Chapter 36

"A month, only three more days left and I should be able to talk to him again."
Jiwoon sighed in his seat, marking X"s in his calendar. He was readying himself for the upcoming day, he already made up his mind that— He"ll chased Yenn, asked for his forgiveness again and maybe help him to move on because of what happened back then. It might pissed him off or maybe start another feud between them but he want to at least cope with Yenn"s personality and maybe have a bit of understanding how worse himself is, he need to change and help him, after all, he"s the one at fault and he have to correct it.
He scribbled something in his notebook then write another word as he scribbled it again, repeating the cycle of marking it X and writing another one until he finally tear the piece of paper in his notebook and unceremoniously throwing it away again and again. He stand up and slammed his hands on his desk. He must be really a hypocrite! He look down on his notebook fixatedly, seeing all what he wrote about himself and his personality.
"Fuck! I can"t believe I"m such a piece of trash! No wonder he"s goddamn mad when I told him why back then! Shit! Shit! Shit!"
Jiwoon stormed off his desk and went outside of his room aiming to search for Byul downstairs. He needs a hell of advice in this, damn it.
He might sound lame and maybe Byul would laugh so hard about his whimsical pleas but he doesn"t have any other to ask advices for and the others definitely not like the idea of him asking what to do. He went to the fifth floor intending to knock on Byul's room that are at farthest corner of the whole floor, their rooms were designed to be across each other and the bathroom was always next to the another room which is the inner one so the arrangements is like a unit where the toilet is at the farthest corner.
His body stiffened up hearing a muffled moan on the other side, it was low and husky but he could hear it clearly because of the silence that masked the whole floor.
What the hell?
He came in a bad time!
He withdrew his hand that was about to land a knock on his door. Damn! They must be enjoying themselves given that the door is tightly locked and for God"s sake it"s the middle of he day! He wasn"t curious about his cousin"s sex life but he"s sure Byul"s partner was a girl! Only girl's voices had that kind of sound....
He shook his head and went downstairs, what the hell is he even thinking? He would ask him that later. Ahem. First, he needs to find someone to advice him and there must be someone who"s good at that. The girls were the best choice but who could he talk to? Karin? She"s close to Yenn, so maybe she could help him?
He went to the kitchen then prepared some snacks, girls like sweet things, so he could bribe them with that. He groaned irritatingly, forcing himself to recall some of his past girlfriends about what they liked and intended to imitate it but— his mind was clouded with unending thoughts of Yenn, he"s been lurking in every corner of his brain, so he couldn"t recall any other memory of any other than him.
"Fuck! How could I please him if he"s always mad at me?" he sulkily get some eggs on the fridge, well how about baking? Something great, like a cupcake?
He really like sweet things, potato chips, beef steak.....his mind was suddenly filled with Yenn"s favorites trying to search for what he liked more so he could give him that when they finally had to made up. Dang, he couldn"t even approach him to ask and he knew Yenn would be pissed seeing his face so... what should he do? He really just want to at least see him smile at his efforts even for just —a bit. He sighed regrettably. It"s simply impossible but he heard an O sound from the person behind him.
"You"re baking?"
Jiwoon hastily turned his head and saw Yenn leaning in the wall next to him, they"re only a meter apart, and he could already sense the impulsive flow of his emotions. He"s astonished and was totally taken aback at his sudden appearance, he wasn"t sure how to react or even utter a word at the moment.
His heart thumped, the atmosphere was truly heavy and he can"t even choke back a word. His mind has flown away and a vast of empty thoughts filled his brain but somewhere deep down in his guts, he wanted to say something. Maybe an apology or a casual response, but he couldn"t even assert any letters right now much more to even enunciate a word.
After a long pause and lot of cold sweat dripped into his face, Jiwoon casually let out an O and uttered a soft reply. "Yeah, was planning to give it to someone but I don"t know if they"ll like cupcakes" he gave him a smile then turned his head back to what he was doing. If he could ask him right now then he just have to.
"So, uhh what flavors do you like? Vanilla, chocolate...."
Jiwoon state the flavors that he knew one by one, hoping that somehow one of them manage to fit in his tastes. Yenn stared at him for a moment, seems confused and unmoved by his tone.
Come on, he used he softest and gentlest tone that he could muster. It shouldn"t have put him off the wrong way so why is Yenn glaring at him like that. He never said anything weird right or maybe one of the flavors are weird? He winced when he realized some of them that he stated has a weird taste, maybe that upset him. But he just heard an irritable question...
"Why are you asking me? I"m not even the one who"ll receive those, right?"
Yenn stammered over the last sentence. It"s cute, he awfully want to aggravate him with his petty talks but he just couldn"t. His lips curved into a smile and casually gave him a response.
"Just wanna know your tastes maybe? After all you like sweets."
He saw Yenn"s eyes lit up enthusiastically as he point out the cocoa powder in the table.
"is that so? Then dark chocolate smeared with white chocolate chips. I like flavors that complement each other"
"Oh? So that"s why you put mayonnaise and cheddar cheese in your egg sandwiches?" he winced in disagreement but Yenn just glared at him stoically.
"Its common! Have you not taste those yet?! It"s really good!"
"I see, But I like peculiar flavors more"
"Like what?"
"Wasabi, sweet chili or maybe a bittersweet coffee, something unique" he grinned at him. "Just like you"
"What?! I"m sure I don"t taste bitter??!" Yenn annoyingly glared at him, puffing his chest like a Lolita.
"Yeah, you"re sweet, just like peaches"
"Ah?! You damn pervert! How dare you!"
"I mean, you smell like peaches, why are you being angry again?" He looked at him petrified, he don"t want anymore fights between them so, he have to calm him down now. He really can"t get use to his nasty glares and rude attitudes but it"s cute and he really don"t mind it that much, he saw Yenn humped coldly and turned his head away. Although he hide his expressions, his red ears wasn"t unnoticeable and he suddenly felt a flurry of happiness in his heart. God that was cute!
"Just give me a bite after you finished that" he pointed at the cupcake mixture on the table. "Make it delicious will you, or else, I"ll kick your ass off the house" Yenn stared at him with his golden eyes. He"s embarrassed' he thought cocking his head as he casually gave him a prude smile.
"Yes yes, Roger that MASTER"