Chapter 56

Drax never came back that night, nor was I told that I could leave the confines of the bedroom. I remained as quiet as I could, scared that if I made too much noise that he would come barging in and demand my body. Something that I knew I wouldn't be able to obey.
I couldn't allow him to touch me intimately again, it would only confuse my already flustered mind, how could I let him do such a thing to my body? He had marked and mated with me against my will, yet what did I really do to stop him from ruining me?
Nothing. I laid there and allowed him to do stuff to me that would disappoint and anger my real mates, how could I do that to them? How could I betray them like that?
Woukd they even want me back if they knew the truth, woukd they blame me? I sobbed into my pillow for hours, not knowing what to do or what would happen today. could I be the good girl I needed to be to survive? Could I pretend to be tamed?
My mates had always been supportive of me, I just had to trust them, know that they would come for me when they could. I had to believe they wouldn't just leave me here to my fate, that they would take me away from this place.
they each swore to protect me at all costs, I just hope that cost didn't include their lives. That was a price I wasn't willing to pay, I couldn't lose them. Not when I had not long since found them to begin with. How would I ever say goodbye?
I jumped when the door slammed open, climbing from the bed and taking a step back when Alpha Drax entered, his face informing me that he was still angry. He steps into the room and closes the door, watching me closer as he walks around the bed, ensuring that I had no escape.
"I'm disappointed in you, Red." He says slowly. "I thought we had got past your defiance."
I take a deep breath and bare my neck in submission, knowing I had no other choice. "I'm sorry alpha Drax, I didn't mean to defy you, I was afraid."
"Afraid of becoming the Luna to my pack? How am I supposed to take that?" He growls, grabbing my chin and forcing me to look at him. "Are you planning on leaving me? Is that why you don't want to introduced to the pack?"
"No! I am not leaving, I was afraid that the pack wouldn't like me, I want to make a good impression." I argue softly, attempting to think of the best lie. "I didn't want to disposing them or you."
He stops, letting go of my chin as he moved to sit on the edge of the bed. "You were afraid of not being welcomed into my pack?"
I could see that he was starting to believe me, the anger in his eyes almost completely gone. I moved to sit on the bed beside him and take his large hand in mine. Praying that my words woukd work.
"I thought that because I was already mated to others they wouldn't see me as worthy, that they might question us. Question me." I whisper, looking down at our entwined hands. "I'm sorry."
"I thought it was because you despised me, I thought you were still hung up on leaving me." He admits, tucking my hair behind my ears and looking into my eyes. "Tell me you won't leave Annalise, tell me you'll stay."
"I'll stay with you." I lie, producing a sweet smile. "I know we got off to a bad start, but you are my mate. We are meant to be together."
He shakes his head and runs a hand through his hair, "I came here to punish you, I thought I needed to show you what being broken really meant." He laughs slowly, my heart racing. "But now as I look at you, I see your fear and know that I have caused it."
"Don't blame yourself Drax." I mumble, gently placing a kiss onto his cheek. "I shouldn't have stepped out of line."
it was killing men inside to show him this much affection, but I didn't have a choice, I needed him to believe that I wasn't going to run away at the first opportunity. I needed to prove he could trust me, even if he actually couldn't.
"No you shouldn't have." He agrees, standing back up. "But maybe I was too hard on you, pushing you away because I believed that I couldn't have you. I see that now."
"We've both made mistakes Drax, let this be a new start." I say, standing up as I follow him into the closet, knowing that he was going to change his clothes.
"Alright." He nods, pulling out an outfit for the day and a lilac dress for me. "But I will not go easy on you if you defy me again. I need to show my people that you will obey."
"I will." I smile softly, taking the dress from him. "I won't let you down again."
"Good. That's exactly what I wanted to hear." He chucnles, kissing the top of my head. "Now get changed, breakfast will be served soon."
"ok." I smile sweetly, walking into the bathroom.
Once the door was shut I leant against it, trying to calm my racing heart. I felt like I was betraying those I was mates to by acting so sweeet and kind around a monster. But I had no choice, if I was going to survive here, I needed to play the part of a good Luna and Mate to the tyrant.
I can't let him find out that I've been faking the entire thing, I dread to think what might happen if he did realise. What would he do to me? I can't imagine that it would be anything good, let alone something I would walked away from.
Stay strong Annalise, you can do this. I told myself sternly as I looked in the mirror, giving myself the confidence that I will need.