Chapter 12

Alina's POV
I still feel bad for Mark after he saw and caught me being taken home by Ryan. I don't know why I was so afraid of Mark's feelings. Even though we just met a few weeks ago. Although no one among our friends knew that Mark and I were in a relationship as lovers. Ryan also doesn't know at all that Mark is my current boyfriend. But Ryan seems suspicious of our relationship.
Moreover, Ryan is part of the Hockey Team which is led by Mark. Mark also serves as his deputy. So it would be very impossible if Mark didn't tell Ryan about our recent romantic relationship.
Mark must have told everything to several of his close friends such as Ryan, Tom and Jake. They look very close and are always seen together wherever they go. So it's impossible that Ryan and Mark's other close friends don't know about our relationship.
But on the other hand, I feel anxious and worried about something. What if Ryan also told Mark about the embarrassing incident we experienced at the bar. I can't imagine if Mark knew that this was happening between me and Ryan. I was really skeptical and in a real dilemma. In fact, I deliberately accepted Mark's love just because he was part of the Hockey Team which was considered dashing and popular by the whole campus. So I feel that me dating Mark can change the view of my friends at school to be more kind to me and reluctant.
In fact, my biggest advantage if I date Mark will be making those who always bully me feel embarrassed and then submit to me so that I will become The Leader Of Girls at school replacing Jeny's position, who is still popular to this day. I followed in the footsteps of Jeny, who also dated one of the Hoky Team. Yes, Jeny is Ryan's ex, to be exact. I thought that dating the deputy leader of Team Hoky would make me also popular and respected like Jeny. Now I feel confident in my position as Mark's girlfriend. Even though in reality Mark never knew that I was hiding behind his popularity on campus.
I was quite fed up with always being bullied by almost the entire school, especially the girls who were under Jeny's armpit. They looked down on me and always thought of me as someone who should be looked down on and looked down on. They don't just shout obscenities on the field and mock me when I make mistakes during practice. But they also often bullied me by torturing me until they dragged me to the school toilet and often even held me captive in the school warehouse until I was trapped in the warehouse for several days and no one found me apart from Jessica who at that time accidentally heard my voice screaming for help and Jessica happened to pass by the warehouse on the way to the art studio. Apart from being active in sports, she is also active in the arts and is part of the martial arts leader and majorette in our school's marching band group. So Jessica has quite a name at our school and is quite respected. But the difference is that Jessica is soft-hearted while Jeny is just a dictator and it's not uncommon for her gang to become her subordinates who she just orders to do whatever she wants and desires.
Yes, back to the problem with me, Mark and Ryan. But I thought it was impossible for Mark to know that Ryan had done something illegal with me at the bar at that time. Ryan will also definitely keep quiet about it. Because this is a disgrace and not worthy of publication. But if it's in a team or gang, it might happen. I don't know, I feel like my head is now increasingly filled with various assumptions that might actually happen. I was really worried if Ryan would be so presumptuous as to tell everything to some of his close friends. Because it will clearly change their view of me. They will definitely think less of me. Especially if they know that I'm already dating Mark.
I would be considered a cheap woman who intended to attract two men at once in one team. Even though I had no intention of doing that at all. Although in reality, apart from being popular, both of them are also equally handsome. Mark has a sweeter face with slightly darker skin. Meanwhile, Ryan is more handsome with his reddish white skin. They both have a sturdy and dashing physique. Their height is almost the same. Their body postures are not much different. What is different besides the color of their skin pigment is also the color of their hair. Where Mark has brownish black hair. Meanwhile, Ryan's hair color is a bit blonde and more pure Caucasian. But both of them are considered men who are famous for their handsome looks on campus. So it's not surprising that the two of them are the people most targeted by women who look at them. Become a target to be a girlfriend or crush.
It would be a great honor to be close to these two men. Not only Ryan and Mark, but Tom and Jake were also affected. They are also targeted by women because they are part of the Hockey Team. However, Ryan and Mark's charm and performance cannot be doubted and no one can match them in any aspect. Apart from being good at sports and organization. They are also famous for their achievements in the academic field. So they are both considered the most perfect men on campus. I feel honored and proud to be dating Mark.
But on the other hand, I started to feel threatened by Ryan's presence, which was starting to disrupt our relationship. I feel threatened and very urgent right now. After experiencing what happened that night with Ryan, I became increasingly restless and uncertain and hoped that it was just a nightmare that had just happened and was experienced in my deep sleep. I started to feel restless and worried about my future fate and reputation. Even though I don't think anyone actually knows about it, it happened that Ryan and I were playing for fun in a state of unconsciousness due to the influence of drinking alcohol.
I don't want all these secrets to leak to the surface. Let it just be a secret for me and Ryan. Let Ryan and I just hold it all together forever.