Stop the plan

Chapter sixty-two
Henry
I'm so restless. I shouldn't have left Jayde over at Declan's place.
I should have stood my ground with him. No matter what, Jayde is still my wife. It doesn't matter who she really was.
I could have caused trouble that would let him release her for me.
But that can actually cause a heck of trouble for me. What if Declan let the cat out of the bag? He could tell the truth and spoil all my plans.
Aside from the fact that my family will be disgraced, I still won't be able to have Jayde. I'm married to Hattie. And funnily enough, I won't be able to sign the divorce papers since she's on the sickbed.
And I won't be able to get married or have lovers because I have a wife.
Gosh, everything is so annoying. It feels like my head will explode soon.
I feel like punching Declan right now.
I wonder what Jayde is doing currently. I wonder what Declan has done to her and is currently doing.
Well, tonight is the party. Jayde will surely come home.
It doesn't matter if she comes back late, she will surely be mine this evening.
I won't let her leave the moment she walks in through my door.
I get up and walk downstairs. I take a vodka from the bar and pour myself some of its content.
I tried to convince Beatrice but to no avail.
As I've instructed, the divorce will come to pass.
I've been thinking and racking my brain for a way out. Gosh, I feel so empty already. I don't know why it's all so difficult.
It looks as though I can't even think clearly.
But I can't let Declan take hold of her.
Seriously, Jayde is mine and she will forever be. I don't care what I just do but I will make sure she becomes mine.
Wait for a moment, what am I thinking so hard of?
Jayde loves me. She said it herself.
She told Declan she loves me. If she really does, then this thing will be very easy for me.
Gosh, I don't believe I've been skipping that particular part. Gosh, Jayde loves me to the extent that she's unable to let me go.
Because of it, she refused to tell me about it all even when Declan advised her to.
Exactly! That's one thing Declan didn't Know.
Love can make you make decisions you don't want to.
Jayde is going to stay and she will be the one to help me.
I smile as an idea suddenly penetrates my mind.
I drink more of the vodka. Before I know it, I'm already getting to the middle of the bottle.
My eyes feel gummy all of a sudden. I force myself to the sofa. I drink more of the vodka and I can feel I'm finally drunk.
I lay on the chair and close my eyes, falling deep into the world of the unimaginary.
A tap on my shoulder and my eyes fly open.
I look up at Jayde's unsmiling face. She's in a purple long gown.
It seems like she changed before coming home or Itve been a while since she got home. Perhaps she had changed before coming back to wake me up.
I dart at the wall clock and it's eight in the morning.
I sit up and look at her, "Hi."
"Hi," she goes to sit. She went to the next chair instead of her to sit beside me, "I need to speak with you."
I stare and didn't answer. It seems like she took my silence as a positive reply. So, she continues.
"So, I've been thinking about it. We are both in this relationship and we don't even love each other. As we've said earlier, this is just a contractual marriage."
" Hattie," I started but she made a raise of her hand and I stop immediately.
"I'm sorry but I feel you should hear me out before you pass your judgment."
" I'm not passing any judgment, Hattie," I correct dryly.
Jayde inclines her head towards me, " So, what were you doing?" She looks stressed and sad. I wonder why she looks like this.
Did something happen at Declan's place? Wait for a moment, has Declan been able to do what I've never tried? Don't tell me Declan had sex with Jayde?
"Are you even listening to me?" Jayde yells, jerking me out of my thought.
I reach for the remaining content of vodka on the table, "Are you telling me to listen to you after spending the night at your boyfriend's place?"
Her eyes went wider as realization settles in her, " How?"
I sigh, unbothered. I sip the wine slowly, looking away in the process, "I'm not really curious about that. All I'm concerned about is if," I meet her gaze, " Did something happen between you two? Did you guys sleep together?"
I know I shouldn't have asked. I regretted it the moment it was out of my mouth. I look up at her pale face, the scary look on her face.
"Are you kidding me?" She screams, standing up in the process, " How can you think of something so absurd!"
I stand, my eyes still watching her, " Good. I would have been disappointed if something happened while we are still a couple."
"OMG!" She rubs her dress nervously, something she has been doing so often. I'm almost getting familiar with all her attitudes, "You can't sincerely think something like that would happen. Declan is just my friend."
I take a step closer, " Is he?"
She looks away, " Anyways, I need to tell you something."
I take another step until we are so close. If she looks up, I will be able to kiss and taste her lips.
"What are you doing? Move back!" She says anxiously.
"What? Why? Aren't you my wife?" My hard tone made her vibrate. I can smell her, her perfume mounted to my head and almost made me lose control. Gosh, everything about her seems to elate me.
" Yes but I'm getting a divorce!"
She drops the bombshell. I lean back so she would be able to look up at me without having to worry if her lips would rub mine or not.
"That's what I wanted to tell you. We don't love each and I don't see any reason why we still have to be in this relationship. It's all bad."
I didn't say anything, so she continues, " So, I think we should call it quits already. We are not going to get anywhere with this."
I blink once as I watch her face, the discomfort that mirrors her face, "Is that it? Is that what you want?"
She stares for a while and slowly nods her head, " That's what I want."
Damn! We both know that's not what Jayde wants. Jayde loves me more than that. The only thing that is keeping her away is what I told Beatrice.
If I hadn't made such a dangerous and stupid step, Jayde would still be mine and I wouldn't have to worry about someone taking her away from me. At least now will be guaranteed.
I don't like that she's will be gone by tomorrow.
"Are you sure this is what you want? Are you sure you don't love me?" I tell her as softly as I can.
I stares into her eyes with such intensity that it forced her eyes to mine.
I move my head closer to her, my heartbeat increases. She didn't move away but I was expecting her to do so.
Something hardens in me as our lips touch. She vibrate yet she didn't pull back.
I suck on her lower lip slowly and gently, making the kiss intensify.
I pull back almost immediately, stopping myself with all the energy I have left.
"Or isn't this what you want?" I manage to ask even though my voice sounds so fake to be real.
Her lips parted slightly as she watch me.
When she didn't answer, I move closer to her again, catching her in another brief kiss. Not that I mean to make it deep. I just want to deceive her into changing her mind about the divorce.
If I can't convince Beatrice, I should be able to convince Jayde.
Damn! Why was it so hard to do. Beatrice is one hell of a problem. Now I know where Hattie got her stubbornness from.
No wonder we couldn't work well. Hattie is pompous. Damn! Even though I took some of these bad attributes but I was still nothing compared to Hattie.
That was why I decided I would never fall in love with her. And then, I hated her so very much and I planned to make her suffer for putting my father into letting us marry.
But with Jayde, that's different. There's something in Jayde that kept pulling me closer like a magnet.
I pull back again, each of us catching breathe. Jayde's eyes have gone soft and there's no trace of anger in them.
Somehow, it seems like what I'm doing to her isn't annoying her. Perhaps, it's making her want more.
If that's the case, then my plan might be working.
"What do you say we should do? Should we start all over?"
She didn't answer. She seems so shocked to speak. That is one attribute Hattie doesn't have and will never have.
I chuckle within and move forward again to claim her lips. The lips that's only mine.