Invasion

Chapter sixty-three
Jayde
His arms were around me, holding me in place.
I couldn't stop, I didn't even want to. I suddenly want more of him.
But that can't be possible. I can home to fight with him and issue a divorce not do this.
What will happen to me if I'm unable to issue the divorce?
What will Beatrice do to me? What if they expose the secret behind Hattie's admission. I'm so scared.
The thought of it sent a shiver down my spine. I shake uncontrollably.
Henry pulls me closer, perhaps he thinks I've caught a cold or something.
In a minute, I was pulling him so close to myself too. In the next, my hands travel to his chest as if to unbutton his shirt, then, I was pushing him off.
I push him away with all the energy I have in me.
His look on me registered pain and surprise.
I look away and swallow harder, "We shouldn't be doing this Henry."
"Why? Aren't you my wife?" That word seems to be something he's currently getting proud of but I'm about to burst his bubble.
I will be leaving for good this time around, whether I like it or not.
It doesn't matter if I was forced out of this relationship, I won't be forced into another.
"I am getting a divorce," I say and look up at him again.
His brows were raised but aside from that, there was no surprised look on his face.
It was like he was expecting it.
Well, I'm not shocked. He has always been using the divorce to threaten me.
He blinks once and takes two steps closer to me. I move back quickly.
I don't want to kiss him again. I don't know what might happen to me if I do. I don't want to lose control. I must issue this divorce, for my safety and his as well.
He deserves to be with his real wife. I'm only an imposter. He's not supposed to be with someone that's pretending to be his wife.
"I'm getting a divorce, Henry. Let's just accept it, we don't even love each other," I look up at him again, "I don't love you and you don't love me either."
No, I just lied. I love Henry so much. This is why I've been finding it difficult to let go of him.
And to me, he's a nice man.
Whosoever becomes his wife will be glad.
Declan loves me, yes but I don't think there can ever be anything between us.
My heart already belongs to Henry and it will take some time for me to get past it.
I don't even want to bother him with going out with his friend.
I will like to resume my everyday life business, away from anyone that reminds me of Henry.
If I'm going to forget him, then this is the best thing to do.
"Hattie, listen to me," he says strongly but I'm not ready to.
The man's aim of this is to make sure the divorce went smoothly and I won't be able to do that if I start listening to explanations.
It doesn't matter if he wants to save this relationship, he won't be able to. It's the end already.
But I can't say, Hattie might wake up at this moment and everything would be alright.
"The only reason I'm here is because of the party. We will sign the divorce papers tomorrow," I finish up and start upstairs before he would say another word.
I will miss Henry so much.
And tonight is the only time we will be together.
I might as well make it a memorable one for me.
But I'm too scared to listen to his explanation.
I don't know if I'm supposed to do that or not.
I don't even know what to do.
And I wonder why Declan is in love with me.
I wonder why he loves me but Henry doesn't. It would have been different if Henry does.
The thought of it makes me want to vanish.
That should have happened by the way. I shouldn't have come back.
And I should have listened to Declan and backed off.
It keeps getting harder every day.
Now, it's harder than that day.
Or should I just tell him the whole truth about myself?
No, that might cause another issue. I can't risk it. Beatrice gave me the instructions I must follow.
I must not try anything stupid or it will backfire the more