My Feelings

Chapter thirty-nine
Henry
I pull back, surprised at what Jayde just did. Though, I don't seem to understand why I'm so tense or why I want to continue kissing her and why I want more.
What's happening to me especially? I can't stop my heart from beating so fast.
She stares into my eyes as if she could see through me.
I pull back quickly, my breath caught in my chest. I shouldn't have kissed her.
Well, I didn't want her to deny being Hattie, not in front of my chauffeur. I still don't know who the spy is.
And until I find out, I won't be able to trust anyone.
I don't even know if I'm supposed to tell her I'm aware that she's Jayde. While a part of me wants me to, the other part doesn't.
I'm still not sure what this is.
Ok, I knew Jayde wouldn't follow me so easily. So I paid a man to remove the face mask. She's so sensitive to that and wouldn't want anyone to see her as Hattie.
But why did she pretend to be her in the first place? Though, I don't think she did this because of money. If she did, she could have tried to blackmail and further bear Hattie.
And well, she doesn't look like a golddigger.
But then, why did she do it? There must be a reason behind it.
Also, where the heck is Hattie? And why isn't she showing herself?
I can find that out if I let her know that she's Jayde. But there will be a barrier between us. I don't think I can allow that especially when there are still spies in my house.
I need to make her feel like Hattie and I need to do her like Hattie.
Gosh! I don't believe this is happening to me. I had to marry an imposter and even pretend I don't know she was an imposter because I want to save myself.
"When we get home," I say and realize my voice shook with slight terror to it, or was it excitement?
I've never felt this way with the real Hattie. I look at her. And well, they look the same.
"What? Home?" She raises confused looks at me, " Please, let me go!"
"I'm taking you home, where you belong. Everyone is worried about you. You need to show up and make them feel good before you take off again."
It doesn't matter if she continues to leave in the neighborhood I got her from. All I want is for her to let me even start working on my own.
I need the liberation! And I need something to convince my father we are a nice couple.
Maybe I will say she went out of the state or relocated to a nearby town to recuperate or discover new things.
Anything! My head is reeling and I seriously don't know why.
"Hey, Mr. Henry," she says suddenly. I look at her and jerk back. She's suddenly too close for comfort.
"That was scaring?" I almost scream, " And why will you call me that? I'm your husband."
" Well, there's something you don't know of," she says softly and moves nearer. She stares at my face. We are close now, only a hairbreadth away.
My eyes went to her purple lips. Cold shivers run down my spine as I stare at her.
She moves to my ears, "Do you want to kiss me again?"
Is she teasing me right now?
I laugh. She doesn't even know me. I'm a master of players. I only act decently because I don't want to be painted as being bad.
"What?" She moves back and pours, "What's so funny?"
I look around and realize we are in the house already. I get down and start inside.
Jayde follows me quickly, "What? What? I'm not attractive enough?"
I sigh and increase my speed. She runs to match my steps.
I walk inside the living room.
"Hey! Answer me!" She almost yells behind me.
I stop at her word. Then, an idea struck me immediately. I chuckle softly and turn around to look at her.
"What?" She screams!
"You wanted me to answer you?" I take a step closer.
She moves back, her expression switches from terror to fear.
"Why are you not saying anything?" I take another step.
She takes a step backward but hits the chair behind her. She falls on the chair and I came on her, only supporting myself with my left hand so my weight won't be on her.
Her eyes widen as she watches me.
"Did you ask me if I wanted to kiss you? Do you want to kiss me too?" I say as seductively as I can. She asked for it anyways.
She opens her mouth slightly as if telling me to proceed. I know when to and when to not.
I touch her chin with my right fingers. I tilt her hand up a bit and kiss her. I wanted to make it light but I ended up going further.
I taste her as I've never tasted her before. She tastes nice and it keeps me aching for more.
I want it all. I push in my tongue and survey her mouth, kissing her as if my life depended on it.
I pull back after a while so we can back take in some quick breathe.
"Now, that's how to kiss."
I stand up and walk upstairs.
Mission accomplished, I'm sure the spy will be watching wherever he or she is.