Chapter 44

I woke up slowly, the heat around me warm and comforting, which I knew was caused by my mates who were all pressed against a part of my body, each one snoring away, though I couldn't fall back to sleep. Worry had my mind running circles around itself, not knowing whether I should relax or not. I rolled over, watching the rise and fall of Zane's chest as he slept peacefully, wishing that I could too, I needed the rest after the night we had, but I couldn't.
my mind kept going back to Balthazar, wondering what he was doing and what his plan was, he had already sent vampires to search for me. What other lengths would he go to? How do I know that I will ever be safe?
I hated the thought of going back to him, of having to be his slave once more, yet I also hated the thought of my mates getting hurt because of me. What if we couldn't stop the next attack so easily? What would happen to them and the pack if I was captured?
their was so much that I didn't know, so many unanswered questions running around in my head, making it impossible to rest, to see the sense in going back to sleep.
"Nyx?" I called silently, hoping my wolf would answer.
she groaned as she woke, her mind as hectic as my own. "Stop worrying so much anni, we'll be alright."
"how do you know that?" I growl, "what if he sends more against us? More than we can handle."
"the moon goddess has blessed us with extraordinary strength and endurance, we will be fine. I promise you." She snarled back, though her voice was softer than before.
"I'm afraid Nyx, I don't want to be a slave again. I hated it. We both did." I whisper, tears threatening to fall from my eyes. "I wouldn't survive their now, I've grown to appreciate the freedom I have, I won't give it up."
"then don't." She says. "We will fight to the death to keep it, I won't let him take us again."
"you are sure we can do this?" I ask.
"of course I am." she responds with a slight laugh. "I have faith in us, and in the moon goddess. We are the Red wolf. The most powerful she-wolf to walk the earth, our children will be the next alphas of amazing packs. We can do anything."
I smile at the thought, I had never wanted children before I escaped, knowing that they would face a life of torturr and pain. But now we were free I had the option to have them, to continue my family line. Surprisingly, that is what I wanted, to have pups with my mates and to live a life I can be proud of.
it's a wonderful thought knowing that you can make your own decisions and I was estatic at the prospect of becoming a mother to one of my mates pup. I wanted to have a child with them all, perhaps multiple, we would have to wait and see. But I hope I get the chance to do just that.
maybe we would have to kill Balthazar before anything like that happened, but I really didn't want it to come to that. I wasn't a murderer, I didn't like taking someone else's life, but if it came down to us or him. I know who I would choose.
I shuffled to the bottom of the bed and quietly walked to the bathroom, deciding to take a quick shower before the other woke up, not wanting to disturb them with me being unable to fall back to sleep.
I washed my hair first, using the brush they had left for me to push the conditioner through to the ends of my hair. Quickly washing my body and shaving my legs, it would be cold as always, but if we decided to mate again, I wanted to at least be presentable.
I dried my hair the best I could with a towel and walked back into the bedroom, almost jumping out of my skin when I collide with Alexander.
"I wondered where you had run off to." He chuckles low, careful not to wake the others.
"I had to clean after last night." I commented, winking at him.
"exciting things occurred last night." He says, grabbing my bare hips, "I'd like to do it again."
"not now." I laugh, slapping his arm, "I just cleaned myself up."
"all the more reason to get dirty again." He laughed, kissing my roughly.
I pulled back, a breathless mess. "I want to surprise you all with breakfast." I say, pushing against his chest. "Don't wake the others yet, I need time to prepare it all."
"your wish is my command." He chuckles one more, lightly slapping my bum as he heads of into the bathroom.
I giggle to myself as I enter the wardrobe, deciding on a simple grey pair of jeans and yellow wool jumper, quickly slipping into my pumps that they had gotten me. I almost ran down the stairs, excited to make something for them, deciding that pancakes and bacon would be best.
I pulled everything I needed out of the fridge and cupboards, smiling to myself as I began to prepare the pancake batter, my heart swelling with love as I hoped they would like what I have done for them.
I heard the kitchen door open just as I pour some of the mixture into the pan, sighing slightly. "I told you to wait." I chucked, thinking it would be Alexander.
I turn around, shocked to see a man dressed all in black, holding a white rag in his hand as he approached me; his emerald green eyes locked onto my face.
"W-who are you?" I murmur, panic beginning to set into my mind.
the man said nothing back and instead ran towards me, slamming me into the cooker and knocking the bowl from my hand, my screams muffled by the rage he placed over my face. I tried to fight, kicking and punching him as he held the strange smelling thing to my face, confused when my muscles began to feel heavy and slow.
Tears slipped from my eyes as I slumped against him, nothing but fear racing through my mind seconds before everything black.