chapter 17

I hadn't realised I had fallen asleep until I woke up in Dean's arms, his warmth enveloping me, making me feel content. I run my fingers up and down his chest, softly humming to myself as I opened my eyes, happy for once. a feeling I never thought I'd feel, something I never thought I'd have. I looked up to see Dean was awake, he was smiling down at me, his eyes soft and happy. I was pleased I could make him smile, it's a hard thing sometimes to smile, even when you want to. The world can weigh you down, even when it seems like it doesn't.

“Hi.” I say softly, “how did you sleep?”

“I slept well with you in my arms.” He says, his smile growing, becoming wider. “I know you did, you drooled on me.”

I slap his chest playfully, “I do not drool.”

“Oh but you do sweetness.” He laughs, spinning me over and cuddling me from behind.

I was smiling widely, and I didn't think the day could get any better, I didn't think life could get any better. is this what it's like to be happy? is this what everyday could be like with him? will it be the same with Zane? I couldn't wait to find out, spend more time with both of them. They were like sunshine in the World of Darkness and I wanted more, much more. I don't even think I was this happy when my parents were alive, let alone after they were gone, I have never felt this way before. I had never wanted someone before, not the way I want them. both of them.

it was as if the world was finally coming the way I wanted it to, the way it should have been all along. I didn't know how long it would last, but I was happy just to live in this moment, to live in every moment I could have with them. even if I wasn't this red wolf of legend, I could still have them, we could still be happy. Though I hope and pray that I am the red wolf, I want to be able to protect them, I want to be able to protect myself. I want to be strong, powerful and brave.

“Are you hungry?” he asks me, planting a kiss on the back of my head.

“Starving.” I laugh, my stomach growling just then.
Nyx stirs in my mind for the first time since they brought me here, prancing around my head and huffing happily, showing me that she’s as content as I am. I was pleased she felt the same way that did, ecstatic that we were both on the same page.

“We’ll then, cannot keep the lady waiting.” Dean laughs softly before picking me up and cradling me in his arms.

“”I can walk.” I say with a giggle.

“I know that You can.” He says, but doesn’t put me down.

“Then put me down.” I laugh again.

“”But I want to carry you my sweetness.” He protests, faking a pout as we walk down the Stairs. “You aren’t at all heavy and I like having you close to me.”

“Ok.” I smile shyly, my voice squeaking a little when he proceeds to tickle me for a second.

Dean’s eyes glaze over for a moment and I wonder why, a scowl suddenly ruining his nice smile. What could have changed his mood so quickly? Had I done something wrong?

“We have to meet Zane in my office, I’m afraid lunch will have to wait.” He says with a growl, catching me off guard.

“How do you know?” I ask, “is something wrong?”

“He’s informed the other packs that you are here, they are on their way.” He snarls, his eyes flickering between brown and black. “We have a pack mental link that helps us communicate with each other through our wolves.”

“Oh.” I frown, my anxiety rising. “Will they take me away from you?”

“No.” He growls, the sound filling the hall he’s walking us down. “I won’t allow anyone to take you from me.”

He slams open the door to his office, growling at Zane who was stood their waiting for us, his expression laced with guilt and sadness. Dean placed me down into one of the chairs and approached his beta at a thunderous pace, slamming him into one of the book shelf’s. They start smashing their fists into each other and fighting right in front of my eyes, I scream when Zane’s head bounces off the wood and rush over, trying to separate them both.

I had to stop them from hurting each other, they were supposed to work together! Not fight like children who couldn’t get their own way, what is wrong with them?

“Stop! What are you doing?!” I shout, pushing them away from each other with a strength I didn’t know that I had.

They both look at me in shock for a moment before taking a breath, Dean moving to stand behind his desk to give each other some space.

“What’s happening?” I shout again, “why are you trying to fight? I thought you cared about each other!!”

“We do care about each other.” Zane says, coming to their defence. “We’re just having a disagreement.”

“Having a disagreement doesn’t mean you fight to sort it out?!” I scream, loosing my temper. “Can’t you talk to each other instead of throwing punches?!”

The room begins to shake and I don’t know weather it’s me who’s going dizzy or something else, I’d never felt this angry before, never even lost my temper. Books fall from the shelves and the table snaps in half as my breathing increases rapidly, and I soon see that it’s me, everything I look at breaks and Zane and Dean are now on the floor with their heads bowed and necks on show. I wanted them to know that it wasn’t ok to treat each other like that, that they couldn’t just fight each other when things got hard.