Chapter 51. Acting strange

QUILL
I was feeling guilty right now for having too many things in my head and making it complicating for everyone. But I don't know! I am trype if person who doesn't do the thing if she doesn't feels like doing it. Right? Maybe! I am nit sure what kind if person I am either. One minute I am here doing something and the other minute I am somewhere else doing something else. I don't have my heart and my brain at its place.
Anyways!
Iw as now ready for going to work. As checked myself for the last time in the shattered mirror and opened the door walking out without paying attention who was standing and I collided in Lex. Who instantly kissed me as soon as he saw me. "Leaving? Woman-" He asked me frowning. When I nodded him. "Good!" He said and again kept a peck on me. "What are you doing" and why are you behaving strangely? "I asked him frowning at him when he pushed me on the wall. And kept his lips on me again and again. Trying to kiss me while I am not getting the bade reason for this strange act." What are your doing"? "I somehow managed to ask him between his force kissing. He shaking his head.
"Just I feel like kissing you! Because I am horny" He said, and slip his hand on my waist betwene the wall and me. And kept kissing me aggressively. Fully submerged in me. And kept kissing me intensely. His tongue inside me while he played roughly with me. I just wanted to shove him off. But he won't stop it at all. "Let me!" He said, as he kept kissing me. He was biting me now. He was sliding his down my neck soon. As he started to slid down and down. Making me feel strangely uncomfortable. And he acting at all not his own way.
I don't get what is going on at all.
I started to push him off me. "Please! Lex! I am. Leaving for work! I am not feeling like doing this! Please can you?"I asked and kept forcing him to push him but he won't move and budge from my power or my pleading." Lex! "Soon he was down near my belly. As he started to undo my belt."Lex!" I screaming at him. "Please! I said no! Can't you?" I said begging him. When he bit his tongue and shake his head. "I can't do. It! Just!" He said shrugging to me. "I want to have your right now! And I am not asking for it. I want to do it with you right now! I am telling you." He said, and started to. Again do it and I had other option left in me to just push him off me and move the other way.
. "Lex you have lost it! A little while earlier you were really to respect my decision and now you are?" I said and trying to make some rational thoughts come in me when this was totally irrational the things he did. "So what? I am back to feeling!" He started to explain. As I asked him to stop and just ignored him and started to walk out. Closing the door behind me.
What was that? Why would he suddenly act like this whole different man? He is not that type of guy? To have an act like that?
Somethings strange was happening there! And he was trying me to now focus on it. Yes! There was something going on in the room! While I can't see while I was busy pushing him off me? "Oh my god!" I said when I realised that I was in public and people will think if me as an idiot to be shouting in public. I just kept walking towards my job place.
As I was back at a place. I smiled. At the people, who were already here and I went to the counter starting to do my work quietly while my midn was making big sounds.
"Hey! Potential sister in law?" I heard someone calling me strangely. As my eyes shot up. "Who?" I asked the guy. When he gestured with his chin my way. "You! My brother seems pretty serious about you. He isn't actually a swindler. And haven't down bsd things before. But still. You seem important to him." he again said to me when I just shake my head. "it's not like that at all. Just we are at different things." I said and gave him his order. As I pass on the next person he still standing at the counter.
"I heard the Capo visited you? Yesterday! And I saw you man and hi m fighting outside the house!" He started to finally spout something worth putting my head in. "Did you heard what they were talking about? I think they are under planning something?" I asked him opening up just a tiny bit but he shakes his head. "No! He and my brother isn't planning on anything it wad just simply a conversation where no one find it plesant. They were just arguing on sending you back TO california while my brother was nit happy with that though so he said no. And the Capo wants you gone. Which he suppose is for your own safety. And I don't get the point! If he wants you safe! He should stop pesturing you. "He said and started dto sip he coffee.
While I was not getting hold of anything his worthless mouth was speaking.
"You were beaten up by his man yesterday? I saw it!" He said and laughed. "I thought you won't come to work after being broken by bones like that yesterday!" He laughed and I rolled my eyes. Is it something to be so enjoying and happy about? I don't see the reason?
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The things were completed at my work place and I should go back but the way I ran out from the house I feel strange to go back. Any ways! I have no where to be at if not that place. I closed my work place completely giving the keys to the head man. As I walked down.
Having a deja vu.
Finishing my work and walking down listening to song. Though I was not listening to. One. I just sang and hummed it inside me. And just happily jumped and kept walking down. And smiling dancing when I saw people dancing. I even made a donation for mg wage I recieved today. Thinking little about what happened today with Lex and all the other things in the world going on find in my head. About what happen with Jazz. The way she is secretively scary. My god!
I mean from outside who would know there are daggers and guns there! Drugs and blood. Seriously. She is so mysterious. But I guess that makes her attractive too. I was totally attracted by the way she did and acts. Like seriously man! Hatts off!
She is not just some pass by struggling girl. She is lit!
I mean if think of if that way she is just like a police officer udner going a great plan. Why can't my head work that way? If it would have been I would have bne that same way.
I just walked and looked at a little girl. Outside of the cake bakery.
"Hey? You want it?" asked her growing closer to her. "Yes! But I was forbidden to take help from strangers and apparently you are one." She said sadly when I shaked my head. "Wrong answer! I am nit a stranger. Because I am. A person exactly like you who use to just stare at delious food and never really got a chance to eat them. Because I can't earn enough! And if you don't earn enough in this world! No one is good to you." I just told her some truth. She nodding.
" You are right! That's why no. One respects my mother! She is a poor worker who is working ten times then normal people to make her living. She deserves higher respect then those people behind air conditioner who just come to yell!" She said loudly. I laughing at her innocent. Face.
I took her inside and brought her favourite cake and also brought some for home to take since I got my wage. For yesterday and today.
Perday basis.
I waved her bye and bid farewells with her. She was a really sweet girl. I Brought favorite cakes if my little boy. Who I can't meet but I want to treat him well and just think of him in a while.
I went to home walking slowly. As I opened the door and immediately found someone on the door. Someone very close to my heart. Whose just face is enough to make me happy and jump in my place. My little boy Jeremy.