Chapter 88 - Hannah

The red wolf comes with power, money, fame. But it also comes with a responsibility to the world, it comes with the idea that you will always follow the rules set by the great moon goddess.
No one can challnege the power of the Red wolf. No one.
But i didn't want to be the next red wolf, i never asked for it.
I love my family, i love all my dads, my brothers and sisters, most of all, i love my mum. But just because i love them doesn't mean that i want to BE them. I was happy in a bubble entirely of my own, and today i will finally tell my parents what i want.
I want to travel the world and see things that i have only ever dreamed of.
I want a different life. i want a life away from all the fame.
I want to go somewhere no one knows my name.
"But are you sure leaving is the best idea?" My wolf Skyla asks, her voice filled with worry.
I nod to my reflection in the mirror, my dark eyes glancing back at me. "It is what I've always wanted."
"We could get hurt." She murmurs. "And what about finding our mate?"
i sigh, shaking my head, "We have our whole life to find our mate, I want to live free."
"We have a responsibility, you said so yourself." she growls, "we are the red wolf. The next chosen one."
"I don't want to be the chosen one, i never did." i rub my eyes with the backs on my hands. "i have made my decision. I made it long before you ever came along."
Skyla whines in pain, retreating back.
I didn't mean to be so mean. I didn't want to hurt her.
But i was only eighteen. I wanted a life first. My dream was not to settle down and have kids as young as possible.
My dream was to travel the world all on my own. I want to experience everything i can.
I want to see things that no one has.
I try to contact my wolf, but Skyla ignores me. I know i hurt her, but we have plenty of time to settle down.
I am young, I want to spend my younger years travelling not changing nappies.
I take another breath to calm myself, it was alwyas hard confronting my mother. I know that she only wants what is best for me, but its like she doesn't truly see me for who i am. Maybe i am just too different.
Maybe i never should have been a part of this family.
I stroll down to my mums office, knowing that my dads will be there, they are always there on a morning. Work, work and more work. Running a pack is more than just fighting, and my parents run four of them, plus help many smaller packs along the continent.
I knock twice, holding my breath.
"come in." comes the smooth voice of my mum.
Here we go. it is now or never.
I open the door and step inside, shocked to see only Drax and mum sat leant over the long desk.
Where were my other fathers? Fuck. i needed them all to be together.
I square my shoulders, there is no backing down now.
Mum looks up, smiling gently at me, "Hannah, we missed you at breakfast, are you feeling better?"
I nod, once, too fast. "Yeah, but i need to talk to you guys, do you have time?"
Take deep breaths. Just like we practiced.
"We always have time for our children." My father, Drax says, looking up at me.
I walk forward, nervously perching on the end of the chair in front of their desk. "I have never asked for anything before, not once." i say softly. "I have always been grateful for everything i have, and the opportunities i have been given." I run a hand through my hair, "But this isn't the life that i want." they are both watching me, all expressions void from their faces. "This was never the life i wanted for myself."
"What are you trying to say?" Mum asks, leaning forward on her elbows.
Drax sits down, seeming to realsie this is not to normal type of conversations that we have.
I take a long breath, studying to floor. "I want to leave." I whisper, "I want to spend a few years travelling the world."
Mum slumps back in her chair, eyes wide. "You want to leave your family?"
i nod, "Yes."
"You want to travel the world alone?" Drax murmurs, voice hard like stone. "with no escort?" he scoffs, "You must be crazy if you think for one moment that your other fathers and i are going to agree to such a stupid idea, you must-"
"Drax." my mum says, one word, four letters, spoken with a voice so stern that it makes my blood run cold.
He snaps his mouth shut, she turns to look at me. "Is this really what you want?" She asks.
Again, i nod. "I have never been so sure in all my life."
She considers my words for several tense seconds, "Then you can go."
I almost jump out of my seat.
"But..."
Fuck. Here is comes.
So much for freedom.
"You will contact us once a week on a sunday to let us know where you are, and most importanly, to let us know that you are safe and having a good time." She smiles in the way that only a mother can. "I want you to be happy Hannah, and if leaving makes you happy then i will gladly support you." She comes around the table and embraces me in a tight hug. "You have enough money in your personal account to travel for a year, but if you need more all you have to do is call us." She pulls back, tears in her eyes, "But i will miss you, so much."
I fight back my own tears of joy, "Thank you mum." i say. "i'll miss you too."
I am really going to do it.
i am going to travel the world.