Chapter 52. Another betray shot.

QUILL
I went down the road but my steps halted as I saw some same reflection like my little Kiddo. Standing. "Jeremy?" I asked and called out looking at that boy, when in a flicker of second that boy was taken away. What the hell is going on? Down the alleyway I felt his refection dissapearing. So I just stood up and went towards the darkness filled alleyway. I had totally assumed and am aware that this is just a fucking trap. As per the notice of of words I was given yesterday. I am aware that this is the trap to lure me back into killing me.
I took my steps slowly moving closer to the alleyway. Since it was late at night, I don't see much people around. And definitely none near the alleyway. Yet I just decide dto take the risk and started to walk down there. Slowly, not even making any sound. And as per the human sources. As soon as you raise the wall around you all the senses become sharp. I was paying all my attention on my ears, as I felt the awkward air around me. I haven't and known much buf the all I know through the teaching of Lex. This is the surrounding of a back stabber.
And I wasn't wrong. The stiffness in air behind me just increased and a shadowy presence lured behind me. I can see the corner if his arms. In his black clothes. As I took a deep breath and got my brain back at its place to be ready of doing any kind of attack on anyone. Though I didn't took the first initiative. As per the rule. If you have a backstabber. You should turn and get rid of it. But I ain't am gonna do it. I just kept walking down. "Jeremy?" I Calle dthe kid out this time. I don't know why I did that? What was I thinking? Because this can turn in an aware and a call out for fight too.
Well, if you have made a mistake. Get it on all the way. I just kept walking with slow steps looking down in the alley. But no one. No presence. Even the person behind me just disappeared. Where the hell? And who the hell was that?
I am sure I wasn't day dreaming when I said that I saw something or someone as Jeremy. I am sure that I saw. Even the last time. I couldn't meet him properly. Am I hallucinating because of being home sick?.
That makes more sense.
I just kept walking towards the last end of the alleway. And just sat down in the alley. I clearly made the evaluation that there is no harm in trying yo take a break in life here. Alone in darkness and funny smell. Danger and the safest place at the same time.
People say they are afraid of darkness. Because they don't know what's ahead of them. Makes sense. It's correct and right. We loose ourselves and we can never be prepare of what is coming ahead for us. And that is like failing before even trying. I prefer different though. I sick the exact opposite. Do you know why -
Because as soon as we are left in dark. We just raise the possibility if getting hurt saverly. And then we are prepared to face it head on. That can make later turn out as small little thing that even your pinky finger can fight over. But when you have light. And you can see what you are fighting with. Things change. Drastically. We either underestimate the power of little thing we thought it is. Or either we get nervous at seeing the tremendous opponent.
You might all be scared of darkness. But I prefer it over all the things. I believe it is to be what it is. For a reason. I. Didn't realise this but yes, during the cafe I took someone's smoke and lighter because it was not allowed to smoke inside. I just picked out the smoke and started to light it. As I saw back in the alley on the little pile of broken seat like structure. And started to smoke. I lit it. And I inhale the heat of smoke inside of me. The burnout I was feeling inside my neck and my chest. It's to die for. How can? How can I forget about this heaven? This smell. This aura the fun of smoking and drinking. The way I use to be at the den. Started to cloud my head. We I inhaled and exhaled the smoke. Everyone from the den. Which I really think now were just betrayers. Came running in my head. I was so consumed in them that now I miss that part of me.
I never realised it before. Maybe because I was with Lex and Aro.
Right Lex.
I just momentarily forget about teh existebed of that man in my life.. I don't know if that should be like this or not? Should it be?
I guess so. He is NG boyfriend now who just nearly tried to rape me today. Unknown reason but I feel like iw as nit alone in the room when he was forcing himself on me. Feel strange and not right at that time too. No matter how I tried to think of it. That's not the type of man lex is. Unless I have assumed the totally opposite of all?
I just don't know an dnow thinking about anything too much feels like a pain the ass.
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It was already past long alot. And I was just sitting down in the alleyway. Taking and smoking one after another. I had already smoked three sticks. And was suppose to wake up and go home. But I just didn't like the thought if doing that. I just stayed back in my place and just thought about everything. I kept running my head over all the things. For no good reason because thinking and trying to come up with a theory when you are barely in your senses is just pointless.
As assumed.
I stood up finally as I swayed in my place I was not drunk. I am sure of it. Bit taht if sad some funny cigarette either. It was a nice one and branded I guess. It's just iw as standing whole hours of the day. And now sitting after such a long time I had my legs out of my control. I just swayed back and forth in my place. And finally stood up straight. As I started to walk. My legs were aching badly. And my eyes were teary while they were craving sleep. And all I did was just walk out of the alley way. When I spotted someone ahead in dark clothes. I couldn't see the face of the person because of my teary eye. Yet I kept moving trying to look at the man. I rubbed my eyes badly finally getting the sight back. But that person dissapeared when iw as finally able to look at the man. I just think someone is around me but I don't know who it is.
Anyways I just kept walking and just here and there. When I finally saw someone on the back of me again. And this time I got the hold of who this person was. I turned and twisted my head frowning at him. "Why are you following me Aro?" I asked him, he just looking down. Lex told me what happened in the morning and that how things are not that fine with you. I just wanted to make sure that you are okay? Are you? "He asked frowning at me, raising his brows at me. When I just nodded at him." I am. More then just fine, man! You didn't had to come all the way to check on that. "I shrugged at him. As if I am unaware now. But as soon as I got his acknowledgement that he is here and then the thing with Lex. I am so sure.
Something is stirring up inside. And it's not something just shrug worthy. I raised my brow and smiled at him."I am okay and good. And you don't have to worry neither do your Lex has to. I'm sure it was momentary? What he did. Because if something?" I asked him frowning at him. When he nodded. "Yeah. It kinda was. You will. Know it soon" He said to me as he walked towards my way. And smiled at me
It was not some random smile. When I saw the back of his and a very familiar and hate worthy face came ahead. Making me feel hatred in all my nerves and senses. Making me wanna rip my own self. And hate even breathing the same air as her right now.
The damn asshole bitch. A person with two face like ass! Little bitch!