Friend and Mate?

" Let’s go,” he says still standing by the door and without a word, I get up to follow him, he opens the door to his car and we drive home
“ hungry?” he asks
“no,” 
“angry?” he asks raising his eyebrow but eyes are still fixed on the road, I hated that he just dismissed me like that, he should know better that am as curious as a cat in nature, and I don't easily let things go. Drop it he said, I let out a deep sigh, sinking in my seat.
“ what do you think,” he smiles but doesn’t comment just looking ahead, I look outside the window once more opening it because I suddenly feel so hot in here but he rolls it back up making me retreat, I don’t utter a word.
The drive is weird and I turn on the radio to his car, maybe we need some music
‘ and I’ll always love you’ 
‘ and I wish you joy and happiness but above of this I wish love,' we both reach out to turn it off but our fingers touch, the small contact sends shivers down my spine, we both retreat abruptly as if the touch burnt yet it made my heart flutter, my stomach tighten, this man.

‘ sweet memories is all I’ll carry with me, and I’ll always love … you,’ I blush, why that song of all songs, he might think I did it on purpose, but the song continues to play and none of us dare to turn it off incase we touch again, and since when is it this awkward between us? We are friends right, he called me a friend and we hang out as friends! Just friends and I'm learning to accept that they could never be anything else between us but friendship, I should be content that at least he considers me one, in fact, family.
I breath when the song finally stop
‘ If you love someone, you open up the heart and if you love someone you make room, if you love someone and you’re not afraid to lose them, you probably never love someone like I do,' What’s with the radio today? Why are they playing such songs? I shriek internally shaking my head.
“cause you gave me something to lose,” I groan and this time, Nikolas rushes and turns it off but it doesn’t stop, is he pressing the wrong button?
“ Fuck,” he cusses frustrated, he pulls out the whole radio out and throws it out the window with urgency, I laugh looking at how frustrated it made him, a scowl on his face.
Soon we are at home, I am about to go inside when he grabs by wrist, pulling me close, I can feel his breath on me, it's warm and minty, all I have to do is move my head slightly towards him and our lips will meet but even if I had the courage to do that, can he claim them? I want to be brave but I can't, am too much of a coward
“ can we talk?” he asks, looking gently at me, I nod and he takes me to a bench on the lawn, we seat and our eyes are focused on looking at the small beautiful bond in front of us, the two ducks sleeping, they look perfect, they two different colors complimenting each other. Black and White, light and dark.
“ I owe you a story,” I look at him with wide eyes, what is he talking about? And what story does he owe me? 
We are closely sitting next to each other yet our bodies are not touching in anyway. I can feel his body warm.
“ Tai killed Loren?” I freeze, for a moment my heart drops, I don't know what to say, I told them about Tai and Mario but never for once did I think they were connected in anyway, especially like this, I've been wondering why they hate them so much, why the wulfrics mess with the cartel's businesses, I shake my head unable to swallow this bitter pill, his mate, his love was killed by that monster, why? No, no. I can’t find the voice to speak and even if I did what can I say?
“ I wished it was a lie, I wanted it to be, that Tai was just playing a sick joke, he told me he’ll take what I wanted most,” he smiles bitterly shaking his head, “ I remember when I got the call that she’s dead, I stayed there in that spot, i was immobile, I didn’t feel anything, I couldn't comprehend what was happening, I refused to so my wolf became a bearer of that pain I tried to refuse, all of it, he took it,"  he brings his hands to his face then sighs deeply
“ I don’t know what happened the first few days, I couldn't think but when I got back to my senses I was tied to my bed, my family surrounded me, they looked petrified, shock was written on their face,"  I don’t talk just listening. Picturing it as if am watching a movie, Nikolas in that state, depressed, mad, raged.
“ As if realization hit me, I remember screaming hard when I looked around them and she wasn’t there, I called her like a mad man, thrashing, trying to break the chains that were holding me down to that damned bed,” he swallows taking his hands out of his face.
“ I also remember my siblings crying so much maybe because they didn’t know what to do, I was always their pillar and I was broken, I was more than broken Ava, there was no more life in me, I couldn’t feel my wolf but he was there, have you ever been in a situation where you know someone is watching you in the shadow but they don't approach, just creepily watching you,"  I’m frozen, I can’t believe it but I still look at him, his sturdy features, his jaw tightly clenched and his fist are shivering now, I can see the vein on his temple.
“ You ask why I don’t drink anything but champagne or wine,” I've never seen him drink strong stuff, if someone who doesn't know brings him anything other than a glass of wine, he rejects it, and he doesn't drink more than a glass of wine. Everyone knows not to give him anything other than that.

“I drowned myself In alcohol after Loren died, my behavior became dangerous and reckless, I almost died so many times but when they thought it was too much they got me help,” I look at him, he has a dark expression on his face, his presence illuminating a different kind of aura
" It was hard there at the rehabilitation center, but I pushed through, I hated it at first, how can they lock me up, I am their alpha,"
He says, I still say nothing lips glued together. Shut like am mute.

“ After I got clean, my sisters told me to focus on other things, and I did I annihilated all those rogues Tai was working with, burnt down their businesses and massacred them, I really enjoyed myself, it was the only time my wolf surfaced, then he was gone,” I shake my head, I have seen his wolf before, if it’s gone then how
“ why did he do it?” I finally open my mouth to ask softly.

“ He loved her too but she chose me, and he hated it, if she couldn’t be his, she was no one’s,” that’s how why he killed her, he'd rather see her dead than with someone else, Tai disgust me, how can he do that?
“ That’s why you want to kill Tai badly, destroy his business?” 
“ yes, I will kill him Soon, his days are numbered that fucker knows how to hide and was working with the base, he has vampires under him as well,” I sigh bringing my hand to his shoulder, rubbing it softly. But how did he even come in their lives? I wonder, should I ask?
" You and Tai, how? " They are from two completely different worlds,
" We were partners, I actually considered him a friend, he came in my home on several occasions, then one day he saw her,"
" Ava that bastard will pay for taking her from me," his words are thick with venom, this man wants blood, Tai's blood and he is determined to get it.
“ you will,” I tell him, “ how did your wolf come back?” I ask the question that has being bugging me.
“ It slowly started showing himself since you came…. Maybe it’s because of the child or you,” he looks at me with the same intensity he did at the porch few minutes ago, he went through so much, I hug him, his reluctant at first but slowly I get his arms and wrap them around me, he chuckles softly before relaxing in the hug
“ I’m sorry you went through all that,” I see why he’s always so closed up but I’m glad his wolf is back now for good.
" I won't let Tai harm you, not you too," I can’t believe he passed through all that, I see why he was always broken and sad, under that tough man, the sarcasms, is nikolas wulfric, a man, alpha, brother, soon to be father and a friend who am happy to call family but wait is he scared that what happened will repeat itself, if he is protecting me like this, does it mean he actually likes me? he pulls away to look at me, I smile a blushing making its way on my face
Did his wolf choose me? 
“ Ava....I think my wolf chose you as his mate?” he says a bit unsure . I widen my eye as my heart pound out of my chest, excitement rushing to me, and the butterflies in my stomach are too much.