Chapter 40

Jiwoon went back to their designated tent, scooting himself inside and waiting patiently for his roommate. He fix his blankets and pillows then he also did Yenn"s bed so when he went in he just had to lie down. He lay himself down to his own space and leaned his head to a soft pillow since the tent was a medium size, they fit perfectly enough for two persons. He looked at Yenn"s supposed-to-be space and noticed a bunch of pillows and a squishy palm-sized stuff toy?
He reached out and grab the purple octopus-like ball and gently squeeze it. A stress relief toy... he must be too stressed since they"ve start being together. Is that the reason why he always reached out to his pocket when he was fuming mad? He chuckled, that"s cute, he"s been holding it in with this huh. So that"s why. He squeezed the toy tight, clenching and opening his fists repeatedly as he heard a squeaky sound. He grinned, enjoying himself with the squeezy toy. Yenn sure is girly... he had this bunch of soft pillows and such a kinky toy, yet he"s always mad whenever he call him that. He sighed and put the toy down as he scoot back to his blanketed space.
They"ve been here for almost the half of the year, time sure flies fast. He remembered the first time that they would always fight like cats and dogs and he would always been the one to blame. Well, he can"t deny that most of them was his fault anyway but still he was hoping to see him smile gently at him even once. If it can be possible then why not?
He shifted his position to a seat then he held out his hands imitating his fingers to a pose, then he put the two fingers in his mouth rubbing the back of his tongue as it became wet and sticky. He inserted it to the hole of his closed fist one by one trying to imagine himself doing it to Yenn. He inserted and thrust one finger at first then slowly loosening the grip of his clenched fist then he put another finger in rubbing it inside and as he slightly split his fingers away from each other repeating the thrusting and splitting slowly as the image of Yenn materialize in front of him.
"Fuck...not now shit" he mumbled as he felt his spine tingling with lust and his body was shortly filled with a bolts of heat. He positioned his arms up labeling his hands in front of his face, still clasping each other in a stick-and-hole sign as he gently push and pull his fingers in and out.
Staring at his fingers...something inside him....felt the urge of fire....and raging desires...
Untamed hallucinations and a wild series of imagination seeps sneakily in his mind making him see the image of Yenn bending his waist up in front of him, he looked down seeing his naughty fingers were inserted in his hole....
He closed his eyes couldn"t believe what he was seeing and trying to forget about it but the image flashed into his brain teasing him, making him give up his sanity, he sense his fingers thrusting inside the hole-like shape of his other hand. He pushed it deeper inside seeing the image of Yenn moaning loudly making his mouth twitch into a mischievous smirk. Fuck! He licked his lips, eyes closed and imaginations wild, he thrust his three fingers faster and deeper as the moaning sounds filled his brain, endlessly begging and pleading for more. He braced himself in the new experience that he was feeling, wanting to jerk himself off but that action would seems outrageous in this kind of place, he reprimand himself to be contented with what he"s been doing right now and never ask for anything anymore. Because of his strong will, his prick finally agreed with his wish, calming itself down as he completely lost himself in his dirty thoughts seeing the image of Yenn becoming more vivid and clearer in his brain, he unconsciously stopped his fingers but in his mind he was still thrusting in him relentlessly, seeing Yenn whimpered in his actions as his golden eyes became clouded with misty fog of pleasure. Yenn glanced at his face, perked his head out in his bent position then he smiled playfully at him, parting his lips as he mouth a word that he don"t really understand but he saw himself get more excited and finally unbuckle his pants which made him jolt and snapped his mind off in his goddamn fantasy! Bringing all his sanity back in reality as he realized his mouth is hanging embarrassingly open. Fuck! What the hell?
He felt his saliva dropped down from his mouth then he finally looked at his fingers that are tightly locked together and sighed in relief.
Oh....
Thank goodness it"s just a hallucination!
He couldn"t possibly rape Yenn again could he? He withdrew his fingers to one another and use his one arm to wipe his drool. Damn it. Why is he even thinking about something like that right now? He"s imagining such things again and worst, it felt way too real! Shit! He scolded himself, giving himself a hard punch on his face as he finally came back to his sense. Holy shit. He"s outside but he"s doing such perverted things! Erase! Erase that fucking thoughts from his brain. He lay back down and finally urged himself to sleep.
Fuck! I can"t possibly do something like that again. Shit!"