Chapter 97

Hannah is in the home where she married into for such a long time and where she has lived in, sometimes in sadness, sometimes confidence and sometimes her self esteem came kicking her out of her own mind, telling her that she has chosen the worst place to put herself in.
And every time she thought about it, she could still come up with the realization that there was no better place for her to be.
Now she does not know why she felt that she belonged in this room for so long in this home with our family, Vixen and Richard, she did not understand why she was so attached to them.
When her best friend first fell in love with Richard, she also fell in love with him. But he saw her only as a friend, and what...she's supposed to do remove her feeling from her heart because of her best friend even if he chose her best friend.
He has only if it was so easy to do that to take your mind off it and focus on something else. She couldn't do it so easily. It wasn't something that could be done.
Her friend died leaving a child, and he came to her hoping she would train his child and thought that she was going to be needed to close the family even when she felt like a betrayer aka ex-best friend, and she assumed the position of wife to her best friend's man.
It felt like a betrayal but only because this was his in the first place. She would cry herself to sleep every night feeling the guilt of all she has done. And even after she thought that Richard had finally accepted her.
She saw what he did, how he pushed towards the corner when it came to the part of accusation. She does not know if there is any place in our heart that would easily forgive him for treating in such a manner. Hannah has always supported and always taken back, she used our connections and her emotion to understand and back him up for the moment he could and it hurt her to help him.
But she still chose to do it.
She even loves Vixen; whether Vixen knows it or not, she will not put up or reach out again. Well, she feels fine after leaving the house but her anger is easily diaries. It's like a fire that cannot be put off but she needs her mental health and mental health is important to her.
And then the more she keeps up the sacrifice and to put herself into a good place, she remains in her home and she's tired of sitting and feeling sick of feeling guilty along with the displeasure that came with everything.
"No, it's me." After leaving the house for about two weeks. She finally has felt the peace. She doesn't need to work hard to make sure that vixen gets married into a good home.
Now that she is in her home, she doesn't need to put her husband on a leash. Hannah just has to wake up in the morning. Take a very wonderful breath of fresh air, heat breakfast, draw paint and continue to work.
And now she still finds him standing right in front of her in front of the door. She doesn't know how to let him go. He should let go of her. Many times he has told her that this is an alliance that is supposed to never happen, that perhaps his dead wife will look upon them and cause them for choosing each other after lost in the clouds. But still, it was easy he is the one who was always shut the door behind on her was always told her how was life would not make a difference if she weren't in it.
So why was he standing right in front of her? One knees bent, a flower on the other hand, begging her to come back to him. And so, she straightens her body as she chooses to pretend as if she has not seen what he does at this moment. Like she does not care for his apology and prints nothing to hide.
So the both of them are lying to each other. And they know. They know those feelings is capable of breaking first, but on this point, she's stronger because her heart has been broken too many times, just too many times to fall for this ridicule. But there's something different about this apology of yours is that it has never happened before.
He thinks he has always treated her well, in a manner that is not the way she wanted to be treated. And yet, an apology had never come through before. But today, there is an apology felt different. For foreign, felt like something that wasn't meant for her.
In fact, she doesn't know how to accept it out to make it seem real. She needed someone to pinch her to bring her into reality of what is standing right in front of her where she is all alone in the workshop, and she doesn't know how to speak to him.
You should be here, she says to him, and he enters into her workshop. And the next thing I needed to do is live my life.
"I've served you with all of my heart, and all of my trust and every emotion that I could gather." But you choose to always see me as a second, which is put me below you, your daughter and everything you value it's important. I definitely will not continue to fight for place in your heart, especially when I've given all my heart to you freely.
"I would bury my aspirations, my dreams, my desires to for a few years and for you." You will not even grant me a simple space. A space in your heart...I have to leave before you realize how important I am. Whereas, even when you're closer to me, or you're far away from me, the way I feel for you is not different.
"Which is why I don't think you're worth it." You're not worth my energy and over the lifetime with not worth my sacrifice. She says and he manages everything that she would never have said to him before but now she puts it into words as he stands on his feet.
He knows he has hurt this woman's ego and yet has been so blind to it for a relatively long time.
"I must have been blind I must have been stupid. In fact, I do not see."
"Yes and No, you're right. I must have been blind and out of my mind." To let you slip out of my hands before I could see how peaceful and graceful You've made my life become.
I deserve all of your insults. wound me as you must please do but because I've let you go too many times and I've hurt you too many times I know better than to safeguard you, and give you all the happiness that I've stole from you.
"All of these times." Please forgive me. Richard Dounty says.
"Please, you have mercy on me." I've lost my wife. I cannot love you too. But part of me felt the guilt. Throughout this many years, I tried to push myself away from me because I felt tempted to kiss you for so many years. I found a way to pull myself away from you. To kiss you, I wanted to to have you and finally let it happen.
"And I wondered if Vixen"s mother was doing watching me with promises that I said to her but I gave to you." I'd never hated you, I hated myself for falling for you easily.
Really? The type of man who would fall for you. It was really never my intent and I promise you, I'm going to love you now without the guilt. Not anymore.
"Do not let go of my hand." He says to her as he begs for clemency, the look in his eyes is full of pain and he doesn"t know if she will answer him with what he wants to hear.
She knows what she's going to choose in one second, the look in his eyes. If she stays a second longer, it will break...her heart will.
All over again and she couldn"t afford for that to happen. Tears slip from her eyes as he remains on his knee, she must not fall for it. No, she mustn"t.
He slowly stands from his feet and heads towards her.
"If you will forgive me, I will toss all of my fears and guilt aside to be with you. So, don"t...don"t walk away from me." Richard says.
Hannah cannot take it anymore, her heart is breaking into a thousand pieces as she places her hand over her face and whispers something he doesn"t hear immediately.
"Yes, I forgive you."