Chapter 46

I sat quietly waiting for Cynrad to wake up, it had been an hour since we returned to the human world. I took a deep breath and looked at the sky that sparkled with so many stars.

I failed. I failed to talk to Arae, I failed to help Pavel.

"I shouldn't have fought her." I whispered to myself. I shook my head. I did the right thing, she thinks too highly of herself, it's not because she's a powerful creature that I won't let her down. I am still Ksara, one of the princesses of the underworld and holder of the fourth circle.

I bowed down, blasphemous Arae. May she suffer in her cave.

But what? What will I say to Pavel when we get back to them? I'm excited for him but I don't want to disappoint him. I didn't even do anything to lift the curse on Winsoul and make him king.

"I've become a burden." I whispered to myself and swallowed. I stared at the sky again. If only I could ask for help from above. But vaguely, I'm sure they'll just laugh at me and like Arae did, they'll probably look down on me.

It is madness to seek help from enemies.
A Demon? Asking an angel for help? A mania.

"If only we could make a curse that could remove the curse that Alada made." I whispered. I don't want to get to the point where I will kneel before my blasphemous sister just to get rid of the curse she placed.

I want Pavel to be king and rule winsoul, the mission assigned to me? I don't know if I will do that. I don't even know why that was my mission, to make Pavel evil. By the time Pavel becomes king, I will return to where I belong and find out what they did to my soul to make me a demon.

After that I intend to... Make an agreement with father so that he can make me human and so that I can be with Pavel.
I smiled at my thoughts. We will continue to love each other in our past lives.

"I swear Karma, you will never be happy and you will never be with the man you want!"

I froze as I remembered the last words Arae had said before we exited the portal. A curse.

"You're crying." I was stunned when I heard Cynrad's voice next to me. He is awake and looking at me. I immediately wiped my tears when he said I was crying. I smiled at him as he approached me.

"Sorry, I couldn't stop her from not--" I stopped when he suddenly hugged me. My eyes widened because of what he did, my body stiffened because of his speed.

"Sorry, if I was in the way." He whispered. I was the one who broke away from the hug. I looked at him and shook my head.

"It's not your fault." I said and smiled at him. He just stared at me that's why I stood up from my seat.

"Come on, let's go back to Pavel." I said and turned away from him. I don't want our atmosphere to be awkward.

"We didn't convince that creature." He said as we walked, he stopped in my line and looked ahead.

"She's too arrogant." I said and took a deep breath. "I don't know what to say to Pavel." I whispered. I felt him look at me.

"You don't have to tell him anything Ksara, he didn't order you to make a way for him to become king." He said that's why I looked at him.

"But I want him to be king, I want to make it up to him." I said, I saw him smile. A smile that was obviously forced.

"You're just putting yourself in harm's way, do you think Pavel would be happy if something bad happened to you?" he asked, I looked at the road and didn't answer. He is right.

"There may be another way to get rid of the curse." He added, we were suddenly silent. Only the wind blowing and the sound of insects can be heard.

May there be another way, whatever that way is I am willing to do, just let Pavel be king.

We walked in silence, only he would speak whenever necessary while I silently wondered if there was another way to get rid of the curse.

Until we were on the opposite side of their house, I suddenly felt a feeling and emotion that I don't understand, I was suddenly restless for reasons I don't know.

"I'm sure he'll be delighted." Cynrad said that's why I looked at him, he was looking at the door of the old man's house but he was obviously hesitant to enter. I started stepping inside and turned the doorknob.

When the door opened, I immediately saw The old man talking to Bael and the holy woman.

"What doesn't he have?" Gabriel asked confusedly.

"I don't know but--" Bael stopped speaking when his eyes caught our direction. The two of us looked at each other so the holy woman's eyes widened and she quickly approached me.

"Ksara! It's good that you're here! We've been looking for you for a few days and he's been waiting for you for a few days!" The holy woman said while hugging me.

My reaction did not change. I remained silent and looked for the only man I wanted to see.

"Where's Pavel?" I asked causing the divine woman and Gabriel to stop. I looked at the three of them as if I was waiting for their answer.

"He came out just now." Bael said but I could smell the smell of him lying. My eyes squinted.

"Where is Pavel?" I asked so emphatically that the Holy Lady looked at Bael and then turned to me again.

"Pavel suddenly disappeared, earlier he was just opposite the house waiting for you but when it was time to let him in he was no longer there." Holy woman said that's why I stopped. I immediately sharpened my sense of smell and tried to smell Pavel.

When the smell got better outside.

I immediately turned around and went out of the old man's house, I heard Cynrad calling me but I ignored it. I just followed Pavel's scent.

As I followed it I suddenly felt fear, it was the first time I felt it but I always see it in people. Now, it's happening to me. I'm afraid that something bad might happen to Pavel, that someone might take him.

But all my fear disappeared, I also stopped walking and breathed a sigh of relief when I saw him sitting under the pole and playing with a stone, he seemed to be waiting for something and kept looking the other way. This is the road where I caught Cynrad following me.

What is he doing here?

I saw him take a deep breath then play with the stone again. I just watched him from where I was standing.

How long has he been there?

"She'll be back too." I heard him say and again I saw him glance down the road. Until a few minutes passed, I just stayed where I was standing and watched him.

I saw him stand up and let go of the stone he was playing with. He went to the middle of the road and looked at the road.

"Where have you been Ksara?" I heard him ask. He faced my direction while bowing, put his two hands in his pocket and started walking while bowing.

Really stupid, doesn't he think? He might stumble if he doesn't watch where he is walking.

Until he bumped into me, I immediately took the opportunity to pull him and hug him. I felt his surprise at what I did.

"Wh-who-- Ksara?" He asked in surprise but I hugged him even tighter.

"Shh, don't move." I said and closed my eyes while hugging him. I felt the stiffness of his body and his strange emotions.

"Y-you're here." He said and hugged me back. That's when my tears started to form, my tears that I've been holding back.

Every day Pavel was waiting for me to come but I didn't do anything good or that could be called good for him. I leave for nothing