, because this was damn so intimating and interesting. I sat on the broken chair. Which's one leg is up and other is down, he sitting ahead." No idea, no one knows. Lex never shared anything with anyone, even the things we know are just rumor based resolution. The whole truth? Out of box!" He said his eyes leaning behind me, when I heard some footsteps too.
Lex walking inside, it was his tike if shift to begin, so he will have dinner and stay awake, till morning. And even after that. He is always awake. I don't know? When he sleeps? Even living in den! I never really saw him sleeping. He would always be sitting around or smoking. Or just casually doing nothing. More like his thing. And if course try to hit on me, or rape. Me was one crucially important one to do.
"What you are muttering about?" Lwx asked sitting beside me on the chair. And taking his plate, the food in the bowl to directly down. Like an elephant. "Nothing!" Aro, denied for replying but I asked him directly, "Where you parents Lex?" He stopped eating and I realised that even Jazz was standing behind me.
"What?" She asking angryly.
"Why do you care?" getting even more frustrated. As she came and sat beside where Aro was. "Just generally!" I said, Jazz looking at Lex. "How long is she going to stay here?" She asked getting irritated form my question. "Hey! That's rude!" I loudly scolding her. "Ahh! Yeah! Right! Looks like I don't care." She said and snatched the gown frok Lex starting to eat from hmit herself. While Lex glared at her. Keeping his hands on my thighs, slidding it upwards jese the shorts, and trying to Kure his hand in. "Kex!" I yelling loudly as I shoved his hands away. "This is what you should be concern about," He mumbled, and started to eat again.
I don't understand this man!
Sometimes he acts like a damn! Fucking pervert! And the other he acts like this stupid gentleman. He watched others undo my clothes in the den, during the fight. And he didn't took the chance to change my clothes whje I was unconscious. He use to act like a pervert all the time in the den, but never laid his hand on me in the house.
Except today! And I am. Guessing it was all just so that he can lure his way out from the conversation.
"You shouldn't care too much girl! Like is thick, I mean big and long. And it is supposed to suck."
Wait a minute. Why do I hear a word play behind his words? Are there any?
Damn! This man is calling like a dick?
He kept eating, as I sat back, and started to eat." Right, in the fights I think I should take the change jazz, lend me some clothes. As soon as I get a job and my pay, I will return you the money and the clothe." I replied her, she scoffing. "What do you take me as? Charity?" She asked laughing and eating.
Oh "For being a charity work, you should own something."
Ouch!
I hope it hurts well, she stared at me with blank eyes. "Fine, I'll lend you some." She sneered at me but for my own benefit. While I jumped in my place and started to eat. "Damn! This food is licious!" I said, to Aro, complementing him. He nodding to me. With a proud smile. Seriously! This man has some very special skill from his hand. He is just amazing. How can he make everything just awesome.
"Eat alot!" He asking me, when I just kept eating. Everyone looking at me like they just saw an animal.
"What? What you staring at? Have you seen yourself eat? You animals!" remakes, they all shaking there head.
"Eat slowly! No one will take your food away from the table if that what you are concern about!" Jazz saying when I turned to see the man sitting beside me. "I doubt that!" I clearly meant him when he narrowed his eyes.
"I don't eat dog FOOD."
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It was done dinner. And Lex was leaving, when I had a hold on his hand, "Lex?" I stopping him. "Get your hands of me or I'll take yours till the bedroom." He with his threatening. Never speaks straight with me, just never.
"How come? How come nothing actually goes in your head then trying to rape me? How can that be your solely concern?" I asked him frowning. "Trying to hard to be like that, what else?!" I heard someone behind me. Too hard to be like who? I wondered, ans turned to see the Jazz with her ugly dress.
"Acting like who?" I with my questions.
"Enough Jazz! Shut the fuck up and leave!" He irritatingly yelling at her. When she just rolled her eyes, "Whatever! Not that I am concerned about what is going on in my so extra dear brother's life!" She made this this face and started to walk, but stopped.
"My tuition fees?" She extended her hand, in front of him. "I don't have money! There is no bet going around. And the one that is, finding this alive woman's dead body." He mutted looking up and down of me. "What do you mean by dead body?"
Ah!right! It must be concerning for them to find out where my body go, "So what just kill. Her And give the body!" She made a casual remark. Excuse me! I am standing here. Only if I can scream this on her face. "Yeah, if capo wasn't involved I would have done that."He rolled his eyes."Jazz my clothes!" I asked her angrily.
"Yeah when you are at the door of my room. There on the threshold there is a bag with your clothes." She said to me. When I made an okay.
"But why don't you want us to go in your room?" I asked her, getting little doubtful. "Well, my big secrets! My privacy! Whatever it is! Is mine! So don't you even dare think you can make your way inside! Okay?" She asked me, I nodding.
Yeah! Well as soon as I get what I want. I will do anything that doesn't involve in involving between the two siblings. Because they are mess nothing in there life is fine enough. They don't fight but they just act too much like they are not real blood and just burden on each other.
I turned and started to walk upstairs to get the clothes, for myself. Really a bag outside. I picked it up and hoped for at least wearable clothes to be there, but she gave me out one of the amazing dresses she wore in the past dress! Wow!
She is kind, Well. On that I hope she doesn't charges me more because they are new? Will she? I can't let that be! I can't afford it that way! Oh damn god! I ran downstairs. But the bag fell open. And the dress scattered. When I realised. That they were pukes in all the dresses!
What the fuck in the world is this?!
"Oh yeah! It's clearing up! I hope you can do that" She asked me with a smile and walked, closing the door.
That living bitch. May your nostri hair grow as big that we can't discriminate which is hair form head and which is from nostril. Well, very creative cuss.
I must right it down on my notepad. It's good one seriously.
I came down and went to the bathroom starting to wash it in the basin. The puke. Tbe way it was smelling I can tell that how many days old it was. She is sincerely very evil.
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I cam. Back from washing as I closed my eyes thinking about sleeping now.
Lying on my bed. But then I realised that somethiny more needs to be done right now and that it sitting up and doing my thing. If making a list.
First! When I go out there. I will get myself a job. To have a stability at this place. Since lex won't let me stay. Bit that the Capo will either but that's right if someone sees me in the association group or the soldiers and informed it in the inner circle it will become life threatening for me rigjt? Yes! I must keep that in mind. So staying hidden and face covered is one if the utter most priority. But how can I get myself a job in hiding? Not to forget that I have nothing of kine, my cards my identification. Anything with me? How will I settle down? I can't even go to the police. They will ask how did I come here without card?.
Right?
So? What am I supposed to do now?
God this is so frustrating. I lied back down on my back again. And started to think. What am I supposed to do now? Job! Job! Job! Right!
I can go with Jazz! I mean they won't ask identification at a place like that, but what if the people I am dealing with are actually jerks and not sincere human being?
That's another bunch if a problem! What should I do. Should I take this job or not?? Ahh! Let's toss, the one deserves will get it. If its a head, I will take the job and its a tail. I will not. Okay? Yes! That makes it even! I said and took the penny I found in the corner that day, and I tossed it in the air. It following down ant it was tail. But when I threw it I so wanted it to be heads. That means I am taking the job no matter what! I sighed and sat back on the bed lying down thinking about how tomorrow will turn out for me.
Everyday, and ever since I have been here it's all hectic. Something wierd happening every day with my life and even though I still have alot of concerns for me, around. I still can't forget some. And move on. They say according to inheritance Jeremy should follow the father's step. Even though Jade was a traitor for everyone. It's rule. And again the other factors like the fact that he will be send for education for fighting and all soon he is little more aged. And that means things need yo be done before that.
Everything is just so big if a concern for me.
And yet! I want to take it a break a break from getting out, a break from revenge of James and a break from revenge from that man who killed everyone in my life.
There is alot ahead.
I closed my eyes trying to be dead in the slumber. Thinking about Jeremy's face,jade's face, and everyone in my life.
I miss you.. I miss you jade. If you were here. Ky life wouldn't have been a mess like this. If you would have been here. I would be living with no concerns.
Jade! I hate the fact that you left us. But I am also thankful with the fact that you don't have burden on you anymore. Some day! I just wish! Someday I too will be that free from the miseries on my chest