Chapter 33

Alina's POV
I didn't see anyone come here besides Ryan. Since then, no one has accompanied me and looked for me. My uncle and aunt couldn't see the bridge of their nose at all. As for Mark, my boyfriend is not here to accompany me. I feel useless and worthless now.
Suddenly I cried in Ryan's arms. Immediately sobbing without boundaries and distance. Crying very loudly. I feel very sad right now and am unable to express myself in any other form other than sobbing. Enduring very painful feelings as well as physical injuries that are no less painful.
"What's wrong with you, Alina?" Ryan couldn't avoid my hug.
"Alina, say something? Do you feel sick? Or have my words hurt you and awakened old wounds in your heart?" Ryan looked increasingly guilty.
I have no sound other than the sound of crying.
"Alina? What's wrong with you? Don't confuse me yourself! Tell me what's wrong with you Alina?"
I don't care about Ryan's question. All I need now is a hug that makes me feel warm and precious. I don't have anyone else now in this world apart from Ryan who is now in front of me. The feeling of hatred for him suddenly faded and I just needed him to accompany me tonight in this room.
After a long time I cried uncontrollably. Only then did I start to regain some stability and was able to talk to Ryan.
"Accompany me here tonight!" I asked Ryan ridiculously.
"Um... but Alina."
"Ryan, I'm lonely. Accompany me here tonight!" I pitied him without knowing myself and as if I had thrown all my shame on him.
"But my friends will wonder about my whereabouts. They might look for me. It's impossible for me to tell them and ask permission to accompany you here. They will be very..." Cut off by my ego.
"Well, if you don't want to accompany me now then I will commit suicide and it would be better to just die." For some reason, dirty words and thoughts came out of me. I don't know where I was sedated until I could say that bad thing.
"Eh, don't! Yes, yes, yes... I will accompany you here. I promise I will take care of you tonight.",
"Promise?" I wonder why I suddenly became so spoiled by Ryan. Maybe my inner child is starting to come out and the result of this emptiness in my soul is what pushed me to become like this. I feel broken now and Ryan is my outlet tonight.
"Yes, I promise, now you rest so that you get better soon. I won't go anywhere and will stay here with you."
There was silence for a while until I started to have the courage to tell him.
"Ryan, please get me that drink. I really have to and I'm having a hard time holding it up because I can't get there."
"Okay." Ryan seemed happy to bring the drink to me. He handed it to me and helped me get up a little so I could drink. He turned the iron arrangement under the bed.
I immediately drank without stopping because I really felt very thirsty.
"Already?" When the water is almost a little more.
"Well that's that then." I stopped drinking and Ryan put the glass back after I handed it to him.
"Thanks, Ryan."
"Yes, you're welcome, Alina."
Immediately Ryan and I looked at each other and stared at each other for quite a long time. Makes me feel lost in its charm. Finally, Ryan and I entered the world of excessive fantasy and exchanged saliva in this silent night.
Ryan and I tried to play with each other's tongues and enjoyed sucking after sucking that we both did. He made me swallow saliva many times to hold back the lust that was starting to get out of control. For some reason, tonight was very serene and made me feel pleasure in the sensation that was present in Ryan's mouth.
Instantly I can forget the bitter events in my life. Regarding various series of problems including the chronology of today's events which occurred sequentially and repeatedly. I can also forget about my future affairs and problems. It really stimulated the growth of my dopamine hormone until I felt like I was soaring in the air and couldn't land yet.
The night was getting late but Ryan and I were still enjoying everything we started with passion. Even though it's just playing with your mouth and tongue, it feels very enjoyable and relieves the burden instantly.
"You want some more?" After we let go of each other's mouths.
"Yes, I want to." I said matter-of-factly.
As if Ryan was completely mine. I feel so precious now to be in Ryan's arms and Ryan is in mine. Now we satisfy each other's lust through kissing our lips.
Until time didn't feel like it was pushing us to stop doing it. Then Ryan leaned his head on my shoulder and then after a while he started to fall asleep in my lap right next to me. Now we are starting to sleep in the same bed. Ryan and I hugged each other until I forgot that I was still on the IV.
I hugged Ryan who was fast asleep first. It seemed like he was starting to feel sleepy after the dopamine hormone increased a lot.
I don't know why I feel like I really love him now. I hugged him tightly and kissed his forehead and stroked his head gently. I continued to stare closely at him and his face. Without even looking away from his face. Until finally I started to be bothered by sudden drowsiness. Makes me close my eyes unconsciously. My eyes slowly started to become dim and finally I completely lost consciousness. It seemed like I was sleeping since the moment I stared closely at the face of this man who hypnotized me.
I started to wake up from my sleep after falling asleep once in sleep. I started to realize that I was sleeping alone.
"Where's Ryan?" I mumbled a little under my breath.
I yawned and rubbed one of my eyes a little.
I remember that last night when the night was quiet and it was getting late I felt that Ryan was here with me. We even did things we shouldn't do, especially in a hospital like this. I started to furrow my forehead and scrunch it up. Feeling strange and why suddenly now Ryan just disappeared? Does he wake up earlier than me? Or am I just dreaming about Ryan coming here? It seems like I'm dreaming. In that case, good. That means last night I didn't do anything bad for the second time with Ryan.
A nurse suddenly came in and shocked me by explaining my daydreams with Ryan and last night's events which seemed very real.
"Miss, please have breakfast first. Then after that take medicine. So that your health condition will improve quickly." She said to me.