Chapter 51

Ryan's POV
Now I am surrounded by my friends after Jordan left this place. I felt uncomfortable, especially as their glances made me feel guilty. They looked at me with cynical eyes and made me feel cornered. I'm confused about what kind of excuse to make up to them. Surely they will ask about my whereabouts, who suddenly disappeared with no clear information and just like that without saying goodbye or saying at least a word to one of them. But I didn't do that and instead left quietly without anyone wanting to know.
"Where have you been Ryan?" Mark asked with one eyebrow raised. His gaze was so sharp towards me. The others also seemed to harbor anger towards me. Indeed, I admit that I was wrong. I should at least talk to them if I'm going to leave them. But I... Ah... Never mind, this has already happened and I don't have a logical reason to give them. Because my mind keeps getting hung up on the poor figure of Alina.
"You don't know that this mess has been going on for quite some time?" Tom added.
"Since when have you been away Ryan?" Rei joined in.
"Don't you have a brain?" Dylan was so angry with me.
"You should have told me if you wanted to go anywhere. We are in a critical situation. This is not a joke and you are busy like someone who is refreshing." Mark expressed his annoyance at me. This wasn't how Mark usually behaved like that. Among my other friends, Mark is usually better able to control his emotions. But now Mark looks annoyed and angry at me. I feel like my mistake was truly fatal. Especially if they knew that I had visited Alina, a student from Oakwood High School. The most likely possibility is that they will be very angry with me, which cannot be denied. Because of the facts and reality, I tend to choose Alina over Jake. I prioritize my feelings for women rather than caring about the lives of my friends. I feel so stupid for behaving like this. Moreover, I came over to Alina just to make out with her. This is truly a despicable thing for me and it is certain that in everyone's eyes my behavior will be labeled depraved.
I could only remain silent and bow my head in shame, lamenting my fatal mistake. I even had difficulty speaking up because I didn't have a reason that made sense to them. I can only surrender without answering frankly.
"Where have you been Ryan? Come on, tell me!" Tom shouted at me. Even though Tom is a humorous person and likes to joke around, now he seems serious about conveying his feelings for me. He seemed really disappointed in me this time.
Dylan even rudely threw an object in front of me. Maybe he was so annoyed with my attitude.
"You want to be a hero who oversleep, huh? Huh?"
Bang.
Mark walked away leaving me without waiting for my answer. I can only fold my lips tightly and without making the slightest sound. I just looked down with my heart beating erratically. Thinking about the fate of our friendship. Moreover, soon there will be a tournament which will make us enthusiastic about practicing for a long time. Because this tournament is very important and will reach international level. But this time it started to crack due to the ongoing situation. Especially regarding Jake's health. Of course we will definitely be short of personnel if Jake still doesn't recover. Moreover, his current condition is still very serious and the biggest possibility is that he will be hospitalized in a short time. Not to mention we now don't have much time to practice. Because we have to take turns, even at the same time, to care for and look after Jake here. I'm worried that our tournament will fail. It's very certain that Coach Miller will also be very angry and disappointed that we haven't been on the field lately.
I don't know how to recover from this situation. Moreover, on the other hand, I also want to help Alina so she can go back to school and take part in tournaments later. But now I'm also in big trouble. Now my friends are cold to me. I'm confused about where to start now.
Jake was evacuated again and moved to the ICU again. This makes all the views seem to blame me for the situation which is getting worse and more chaotic. Jake lost a lot of blood and also lacked oxygen supply. I feel like I'm facing the issue of the apocalypse and don't know what to do to get out of this problem. It's clear now that Jake needs to donate blood ASAP. I don't know if Jake will survive today or not. Even now, there hasn't been any blood that matches Jake's blood. Meanwhile, the doctor almost threw up his hands and was overwhelmed in dealing with Jake's problem, who had failed several times in carrying out blood transfusions.
We could only stare with empty eyes and almost extinguished hope. Feeling that soon Jake's life would not be saved. Suddenly I remembered something that Rei had said. I also remember what happened last night when I was with Alina. Alina's characteristics are exactly as Rei has described. Is Alina the result of a cross between a human and a wolf? Is it possible? But Alina is also sick, should I beg her to donate blood to Jake? At least trying to donate blood might be appropriate and suitable for Jake's body. No way, Alina's life is just as valuable. Moreover, if she is weak now, one of them could die or there is even a possibility that both of them will die. Because Alina is in such a weak state, her blood pressure is definitely low, so it is likely that she is not suitable for donating blood. No matter how forced it is, it will not be able to change the existing procedures.
My heart felt completely broken. My four friends were embracing each other except me. I'm still alienated by them. Until I can only sit alone and ponder, waiting for a miracle. They strengthened each other and hoped that Jake would suddenly be safe and return to a stable condition that would make them feel calm. I can only feel chaos inside me. My thoughts branched off in many directions. Not sure what to do and could only daydream blankly while covering all areas of my nose with the palms of my hands. I really felt futuristic and lost my way. Don't know what to do now. Can only wait for a miracle to arrive.