Chapter 53

wake up to the same beeping, knowing that I was in the hospital, I tried right away to contact Nyx but she was gone, unable to contact to me. That only meant one thing, they had injected me with wolfsbane and silver again, riding me of both my power and my wolf.
I open my eyes slowly, blinking several times against the light, the world slowly coming into focus. Drax was sat at the side of the hospital bed, watching me closely. I tried to move, realising that my arms were chained to the bed, my panic instantly rising.
what was going on? Why did Drax seem so calm?
"unchain me." I whisper, turning my head to look at him, my own voice betraying me as I growl.
"Not until I'm sure you will behave yourself, you have caused quite the stir among my pack, she-wolves are thinking they can fight back against their mates." He shakes his head, acting as though it was the worst thing that could have happened. "We need to show them that you are a good partner, one who respects the authority of her mate."
"fat chance." I laugh, pulling against the chains. "I will never willingly obey you. You have to suppress my wolf in order to control me, that sound like a good partner to you? To me it sounds like you are losing control and you don't like it."
"You need to decide what is best for you, Red. I won't go back and forth like this anymore, you can either obey me, or I start killing the she-wolves." He growls rising to his feet. "Is that what you want? Do you want to be the cause of their demise?"
"You can't blame me for them wanting a better life, that is their choice." I snap, frustrated. "That would be like me blaming them for your stupid actions."
"Fine. But remember this was your choice." He nods, turning towards the door.
He calls the guards and tells them something that I can't hear, my curiosity rising. Two guards walk in, dragging a young girl, one that wasn't much older than myself, her body beaten and whipped to the point you would barely be able to recognise her.
she looks up at me with fear in her eyes, as I freeze, panic sweeping it's way through my mind. Drax wouldn't kill his own people, would he? I open my mouth to say something, to say that I would listen.
but it was too late.
Drax's claws extended and he sliced them across the girls throat, her gurgles and cries silencing as she dropped to the ground, blood oozing from her neck. I sat there, shocked and afraid. He had killed her, as though she meant nothing, as though she was nothing.
"what have you done?!" I scream, pulling against the chains with a new fire in me, one that screamed to get away. To run.
"I will not tolerate defiance within my pack Annalise, I suggest that you remember this moment because their will be more who share the same fate as Katy here if you defy me again." He motions for the guards to remove her body as he turns to look at my tear stained face. "And the next time you attack me, five she-wolves will die. Do I make myself clear? You can't win."
"you are a monster!" I cry, flopping back onto the bed.
She had died because of me, because I chose to stand up to a tyrant, it was my fault. she didn't deserve it, all she wanted was a better life, just like me. But now she was dead she would never have any kind of life, her family would mourn her because of me. Maybe I was a monster too, I didn't think about the consequences and now a girl was dead.
Alpha Drax walked back towards me and lightly kissed my forehead, "I don't want to argue with you Red, life could be so good if you would just give it a chance, eventually you can have your wolf back. See the others you have mates to. But first, I need your loyalty," he says softy. "I need to know that you will obey me."
"you will really allow me to see them?" I ask, flinching when he wipes the tears from my cheeks.
He nods slowly, and I see no sign of deceit in his face. "of course, once you start behaving we can discuss it more. But until then, I want you to obey my every command."
"Alright..." I say, "just please don't kill anyone else. I'll listen."
my shoulders slump as he smiles, knowing that he has won. I couldn't fight him all on my own, and I couldn't be repsonsible for the deaths of others who were innocent. I just couldn't. I didn't want anyone to die and if that meant giving up my free will and my freedom then that's what I must do, I didn't want anyone else to get hurt because of me.
Drax removes the chains from my hands and smiles down at me, tucking my hair behind my ears. "We could be happy you and I, you just have to give it a chance."
I nod, forcing a small smile as he lifts me into his arms, cradling me against his chest. He was so confusing, one minute he was brutal and cruel and the next he was gentle and kind, it was making my head spin. How could I ever get used to this?
how could I ever be happy ?