Chapter 33

It was getting dark, and the four people I was with wanted to go out and wander around the city during the night, who else initiated the invitation but the holy woman with us, I tried to scare her with my sharp look but she just smiled and seemed to care nothing about my threat.

In the end, I went with them because the three reprehensible fools also wanted to go out.

"Cheers!" The saintly woman said energetically and then raised the glass in her hand with a beer in the air, I was stunned and kept my arms crossed while looking at them.

The saintly woman took us to a beer house, I don't know why she wanted to be there, I was almost taken away the last time we stepped into the beer house because these three men is a big headache when they drank.

I heard the clinking of their glasses and I watched them drink wine, they looked at me at the same time.

"Ksara, why don't you join us? you're so killjoy!" Pavel laughed and said, I just stared and then remained silent. Reprimands, one of us needs to not drink so that we can go home in good order to the house we are staying in, useless people.

I was stunned by what I thought, get home safely? What do I care if we can't go home or we end up fighting here? that's what I want. I violently took the glass in front of me and continued to drink it, I heard the applause of the four fools who were with me.

"You know, the best thing to do when we're in places like this is to dance with the drunk people there," Abiah said then pointed to the dance floor where drunken men and women were dancing, Bael stood up.

"Well, let's go," Bael said that's why the divine woman stood up and Cynrad followed, my eyebrows raised when I saw that Pavel had no intention of standing up. He looked at me and smiled.

"Aren't you going to dance with them?' I asked, and he immediately shook his head.

"You're not going there either, so I'm here to accompany you." He said.

"I can do it alone here, go over there and join them to have fun," I said but the naughty Pavel just looked at me with a smile on his face causing me to get irritated again. Those smiles are the reason why I get irritated quickly.

"Well, then we're the only ones having fun here." He said then poured wine into both of our glasses. My eyes narrowed at what he said.

"I don't like to have fun. I have a different definition of the word fun." I said, he handed me my glass which I accepted, he laughed and drank the wine in his glass.

"What is your definition of the word fun, mine is not the same." He said, I drank the wine in my glass, and then the glass fell loudly on our table causing him to laugh. He doesn't understand, my definition of the word fun is death, every time I witness someone taking a life I am happy, and every time I see someone suffering I am happy.

"What is your definition of the word fun?" I asked, he snorted and then thought.

"What is it?" He asked then looked at me.

"You." He said that's why I was tormented.

"I was the first to ask a stupid question, answer my question," I said so he laughed.

"You, are my answer." He said so my eyebrows arched and my forehead slowly wrinkled as I slowly understood what he said.

"My definition of the word fun is You, every time I see you crying and looking at me, I am happy." He said that's why I just stared at him. I took a deep breath then grabbed the wine bottle from him then poured wine into my glass and his glass.

"Your joke was so ugly, I didn't laugh," I said, he laughed and took a glass that was in front of him with only wine.

"Who said I was joking?" He asked and drank the wine from his glass, I took a deep breath and then looked at him, he has had a lot of wine, isn't he drunk yet? He must have passed out earlier.

The words that came out of his lips were probably driven by an alcohol, daring man.

"What will you do? when someone likes you Ksara?" He asked while placing both of his hands on the table. I raised my eyebrows, why did he suddenly ask that thing?

"Nothing." My answer.

"Aren't you going to be angry?" He asked, I laughed.

"Angry?" I asked after a few things, would I be angry if a creature likes me? Yes, because first of all, people like me are only for people like me.

"I will be mad," I said, I saw his head running to his hand that was on the table, he was down.

"Why?" He asked, I laughed and then drained my glass of wine.

"Because of many things," I answered then drank my wine.

"That's one, that's the reason, we can't be for each other," I said then took a deep breath.

"How could you say that you are not meant for each other?" He asked so I looked at him, he was fighting sleepiness.

"Because we are different," I answered and leaned back in my chair, and closed my eyes.

"People like me only deserve people like me, it's a big sin to fall in love with people like us. The bitter destiny of the man who will confess to me is the thing that we can't be together no matter what because the human, is only for humans, and what is like me is only for what is like me." I said while closing my eyes.

"Even so, nothing can stop a person who falls in love." I heard him say something that made me laugh.

"You're right, it's the case...." I'm not a person who can't control my feelings, I'm a creature of darkness that doesn't feel love for people, or pity for people.

I opened my eyes and looked at him, I smiled to see that his eyes were closed.

"I'm not like you who can feel love," I whispered while looking at Pavel who was unconscious, I took a deep breath, and I saw his movements and the smile on his lips.

"I do not care." He said softly causing me to stop and stare at him. "I want you Ksara." I froze at the last thing he said.

A/n: Play I Fell In Love with the Devil by Avril Lavigne




"People are easily discouraged, you have to remember that loving someone is a betrayal of our Race, remember. They are just a toy."

I was held in my chest when it suddenly throbbed, I looked at Pavel who was unconscious. The last word he said caused me to be confused again.

I bit my lower lip and stopped when I felt something drip from my eye, I immediately felt my cheek and looked at my hand. I'm crying? I cry? I cry. I cried for the second time. But why?

"When people cry, they may be hurt, someone fights or they are very happy."

I remembered again what Pavel had said to me the first time I cried.

Did someone fight with me to make me cry? No, am I very happy because of what I found out? Nope. So, I'm crying because I'm hurt. Is that so? But why would I be hurt? Is it because it's not possible and I know in the end he will hate me and I will leave him and he will reject and drive me away?

Why won't my tears stop? I immediately wiped my eyes, I shouldn't be crying because I'm hurt, I should be happy because wanting a demon like me is a big sin, Pavel would be a sinner if he wanted me but why am I hurt?

"Fuck." I said wanting to stop my tears. I hit the table violently and looked at the sleeping Pavel.

"You can't like me stupid, do you understand? you can't!" I screamed, the ringing was so loud that no one could hear, Pavel was also fast asleep so even though I knew he wouldn't hear me, I just kept talking.

My tears kept falling as if they had a life of their own.

"You can't like me because in the end you will only hate me and reject me, you can't like me because soon I will leave and leave you, you can't like me because you will only be a sinner do you understand me?!" I shouted at the sleeping Pavel, I held my mouth to stop my sobs. Why did what he said to me only have that effect?

"You can't like me, you'll only make yourself suffer," I said softly and held his hand in front of me, once again I saw the images I always see every time our skin touches.

"Stop the... feelings of yours.... that's for you too," I whispered while holding his hand.

"Are you getting soft on people?"

I remembered what Alada said to me again, I slowly let go of Pavel's hand and slowly wiped my tears.
What do I care if Pavel becomes a sinful being just because he likes me? Since when did I care about people's feelings?

"Oh? He's asleep?" I turned to the speaker, the Holy Lady, Cynrad was behind her carrying an unconscious Bael.

"Let's go home," I said coldly then stood up.

"Huh? wait--"

"Let's go home," I said strongly to the holy woman when she was about to argue, she seemed to be afraid of my aura so she swallowed.

"Let's go home."