Chapter 49

I wake the next morning with a throbbing pain between my legs and on my neck, Drax asleep next to me in the bed, I didn't remember falling asleep, all I know is that it was after he violated me. I felt like crying my eyes out and screaming as loud as I could, my mind confused and afraid.
I didn't want what he did to me, and yet; my body had reacted to its mate, craving what he did. It just wasn't right, how could he do this to me? And why did I feel attached to him now? I wanted to kill him for what he had done, yet a deep part of me would miss him.
I was stupid to think he wouldn't hurt me, he was the leader of bloodthirsty rogues, what else could I expect? I was some sort of trophy to him, something he wanted to own and win. Nothing else.
I know that it's the mate bond making my feeling all messed up, and I hate it. I wish that I didn't feel any of it, I wish that I was back with my true mates. Helping and loving them.
I wonder if they are thinking of me, if they are searching for where I went? Do they care that I vanished? Do they know what happened?
I had so many unanswered questions, none of which I could know the answer to. Drax's arm was thrown over my waist, holding me in place and stopping me from moving. But the issue was that I needed the toilet. Badly.
I tapped and shook his arm. "Alpha Drax?" I whisper.
he groans, tightening his arm around me. "What?!" He snaps.
"I-I need the toilet." I stammer, his anger raidiating from him in waves.
"Fine. But don't be long." He growls, moving his arm.
I say nothing back as I slip from the bed and make my way to the en-suite bathroom, quietly shutting the door behind me. I do my business quickly as wash his scent away l the best I can in the sink, careful not to ruin the bandages as I do.
when I head back into the bedroom Drax is already dressed, sat on the edge of the bed waiting for me. I try to cover my private areas the best I can as he stands, staring at me.
"no need to cover yourself. I have already seen it." He says, laughing at my fear.
"that doesn't mean I'm comfortable with you seeing me." I snap back, growling slightly as he steps forward.
"You better get comfortable with it, you are mine."
"you might think so, but that is only because you are threatening the lives of the men I love."
"I would be careful of your tone, Annalise."
"I'm going to kill you the first chance I get." I growl, shoving as much venom into my voice as I could.
He snarls at me. "you might think so, but if you try you wouldn't like the consequences."
"I hate you."
"That's one step away from love." He laughs, walking straight past me.
He disappears for a moment before coming back with a yellow summer dress, one with a low front.
He hands to the dress to me. "you can wear this, it'll fit."
"what about underwear?" I ask, noticing that mine had gone.
"you have to earn that privilege." He smiles, once again inspecting my naked body.
"you can't be serious!" I shout, snatching the dress. "You are sick."
"I can take the dress away as well if you carry on with that tone." He snaps, wrapping his hand around my throat. "Is that what you want?"
I try my best to shake my head, the action awkward as I croak. "No, alpha."
he squeezes my throat, cutting off my oxygen supply. "This is not a democracy Red, you will do as you are told, nothing more. Do you understand?!"
He realises my trait and I cough and croak, dropping to my knees, I nod my head slightly to show that I understand, my fear spiking. How could he be like this? I needed to find a way to escape, but how? I doubted he would let me roam around on my own and my wolf was suppressed.
"good girl, now we are going to go to breakfast and you will say nothing unless I give you permission to speak, do I make myself clear?" He snarls, pulling me to my feet. "If you make a fool of me, you will regret it."
"ok." I whisper, quickly pulling the dress over my head, disapoonted when it only just reached my knees.
how could I go down there with my nipples showing and no underwear? It was embarrassing. But what choice did I have? I was once again a prisoner, not choices were my own.
I was alone again.
lost to my own fate.