Chapter 42

Ryan's POV
When I held Alina's shoulders with the palms of my hands, Alina's shoulders felt very hot, like someone had a fever. I felt the aura coming out and being absorbed into the skin of my hands, I mean the palms of my hands. After half standing again and again, Alina threw my hands away so they wouldn't touch her at all.
"Let go!"
"But..."
"Didn't you hear me?"
"What's wrong with you, Alina? What's wrong with you?"
"What's your problem, Ryan?"
"Wait! You look like a sick person."
"What do you care about me?"
"Obviously I care about you very much."
"To me? Did I hear you right? Did I hear what you said wrong?"
"No, Alina, what you heard was correct. You didn't hear wrong, because I said it very honestly and directly."
"Hmm bullshyt! You've made my life a mess."
I swallowed deeply and felt very guilty for Alina. I can no longer avoid it when Alina says that I am the reason her life is now increasingly messy. I admitted I was wrong and couldn't say anything more.
Suddenly Alina ran away from me.
"Never mind, you're just interrupting my trip. Watch out, get out of the way!" She dragged me and then ran away leaving me alone, frozen here.
"Alina? Wait! Where are you going?" I half screamed because Alina just walked away leaving me.
"None of your business." Likewise, Alina also half shouted in response to my question.
I felt very nervous after Alina left. But I don't have much time to stay here for long. I must immediately continue my journey. So that you don't arrive at the hospital too late in the day.
Alina and I just walked away. Now only a feeling of confusion remains in my brain. Along the way, I couldn't stop thinking about Alina's fate now. In fact, I feel like Alina is not doing well right now. But what's strange is that yesterday she was being sweet to me and starting to accept the invitation to make peace. But now I found out why she was so curt and mean, as if she harbored a very deep feeling of hatred for me. What could have happened to Alina that made her behave so capriciously? Earlier she also seemed to be late going to school. Like having stayed up all night. What was she thinking last night that made her fall asleep and even had to go to school late? Does it have anything to do with Mark?
Mark also couldn't sleep last night. Are they angry? Or is it because of me that they are fighting? Oh woe! If that's true, then something else bad will happen between us soon. I suspected that Alina had accidentally told Mark something secret between the two of us. Regarding Alina, she is an innocent girl and she could easily say frankly that she had had an illicit relationship with me. Because when she was with me she looked innocent and told me everything in her life that she had experienced. Even though that shouldn't happen and there's no need for hers to reveal everything to other people. But it seems he has told Mark our secret. Yes I'm sure of that.
I don't know why I feel bad for Mark now. Even though I don't know the real relationship between Mark and Alina. But I think they do have a special relationship, more than just friends. If it's true, Alina told Mark about our incident at the bar at that time. I'm even more confused now. Confused about how to start explaining to Mark that I really didn't plan to do that crazy thing to Alina. It was beyond my limits because at that time I was drunk because I saw my girlfriend Diandra walking with another man named Ken. Actually, I'm not a drunkard. In fact, that was my first time getting drunk. Until I lost control because I drank too much. Heartbreak has made me forget myself. I even did depraved things that were more than just drunk. I did something rude to Alina. I can't imagine how deeply Alina felt after she began to recover from the effects of alcohol. I never even thought that my decision to stop at a bar could end in big disaster. It's true that this is a disaster for me, but it has a bigger impact on Alina. Even at that time we didn't use safety equipment like condoms for example. So I don't know now whether Alina's uterus is clean or whether fertilization occurred. Time will tell this big question.
Many times I felt stupid, even though I didn't really know Alina before. I only knew her briefly during routine joint training on campus or when coaching the Oakwood High School Club kids. Apart from that, I don't know who Alina is or what her background is. It's just that Mark said that there was an Oakwood High School student who was active in her club named Alina and her child was cute and had an attractive aura. That's all I knew beforehand about Alina. I did feel curious when Mark said that. Until I started stealing glances during practice and it turned out I saw Alina's figure, which I thought was normal but her aura was a bit different. I feel Alina is different from other girls at Oakwood High School. In fact, she is different from the girls I have ever met in my life, whether from wolves or humans. There's something different about Alina, but I'm having a hard time finding what's different. Until my mind drifted to one subject, namely Alina, making me lose focus on the road as I walked towards the hospital. Until I bumped into someone while walking.
Bang.
Bounced.
"Excuse me." I said.
When I was about to get up and look at the person I just bumped into. Aaaaaaa no... I swallowed saliva without being able to speak and just stared in silence at the person who was now in front of me. Her gaze was sharp, as if it were about to come out and pierce my eyes through her glare. I was getting more and more confused and starting to feel restless. Uncertain restlessness and confused about what to do now other than remain silent. I hope Jordan doesn't recognize me. But it's wrong, he still remembers me.
"You."
I swallowed more and more saliva.
"You're Rei Wanatabe's gang, right?" His blood pressure began to rise and his face turned red fiercely.
I felt like my throat was almost broken from swallowing large amounts of saliva several times. Without being able to answer or speak. I immediately stepped back and Jordan spontaneously chased me.