chapter 30

I took a quick shower and put the same clothes back on, wondering where Eve was and if she had bought me some yet. I couldn't stay in these forever and it seemed like I would be here for a long time, well between the packs anyway, I wanted to stay with my men, I want to spend the rest of my life with them, all of us together. once I was finished I went back into the bedroom, realising that everyone had gone, that it was just me.

I thought about what happened during the night, or early morning, how Nyx had spoken to me, how she had told me we would be alright, that the warlock wouldn't get us again. we were safe with them, and they were safe with us, we were a team. She told me that we were powerful, that we were destined for greatness, that we would always be together.

She was a part of me, the better part some may say, but she was mine. We were one.

“Nyx?” I called silently, hoping she would answer.

“I’m here.” She responds, “I can hear all your thoughts and eventually you’ll hear mine.”

“What are we doing to do if Balthazar comes for us?” I ask.

“We will fight him off, you need to learn how to protect us, I can only do so much. Ask them to teach us self defence, how to fight.”

“You think they will?”

“Of course, they want us to be safe, their wolves want us to be safe. They will do anything to help us.”

“I’ll ask.” I say, running a hand through my knitted crimson hair. “If we are made for greatness then how do we use our powers? I have only ever done it by accident.”

“We learn.” She says slowly, “we can’t just expect to know what we are going overnight.”

“But we’ll get better at controlling it?”

“Yes.” She laughs, “don’t be so worried all the time. We’ve got this.”

“I can’t help but be worried. I’ve always been worried.”

“I know, but things are changing and we will never go back to hun, he can’t hurt us now.”

“Do you promise?” I ask, heading towards the door, knowing that they would be preparing breakfast.

“I promise. We are safe.”

I make my way down to the kitchen with a spring in my step, looking forward to breakfast with my men, with the men I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. I wonder if it will always be this exciting, if I will always feel so happy around them, I hope it does. I never want it to end, I want them always. I walk in to the kitchen with a massive silly smile on my face, staying by the doorway as I watch them all work together making breakfast. 

Zane is near the breakfast bar, mixing the batter to make pancakes, the smell of it lingering in my nose. He has a swing to his step as he dances to the upbeat song on the radio. The same music I could hear hallway up the stairs. I smile more at his childish antics, pleased that he is so carefree, it makes me feel his happiness just by watching him go. 

Matthew is by the expensive coffee maker, making everyone the fuel we need to star the day, he had a small smirk on his face as he added cream and sugar. I wanted nothing more than to kiss his redened cheeks, he would be warm from being next to the cooker whilst it was on, and I wanted to cuddle up to him, see him smile at me and show his dimple. 

Dean is dancing around the cooker as he fried bacon, eggs and saisage, my mouth watering at the sight. He was smiling and singing along to the songs I don't know, happy and content with life as it is. I wanted to be a part of that, I wanted to make him happy, I wanted him in my arms where we could be together forever. 

Alexander is pouring fresh juice into jugs and cutting up fresh fruit to accompany the pancakes, my heart swelling with nothing but love for him, his smile intoxicating and addictive. I want them all to smile like this all the time, I want them to be the happiest they have ever been in their lives. 

I stand in the doorway watching and smiling to myself, wondering if I should disturb them, they are clearly in some sort of Rhythm that I'm not a part of, am I an outsider here? I felt like one, like maybe I don't belong here, or anywhere else. Like I am some sort of anomaly. 

"here she is, perving on us as we slave away over her food." Zane laughs, leaving the pancake mixture to come and kiss my cheek. "Enjoy the show?"

"very much." I say, forcing the smile back on my face. "You all work well together."

"I'm glad you think so sweetness, takes time to serve the lady of the house." Dean chuckles, flipping the eggs over. "How do you like your bacon?"

"cooked." I giggle, making my way past Zane and over to peak into the pan. 

Dean turns to smile down at me, enjoying my joking attitude. "Can do sweetness." 

"It all smells so good." I say, stealing a piece of strawberry from the ones Alexander hadn't cut yet. "Keep up the good work and you all might get a reward." I wink. 
 
"Well if that isn't a motivator I don't know what is." Alex laughed deeply, the sound penetrating my heart.

"I love fruit." I giggle, stealing another piece. "I didn't have it often before."