chapter 31

"You can have it as much as you want now, my love." Matthew adds, handing me a streaming cup of coffee just the way I like it; cream and three sugars. 

I take a grateful sip and nod, "theirs so much I can do now that I never could before and I plan to experience it all."

"I like your attitude." Zane says, "what's first on the list." 

I smile. "Sex."

Alexander grunts in approval whilst Matthew chokes on his coffee, spilling it all over the floor. I laugh, knowing I would catch them off guard, both Zane and Dean watching me for any sign of deception.

"don't you think you might be taking that too quickly?" Dean asks, concerned. 

"I've not ever done anything I've wanted to do because I was a prisoner, now I'm free with four wonderful mates." I counter, knowing what I want. "I'm ready for this, and bedsides; Zane already marked me and I know you all want to."

"I'm not going to argue." Zane smiles, pulling me against him. "I'm ready if you are."

"I will not object either,  so long as you are sure." Alex chuckes, and I can already the growing bulge in his pants at the thought. 

"I'm down so long as you don't feel pressured in any way and know we can stop anytime that you want." Matthew nods, cleaning up the spilt coffee.

we all turn towards Dean, waiting for his answer, he continues cooking for a painfully long minute, his eyes slightly glazed over. I hold out hope that when he said that he wants me he wasn't lying, that he does want me in that way also, he talked about marriage, but now sex seemed a stretch. 

"alright." He says finally. "A happy wife means a happy life after all."

"I don't want any of you to feel like you have to either." I say, suddenly worried I'm forcing them. "You have to want it."  

I opened up my feelings to them all, knowing somehow that they would know how genuine I feel and how much  I care for them, I didn't want any doubt between us. I felt the power within me and brought it forward, clinging onto it as I opened my mind to them; following Nyx's silently prompts that I'm doing it right. I connected to Zane first and he gaped, taking a step back in shock. 

"you ok man?" Dean asked him, concern etched on his face. 

"I can feel her, the power within her." He says back, his eyes locked onto me.

"I need you all to know how I feel." I say, pushing it further, infiltrating all of their minds, showing them what's inside of me. "Believe me when I say that I want you all. I love you."

 

I pushed as much love and affection to the front of my mind as I thought was enough, knowing that they could all feel it, each one of them stumbling slightly once it reached them. I could feel some disturbance, like doubt that this was happening, but I pushed harder, breaking the doubt and showing them nothing  but the happiness and love I have felt since they became mine. 

Zane pulled me into his arms, holding me as close as he could. "I love you too little wolf." He says softly.

"how are you doing that?" Alexander asks me, stroking the back of my knotted hair. 

"I'm not sure, I just know that I wanted to show you all my love and somehow, I knew I could." I whisper, hiding in Zane's arms. "I wanted you all to see how much you mean to me and how ready I am for us to become one."

"You truly are a gift from the moon goddess Annalise." Matthew smiles sweetly, all of them coming to embrace me. 

"who's hungry?" Zane says after several minutes of our group hug, breaking the silence.

"me!" I shout, my stomach growling angrily.

"then let's get you some food." Dean laughs, moving back towards the pan. 

"sounds like a plan." I reply.