Chapter 21

Jiwoon, is a serious type of guy who would always think about his actions and consequence before he made a decision, he would make a rational move and simply couldn"t bother himself to think about other people's feelings. He grew up in a solitary environment where, he valued himself not the other. He was your typical arrogant kind of guy who wouldn"t care about process as long as he got the outcome he wanted and solely believing that people"s feelings are just another kind of waste, to be simple he was just another self-centered bastard. Looking back on what kind of person he is now made him laughed at himself. He's just the other kind of trash he talked about. Its not that he's a walking stone, he also had feelings but he chose not to let them bind him.
Really?
Then why does his goddamn heart beat so fast every time he's near Yenn. That was so unexplainable and goddamn weird enough to doubt himself more. He clenched his fist thinking deeply about what he should do although the whole thing that he's feeling right now is so goddamn ridiculous—he had to confirm it. Yeah, that"s an implicit way to describe the weirdness that he felt. He just had to—confirm it. He don"t care what process it might be, he could ask him to kiss him or maybe just fuck his roommate since he could be just pent up and frustrated but he's sure Yenn won't agree and he'll definitely be cursed to death too. He groaned in uncertainty trying to think of a more plausible reason that could possibly—insanely drove himself to this state.
On the other hand, Yenn was approached by Byul who had the same motive of asking what the hell is going on which is totally ridiculous since nothing really happened and they just fucking misunderstood his goddamn happy moment that they turned into an assumptions of suicidal act. Like? What the fuck. Listen to people when they tried explaining please. He shot him a threatening glare hoping he won't pry in the issue anymore but the glare was fucking futile!
"Something wrong? If you had issues you could open up to us, you know"
Byul smiled warmly at him. There goes Mr. Nosy.
"Okay, stop just. Stop please, I'm not trying to do a suicide and that's just fucking unthinkable okay so, fuck off" he sighed deeply. He's fed up okay, one more of that and he'll really try to commit suicide. Damn it.
"Chill Bro, Okay I get the gist but what are you doing back there, you really look melancholic" Byul clicked his tongue then he stared at his face.
"Well, k this is funny but I was just enjoying the water and I didn"t realize it reach my waist" he shrugged his shoulder to him. Since that's the truth, he just had to tell it.
"Oh yeah? Then you should've asked us. We could teach you to swim you know" Byul tapped his shoulder jokingly.
"Yeah, honestly I was going to but, I was—you know embarrassed" he bit his lower lip admitting the truth. He want to swim yeah but who would teach him that and that's too embarrassing to ask since all of them knew how except his pathetic self.
"I could since I'm not that busy or something" Byul suggested.
"Yeah, thanks man"
After clearing things up, Yenn called the others down to eat. He went to the seventh floor to tell Jiwoon and also apologize for the earlier issue. They might have a lot of awkward situations and some misunderstandings about each other but that doesn"t mean he could completely not care about him, he"s still his roommate.
Jiwoon was still organizing his puzzling thoughts then he heard Yenn knocked on his door and called out.
"Hey, come down for dinner"
Well, there goes Mr. Culprit.
He opened his door with a grumpy look on his face. Seeing Yenn's face right now wasn"t a good idea he's totally thinking about him and the weird feeling that he managed to forget came seeping into his body again like a damn snake that slithered aggressively into his brain.
"Kay" I'll come down in a sec" he wet his lips visibly frustrated.
"Uhh? Are you mad because of me..?" Yenn looked at him his expression was tainted with grief.
"What are you talking about?" Jiwoon stared at him fiercely. Just go away, seriously, his complexion eased "Its fine, I"m not mad because of that" and he's definitely not even concerned about that.
"Oh, is that so but still"
Yenn scratched the back of his neck his face was totally awkward.
Jiwoon have to try it—his self created plan.
"Then, how about you kiss me" Jiwoon suddenly blurted out, staring straightly at Yenn's flustered face.
"Excuse me?"
Yenn gulped in surprise then his eyes glared at him defensively. He expected that and he knew that it was totally lame—and too dumb to asked but he need to—he really want to confirm it.
"I said kiss me"
his voice sound hoarse feeling the sudden lump on his throat. Yenn laughed–yea he laughed! Not because of disgust but because he saw his face too hilarious to look at and yet he had a goddamn serious expression on his face!
"What"s so funny?"
"No—nothing I"m sorry"
Yenn snickered holding his laughter with a smile.
"You must be really hungry, come down for a dinner now"
He followed Yenn downstairs, he don"t know what so funny about what he said but it looks like Yenn just took it in as a joke? He was totally confused, does he use the wrong word? Maybe he just didn"t understand it when he told him to kiss him? He think deeply then he called him out in a mellow tone.
"Yenn... "
He turned his head in surprise. Yenn didn"t expect him to call his name neither did he—it just came naturally in his mouth and the goddamn burst of heat suddenly gushed into his body boiling his every veins with a sudden rage of desires.
"I m-mean, I—I felt guilty that I ki–kissed you back then because of a nonsensical r—reason so I f–figured that maybe if y–you kiss me too. W–we could call it q–quits" his mouthed twitched, he didn"t know that trying to explain things would be this hard. He was flustered and had a troubled expression on his face making Yenn laughed out loudly holding his stomach and trying to stop but he can't, he bit his lower lip and look at him with teary eyes.
"M—man you"re weird..." Yenn smiled at him patting his shoulder. "Stop teasing me this way and stop your jokes... really... you're becoming w—weird" he smirked and turned away walking downstairs.
Jiwoon followed him with his gaze, his heart was beating loudly when he heard him laughed at him like that. It made him feel good and refreshed but damn that was fucking lame! He even stuttered saying it and that was really embarrassing. He sighed gloomily when he thought back of what his intention is.
"I"m serious though..."
He shook his head and finally go down. He went straight in the kitchen seeing Yenn eating alone, the other must be done already since he was left eating. He sat up in front of him, watching, staring and just examining his face.
"What the hell dude?" Yenn looked at him already creeped out. Am I that creepy? He focused back on his food then a moment later he stared at him again.
"I really can't?" he asked still insisting on the kiss. His guts were already hinting him to stop but his heart was still persisting with his desires as his eyes already misted with lust. He need to conf—no he just want to kiss him. His eyes begged Yenn's to go along with it, just this once he will say the forbidden word.
"Please...."
He touch Yenn"s hand gripping his fingers as it interlocked with his, he felt him looked down seeing their hands held each other then he looked up seeing Yenn's golden brown eyes reflecting his image, he touched his cheek feeling the soft skin of Yenn's face as it slid down to reach his chin, he tilt his head up then he bend down to give him a peck. He closed his eyes feeling the hot breath that brushed into his face, he opened his mouth as he start nibbling on Yenn's lower lip sucking it slowly, tasting the lingering flavor of chicken as it turned into a sweet sugary taste. Oh God! He really missed his lips, the soft and pink lips that entangled with his, the hot wetness that invoke his desires and the sweet scent that he inhaled when his face was close to his. God He really missed them all. The feeling of anticipation to stop himself mixed with the gush of weird feeling that tortured his brain and the burning heat that simultaneously spread across his body along with the fear of being pushed away, right now he felt it all....
But, he couldn"t stop—no he wouldn"t dare to stop. Not now, not even if he want to. He pried open Yenn's mouth tugging his lips with his teeth nipping, sucking, biting his goddamn soft lips and deeply pressing Yenn's mouth to his as his tongue slipped in exploring the depths of his mouth God! He fucking tasted sweet, flavored with the saltiness of chicken that he ate earlier made him even hungrier. He hold his cheeks with both of his hands, pushing his tongue deeper swallowing every drip of saliva that"s comes into his mouth that wasn"t enough—totally not enough to quench his convening thirst, he want more...more of his taste and more of the feeling that he was experiencing right now! Damn he just want him to be his! Yenn clutched his arm, already out of his breath. He shoved him away breaking the kiss, realizing that they"re both kneeling their leg on top of the table.
They look at each other with misty eyes...
Panting as they touch their already swollen lips...
Realizing that they both kissed in the spur of the moment...
Jiwoon approached Yenn as they"re both in the same side of the table. He held his hand leveling it to his chest then he leaned down to kiss the back of his palm. He then said.
"Now kiss me..."