I kissed Declan

Chapter thirty-one
Jayde
I look up at Gwen, as she helps me with the champagne. She gives me one last look before she walks out. She looks angry actually.
I laugh inwardly. She used to make me feel inferior and now, she's been forced into serving me.
Well, I've been workinv at the bar for three days now but the manager would not stop giving me special treatment.
Most times, she would let me go home earlier. Though I don't think I can continue working for her yet I will use her for now.
I've made her and Jayden promise not to expose my identity. They are supposed to call me Jayde in public and Hattie in private.
It feels weird that I'm still unable to identify as myself. I don't like the fact that I cant even walk in the daytime. I think that will reduce after Hattie is found.
Who am I kidding? I might have to be in hiding for months. No one knows when Hattie will wake up. And they are not even going to let the world know she's in the hospital.
Assuming they can do that, then they will stop looking for some invented kidnappers
"Hattie," Ruth calls and sip her wine.
I look at her, amaze by how much her behavior has changed towards me.
"Why don't you want to go home?" She looks up at me as I try to cook up something,"You can tell me anything,I promise not to divulge it."
I let out a sigh and take my wine, " I don't love Henry but I still had to marry him anyways."
Ruth raises confused brows, " Are you kidding me?"
I shake my head slightly, " I wish I am."
" OMG! I'm so sorry Hattie. But can't you just try to love him?"
I think about it, then my memories with Henry resurface. I blush and look away. I take my wine in one gulp and place the cup on the table. I've come to learn how well the riches do that I do it even when I'm Jayde.
"It won't work."
"Sorry, why do you think so?"
I meet her gaze, " Because Henry doesn't love me."
She looks away now, as if reminiscing on my dad situations. Her phone made a beep and she looks at me urgently, "I'm sorry Hattie but I have to be somewhere. You can go home whenever you seem fit."
I smile gratitude at her. She's so kind now. I watch her walk out.
How do I do my life? I'm so confused. I don't even know why I deserve this. Why, just why can't I have my life back? Why do I have to use face mask at work? Why can't I walk in day light?
I'm so annoyed and well, very sad.
I pour in more wine. I guess I will retire earlier today.
Henry doesn't love Hattie, why can't he just let her be? Why must he make such an announcement? Hattie wasn't kidnapped! She's on the sick bed!
Gosh! Why am I talking like this? Am I drunk?
I made to pour the last content of the wine into the glass cup but nothing is coming out.
I look at the bottle of wine and realize I've drank it all up.
Damn! I have to go home.
I take my phone. The new phone I just got. Damn! It's really nice and even Gwen admired it. It's exactly the same one that Ruth is using.
Also, I spoke to Mom two days ago and told her everything as I've decided. But yesterday, she came to me with a magazine about the missing Hattie.
I had no choice but to tell her everything. She got angry and refuse to talk to me this morning. Damn! I screwed everything. I shouldn't have to hidden it all from her in the beginning.
I don't even know what to do! I feel like screaming or doing something crazy! Gosh, I feel like I'm going crazy.
I walked out of the office with difficulties, it seems like the door leading out was two. Aside from that, I find it difficult to move.
Aside from the fact that I feel drunk, my head is still not clear. I'm still thinking and I hate it!
I feel like I can go back in time and change things. But would I leave my mom in Paul's hands?
Damn! For my mom, I will retake the same decisions.
I know my mom loves me and she's just worried about me. Even I am worried about myself. I feel so miserable.
My eyes feels gummy and sticky all of a sudden. I will just retire home.
I lose my footing and get up again. I laugh and remember this block buster everybody is talking about. I remember a female character that got drunk like I am and had a one-night stand.
Well, I will like to have a one-night stand too. I feel like screaming! I feel so light-headed all of a sudden.
A guy walked past me but he's not my bother at the moment. I feel like dancing.
I twist my twist as I dance to the music being played in my head. I remember this famous dance steps.
I jump up and lose my footing. Something caught me, or is it, someone? The warm arms wrap around mine, pulling me so close to a hard chest.
Strange, yet familiar cologne rise to my nose. I love the smell and I feel like staying like this forever.
I look up at Henry or maybe I'm only seeing double. His eyes widen as he continues to watch me.
I smile. It can't be Henry, it can never be. Just some random guys.
I tip my head in, towards him and kiss him. Damn! I've missed this! I've missed kissing him so much. I'm aching for it. Is there a way I can stop?
Even I don't want to. I cup his face in my hands as I deepen the kiss.
Henry adjust me on the ground and pull me closer, so he would be able to get enough of me.
But it wasn't enough, it felt like there was an insatiable desire. The same one we had that day in the car. His arms rub on my arse, while mine is pulling him closer.
I stop suddenly and pull away. I look into Henry's face and it seems like his face is changing.
I close and reopen my eyes. Suddenly, Henry has transformed into Declan.
What the fuck! I'm looking at Declan and not Henry? What just happened?