Chapter 40

Damini's POV

( Holi.. in the morning)



I didn't know what to do...

Earlier, I was confused about him. Something was not right, why Sahil was panicking so much? Why was Sagar behaving, as if he was madly in love with me? Why did he behave as if he never looked at another girl?

I was trying to suppress my feelings for Sagar and on other hand, some force was pulling me towards him. I was feeling so bad when his secretary was trying to get his attention. I was feeling bad that he didn't give me a second look.

I don't know what is right and what is wrong, I want him to be happy, I want to be happy with him. I wanted to forget what I saw, I wanted to think it never happened.

I enjoyed having lunch with Sagar at that Bhoomi poojan party. We enjoyed the time we spent together and then as my dress got spoilt, we came back.

We were talking normally for the first time when uncle called me back. I was shocked when uncle made that announcement.

I had seen Sagar's face the pain was very much evident there. I wanted to tell him that I was not interested in Samar. I loved Sagar, but couldn't say anything. I tried talking to Samar, I wanted to request him to refuse the proposal... but couldn't. We both were shocked at the announcement.

Sagar didn't say a word. Next day he went away, I wanted to stop him, to cry in his arms. I wanted to listen to him saying that everything will be fine. But his betrayal in the past didn't let me. It was still clear in my mind.

I asked many things from Sahil about Sagar and he was telling me. He even told me that Sagar has loved me and only me. But when I had an argument and he came very close to me, I felt very bad.

I got scared, I even slapped him many times as I could not let him touch me. I could not let anyone else touch me.

But, when I looked into his eyes, I got to know that it was Sagar. My Sagar... Thank god!! He stayed here just because of me.

At that moment of my life, I knew that I was still madly in love with him. If I could not bear the touch of a man who looked exactly like Sagar, then that means, that it was much more than the physical attraction. My feelings were quite deep-rooted for him.

Only God knows that I have never thought about anyone else in my life. I have always loved him and just him. I never moved on. But I am scared for him. He has never been happy since we met. I didn't want him to land in another problem. I don't want him to suffer because of me any more.

I was already feeling very bad after talking to Sagar last night. He was right... Maybe it was Sahil whom we saw that day. In fact, now I am sure that it was Sahil. His body language was like Sahil only.

He must have said that to save his face in front of his girlfriend. It's not that there weren't other girls in the school. But I never saw Sagar, looking at another girl, he suffered so much because of me.

He was beaten up by Vikas bhaiya. He even had that terrible accident and he almost lost his life and one very precious year of his life.

Now he is again hell-bent to have me in his life. I know he will be happy to have me in his life but he may not have his life for long.

His family will curse me forever, once they know that I was the reason he was in a coma and almost lost his life. They will hate me if they come to know that people threatened my family that I would be killed If I marry in another caste.

Sahil was so furious that day. I swear He could have killed me with his eyes alone. I don't want that hatred in his family's eyes for me.

I need to stay away from him. If I don't get engaged with Samar and choose Sagar, those people will come to know that I denied someone from our caste to marry someone from another caste. They might harm him.

I know, I was being stupid but I was scared like hell. I had heard somewhere that love makes you stronger, but I was getting weaker.

I was scared for him. I could never get him out of my mind and heart. I left so that he may live his life. But he had already suffered a lot. I didn't want him to face more problems. He doesn't deserve all that.

Moreover, the relationship between uncle and my parents would get spoilt. I could not be so selfish. I could not make everyone's life miserable just because I wanted him in my life.

It was Holi... But my life was not as colourful as this beautiful festival of colours.

I hadn't slept for the whole night.

I knew I was expected to go to the party, but I didn't want to go. I could not give more pain to Sagar. I know how much he hates to see me with anyone. And somehow my normal friendship with Samar was misunderstood too by everyone. So I didn't want to go.

There was a knock on the door. I opened the door, It was Sagar. He wished me Happy Holi. I wish I could make his Holi happy.

We again had arguments and he pulled me in his arms and kissed me hard. I was supposed to resist but I melted like butter on a hot skillet.

He just had to touch me and I was drowning in the waves of his passion. Why was he hell-bent to prove that I wanted him?

Yes, I wanted him, but I want him alive. I love him.

He asked me to come and tell people that we were in love and I didn't want to marry Samar.

I didn't know how to make him understand. I burst into tears. He was trying to talk to me when there was a knock on the door.

Who was it?? How could I open the door like this? I was crying my eyes out... Sagar was in my room and my face was flushed as he was kissing me earlier.

He must have not realised it so was about to go and open the door when I caught his hand and shook my head. He looked confused.

" You wait here, I will open the door. " He went to the balcony and I went to open the door after wiping my eyes and face.

It was uncle. He was standing there with a broad smile on his face.

" Happy Holi, beta. I was waiting for so long, why didn't you come? I was sending Samar but his friends had come. So I came to pick my daughter."

" Happy Holi, uncle. Actually, I am not feeling very well. So, I didn't want to come. " I said and he looked so concerned.

He touched my forehead and said, " You don't have any fever. Come with me, beta our family doctor would also be at the party, he will check you and will give medicine to you."

" No uncle, I rather stay here. I have a very bad headache. It might get worsen if I go to the party. "

" Oh no!! You are coming with me as you are not well, I can't leave you here, you are my daughter. Come to the party, the doctor will give you medicine. If you are still not well. I will stay with you. I can't leave you here in pain and enjoy a festival. Come with me. No arguments, please. " He held my hand and started walking towards the door.

" Uncle please... "

" No. You are coming, that's it. "

" Ok !! Give me some time, please. I need to change too. "

" Ok, I am waiting out... " He said and went out of my room. I locked the door.

Sagar came back into my room.

" I will have to go as uncle is being very adamant that he will take me to the party. "

" Hmmm... please Damini, let's tell him. I can't let you marry Samar. "

" Sagar, you don't understand. We will talk about it later. He is standing outside waiting for me. "

" At least tell me, I don't understand what?? Try to make me understand. I am not some halfwit, as you think I am. Please talk to me. Tell me your problem, we will find some solutions. "

" We can't talk now, please. We will talk later. " I said and went to washroom while he went out to the balcony as we had our balconies connected.