Chapter 45

Aroura

I woke up slowly, my mind racing at what I had done, ordering my doctor to help me get away from the guys, to fake my death again. To run away from my mates, I wanted to whine, cry for them. But I felt so broken. I wouldn’t even have Kason, Lena or Jaxon until I could heal enough to meet them.
I would be completely alone. I took a deep breath then frowned; I could smell Lucian nearby. Holy fuck, did I wake up too soon.
“I know you are awake Aroura.” He says from my right. He grabs my hand holding it tightly. I look over at him, my eyes wide with shock.
“Yeah, we found out baby girl. And once your better I swear I’m going to take you over my knee and spank your ass for what you planned to put us through. Yeah, you may have just been going through hell, but to try and put us through losing you, yeah that was stupid and selfish.”
“It wasn’t selfish” I rasp looking at him, “and you can’t spank me, that is not our dynamic.”
“I will spank your ass regardless of our dynamic, because you wanted to hurt us by leaving. You planned to fake your death again. You wanted to take our brother away again. You wanted to hide from us and the world around you. But you can’t. Aroura you can’t push away what happened to you. I get it, you were raped by some monster who is now dead, Aroura, he can never touch another soul again. Do I wish that we had gotten there sooner to keep it from happening in the first place. Or that we hadn’t left that room so they could take you, yes. But lashing out at us, trying to run away from us is not how you are going to heal from this.”
“YOU DON’T KNOW THAT!” I scream my throat hurting but I had to get this out, had to get it off my chest.
“You guys were supposed to keep me safe; You swore you would keep me safe yet twice in a matter of hours I was shot then raped. Because I wanted to take you down. I wanted revenge against you. And when you guys decided, you were going to take the entirety of Gravin down, I agreed because I trusted you all. I trusted you to keep me safe.” I wiped the tears from my eyes. Knowing I shouldn’t be blaming them because they didn’t do this to me, Gravin did. “I got pregnant, even though it was a miracle, I did everything right since finding out to keep our baby safe inside me but because of your need to take down the entire organization, I no longer have our baby inside of me. I was shot twice. I fought a monster and got thrown against a cage wall breaking my ribs, one puncturing my lung so bad that they had to remove it. I had internal bleeding, and they chose to take the Kidney as well.”
He wiped the tears from his own eyes, “Aroura,”
“No I’m not done. You want to get mad at me and threaten to spank me when I have been through hell. I was bitten by a monster; I could feel his pleasure at hurting me. I could feel his thoughts. It was like reading his mind as he planned to hurt me more and more. Talked to me about branding me. About making it so no one would ever touch me again. Before Knight shot him, he was about to bring out his knife and carve up my back. As a warning to you guys. As a sign that you hadn’t managed to take down the entire organization yet. Do you understand what a mind fuck that is. I was supposed to be strong. I tried to get out. I was trying to open the cages for the other omegas and didn’t get past one before he found me. I was trying to follow our stupid plan to take down the organization. I was supposed to be strong.” I started sobbing.
Lucian pulled me into his arms gently as I started hitting his chest sobbing, “Why, why did this happen to me. I didn’t do anything to deserve this.”
He rubbed his cheek against my hair and cheek scent marking me. “No one deserves this baby. No one, man, woman, child, no one deserves what happened to you. No one should ever be a victim of a monster. That is what these guys who pray on people are. They are monsters and they need to be stopped. You were so brave. You are so strong. I know you don’t believe it. I know this is going to be a hard road. But you aren’t alone. You will never be alone as you heal. We will stand by you forever.”
I cry into his chest then whisper, “But what if I can never let you touch me again.”
“Baby, our relationship is more than making love, sex or fucking. Even if all we ever get from now until forever is holding you like this. That is more than enough. You are what matters to us.”
I sniffle and he brings a tissue to my nose, “blow baby girl.”
I don’t even bother arguing and blow. “I don’t want to live like this Lucian. My mind wants to turn it all off. I want to give up. I want to give in to the thoughts in my head. I want to find the nearest window and jump out of it; I want to slit my wrists or beg my doctor to give me hard meds to overdose. I want to get in my car and drive it into the nearest cement block.”
“I know, baby, but that’s because this is fresh, but we are here. We will help you. We have already found you a therapist who specializes in this. We have it set up for you to do video therapy until we get this all figured out. You don’t have to be strong right now, let us be strong for you. We will never let you fall baby; you know that.”
I cry even harder, “hold me tighter, please I need your arms around me tighter, so I feel safe.” My omega at the surface wanting to feel secure in the room we were in.
He tightened his grip around me and pressed my nose against his scent gland. I breathed him in.
“Don’t walk away from us Aroura, we want to be here for you. We want to be your anchor in the store, we want to be the ones to hold you like this anytime you need us. We have you, always, we will never let you go baby girl. We will always keep you safe.”
He rubbed his head against my hair, releasing pheromones that left me feeling hazy and tired. I shouldn’t have pushed myself so hard right after surgery. I was shocked my body wasn’t hurting as bad but the IV in my hand showed me that I was still getting meds. I glanced up at the hanging bag above us.
“It’s pain medication and IV antibiotics to combat anything you may have picked up from that place.”
“Oh, ok who is taking care of me?”
“Dr. Gwen and her pack have agreed to stay with us for a few months to take care of you.”
“You mean you strong armed her into staying since I tried forcing her to lie.” I make a face.
He kissed my forehead, “baby the woman couldn’t lie for shit trust me. We knew how much you trusted her, and we made damn sure we brought her here to take care of you. Like I said, we would burn the world to the ground to keep you healthy and safe.”
I nodded and started to drift off to sleep, that was my fear, that the world would burn to the ground to get rid of Gravin.