Chapter 53

Yenn stared at Jiwoon and waited for him to say something. He wanted to talk to him again not like last time when they were in a grudge or a reason that keep them together. He want to start off as friends, slowly understand how Jiwoon felt and convey what he want to say too. Yenn pursed his lips and explained.
"Let"s start things off again. We can be together with no grudge against each other. Stay with me please. I don"t want to lost you too. I know how numb I am and how slow I could be but without you I can"t continue being happy. I know I hurt you in some ways but that"s because I thought that if I do that too, I"ll feel better but when you walked away that day..."
Yenn look away and inhaled deeply then he look into Jiwoon"s eyes again. Jiwoon silently stood there and waited for him to speak.
"That day you walk away. I realized how shitty I treated you. I know you treated me genuinely with no hidden intention but I..."
He snorted and finally burst into tears.
"I was such a piece of trash, I didn"t cared about what you felt and just saw your past treatment to me. I treated you like shit and I know that but right now..."
He hugged Jiwoon tight and buried his head on his chest.
"I want you to be with me. We could start things off as friends first. Please let me understand you too. I just don"t want you to hate me. I know you won"t just forgive me for that but I wouldn"t ask for forgiveness. I"ll bury that pain I inflicted and repent on it for you. Just please tell me you would stay with me too"
Jiwoon sighed to him speechless, he then hugged him back and patted his head gently! It must be hard for him to say this things by he was really glad that Yenn want him to be with him. He sighed and pushed him away gently, holding his shoulders and look at Yenn"s eyes deeply. His eyes never lie and he knew that fact. His eyes were golden and it seems like he"s not lying either. Every shade of his eyes was what make Jiwoon understand what he felt although Yenn didn"t know that it was fine in his end. He wiped his tears with his thumb and kiss his forehead then he look at Yenn grinning wide.
"Okay. Let"s do that"
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"I"m sorry about the Halloween. I promised I"d—"
"Stop apologizing already! You have been doing this since yesterday and I don"t want to feel guilty because of that"
Yenn shush Jiwoon up as he crossed his mouth with his index fingers. Jiwoon smiled underneath it and then hold his wrists as he leaned closer to Yenn.
They"re in the couch and was facing each other. Jiwoon stared at Yenn"s eyes as he hold his wrists between them. It was a long moment of staring at each other and Yenn was first to back away. Why is he staring at him like that? It feels weird. He tilt his head down and cockeyed at Jiwoon"s face. He"s really staring and holding his wrists. He pulled his arms a bit and Jiwoon let him as they became way too close to each other. Yenn could certainly feel his hot breathe on his neck.
He blushed and pushed his arms away but Jiwoon remained still, he inched closer to his neck and buried his nose into it—inhaling his scent.
"What now?"
He jolted when he felt Jiwoon open his mouth. He tilt his head and leaned over his shoulder. Jiwoon looked up at him and it made him blushed. He looked away and chewed on his lip. Jiwoon"s acting strange but he don"t feel put off by it. On fact, he"s beginning to shy out—their faces were way too close!
"I"ve always wanted to do this but I was worried you"ll slap me back then. Can you stay still for a bit?"
"O—okay?"
"I thought you would hit me again but it seems you won"t."
Jiwoon chuckled and planted kisses on his neck. He then sniffed him out again and let his wrists go. Jiwoon gaze at him and he glanced back. He then avert his eyes aside because of embarrassment. Jiwoon"s really acting strange but he surprisingly wasn"t doing anything to him and that certain fact was making him fidgety.
"Umm—"
He looked at Jiwoon and saw him staring at his chest. Uhh?" He clicked his tongue and lift Jiwoon"s chin up to him. His golden eyes stared straight at Jiwoon"s night-like eyes as if asking him what the heck was he doing. Jiwoon caress his cheek and smile.
"Can I hug you?"
"That"s it?"
He arched his brow at him and didn"t expect that it was just what he meant to say. He sighed and hugged Jiwoon. He was then pushed down to the couch and he abruptly let go of Jiwoon. What is he gonna do?! He knitted his brows but Jiwoon just laid there hugging his waistline as he leaned over his chest. He sighed helplessly and pat his back. He really thought something was gonna happen for a moment there.
Jiwoon comfortably leaned over him and he"s goddamn heavy! Yenn signaled him that he was suffocating underneath him and Jiwoon shifted their position as they both lie down on he couch facing each other. He just stared at him and was confused about what was happening but he couldn"t bear to asked Jiwoon about that.
He stayed still and just looked at Jiwoon, studying his face quietly. Jiwoon then smiled and inch his nose to his.
"I just missed things like this. I hope you"re not put off by me."
"I—I"m not"
Jiwoon then inched his head to him and give him a peck on his lips. He felt surprised but then he closed his eyes, waiting for another kiss and he was gifted with a sweep of Jiwoon"s tongue on his lips and it glided inside his mouth.
Jiwoon look into Yenn"s eyes, it was tightly shut and was desperately kissing him back. He was still sloppy at doing this but he did try his best to respond to him.
They"ve done it many times already but it was the first time he saw Yenn kissing him back so desperately. He smirked and close his eyes as he hugged the person underneath him tight. The feeling of unsureness and unwillingness was something that he never thought— existed before. It"s a pity... he realized it this late.
If he was like this...
What if Yenn like him too?
Will he be able to respond to his feelings as well?
When the moment came and he would finally say....
I love you'