Chapter 52

Jiwoon sighed and look at Yenn who"s been staring at him for a while now. He didn"t even react or approach him this past few days so why is he here now—and staring at him too. It"s uncomfortable when he doesn"t have anything to say. He glanced at Yenn and he was welcome with an intense stare.
A stare that send shivers into his spine.
It felt like a hunter was staring at his prey— And he was that prey. It feels like he was being watch by a wolf and if he moved he would be bitten by it. It"s a feeling that really made him uncomfortable.
What does he want now?"
He glanced at Yenn and he saw him widen his eyes and turned away. He agapes when he caught the sight of it. Does Yenn felt embarrassed when he caught him staring?
He shook his head and went back to playing with the Rubik"s cube. He paused and thought maybe he was staring at him because he was holding this thing. Yenn doesn"t like other people touching his things so it must be for that reason. He sighed and put the cube on the table and simply lie down on the couch. Yenn should"ve stop staring at him now.
But to his surprise, Yenn let out a low laugh and it was something that he always hear when he was feeling helpless. He grit his teeth and closed his eyes, pretending to sleep and that he didn"t hear anything from him. If he"s laughing like that then he"s up into trouble and he definitely don"t want to entertain his cumbersome jokes anymore. He shifted his lying position and face the table.
He slept in that position and after a while he woke up.
He then hear footsteps approaching in his back. He get on guard and his body stiffened up. It"s not Yenn right? He then hear the steps stopped and it went the other way and heard a thud on the stairs. He"s gone up. He opened his eyes abruptly and look at the direction of the stairs. He felt relieved when there"s no one around. Yenn should be away now.
He relaxed and pushed himself to sit up.
"Oh you"re awake?"
He jolted and turned his head abruptly— seeing Yenn propping his arm on the couch and watching him. He felt his heart skipped a beat because of the shock. He then calmed down and put on a cold expression in his face. Why the hell Yenn start to bother him now? Was he fucking bored because Ivis wasn"t here and he had no one to talk to? Damn why him of all people. He gaze at him for a second and push himself to stand up and walk away but unexpectedly, he was forced to sit down again—he was pulled by Yenn.
What the hell? Does he really wants to bother him right now? He broke things between them so he wasn"t hopeful and concerned about Yenn anymore so why the fuck Yenn is bothering him again?!
"Stop bothering me. Find someone else to— "
His mouth was blocked with a sloppy kiss. It was forceful at first but it became gentle afterwards. Yenn clung to his nape and pushed him down the couch. He continued to kiss him sloppily and the situation took him a long silence to realize what"s going on.
Jiwoon widen his eyes and tried to push him away but Yenn clung to him even more.
"Stop it!"
He screamed and shove him away. He was panting in a ragged breathe and was totally petrified about what Yenn just did. It was unsettling and slightly arose his anger deep within him. There it is, the weirdness that he felt came churning inside him again. He love this person in front of him but his own hopelessness was what keep him from staying away.
He decided to stay away because he knew he had no chance. He knew that they"re definitely not up for each other and he felt it. The way Yenn hurt him and stepped on his pride. He used him too. He already realized himself that he was the fool and there"s no way Yenn won"t want him to suffer for more. He knew it—
But why? Why is Yenn torturing him even more? Does he felt satisfaction when he was totally hurting inside? Is he really that heartless?
He gritted his teeth and stand up from the couch. Yenn silently look at him with his fierce eyes. He wasn"t angry but he could see his expression was way too blank. That expression always caught him off guard and hopeless. And right now, Yenn was heightening his experience even more. This was really tarnishing his pride. He already stooped so low in front of him and he was broken off in front of him too. And that fucking thing was downing him even more!
Does he have no place in hell too?
It"s sickening. Too sickening that he couldn"t take it anymore.
He sighed and look at Yenn. He pulled him to stand up and sit him on the couch then he turned away to leave. He clearly don"t want to face him right now and he don"t want to argue with him anymore. He"ll just walk away silently.
"Jiwoon"
He froze in his spot and turned to look at Yenn with widened eyes. He had a mixed feeling; joy, anger, confusion and bewilderment. He don"t know how to describe it but should he really be happy when Yenn finally call him that? It wasn"t sole happiness but he had this wavering sadness in his eyes. Why now?
He blinked his eyes and look at Yenn with a cold expression. Yenn stared back at him silently and then he opened his mouth to say another word.
"Jiwoon..."
His expression eased up and he felt his heart ache in his chest. The feeling of being called by his name was way too overwhelming. Yenn, for the first time call his name gently. He tried to put an angered face but Yenn continue to call his name, his voice repeatedly called in his head.
His name that he wanted to hear in Yenn"s lips, the only thing he wished for back then. He should be happy, he should be rejoicing right now but he couldn"t stop the longing when he heard his name from his lips again.
His mouth twitched into a smile and he unconsciously start grinning as Yenn looked into his eyes while calling his name. Jiwoon stared at him and was welcome with a sad smile and sparkling eyes. His mouth opened and closed, too unsure what to say.
Yenn stand up and approach him. He extend his hand and reach out for his cheek. Yenn gently hold it and look straightly into his eyes. He was about to burst in tears but he hold back and smile at Jiwoon.
"Jiwoon...can I talk to you again please"