Chapter 18

JESSES POV

I lay on the bed, I feel Benitas hand on my chest, she's trying to be seductive

"I'm not in the mood". I said with a strict tone. She starts kissing me all over making moaning noises, I angrily sit up " I said I'm not in the mood".

"Don't tell me Violet's matter is what's causing your bad mood?".

I glare at her "Seem's like you dont know how serious this is, we are going to lose everything, and you-you are going to -".

She starts laughing "Tell me, are you angry because you fear you'll lose everything or the fact Violet is still alive? are you now regretting your remarriage to me?". I clench my fist

"I am thirsty". I get off the bed " You get some sleep first". I leave the bedroom.

I go downstairs, I take a bottle of Vodka, I pour it into a glass, I drink it in one gulp". I throw the glass to the floor, it breaks and scatters on the ground. I feel like I'm losing it, I take the bottle and start drinking from there.

I stop, I try to catch my breath, and I close my eyes.


______Two years ago
              
I get a call 'There's been an accident sir, your driver and your wife, well, the car, it exploded '. I quickly grab my coat, I rush to the front door

"Where do you think you're going?". Benita asked walking toward me

I reply with my panting voice" Violet, explosion-".

"So? it's an explosion, there's no way she could've survived".

I fall my coat "You did this?" I ask with disbelief

She smiles and walks away.


                       

                         PRESENT 


Fuck fuck fuck!!!!, I throw the bottle of Vodka to the wall

I fall to the floor, I grab my hair, and my breathing becomes heavy













                    VIOLETS POV

I hear a knock on my door " Who is it?".

"It's Luther". He said with a calm tone 

" Come in". He opens the door "I hope I'm not disturbing you?".

I shake my head "No you're not".

He sits next to me on the bed, I bend my head 

" So uhmm, that was Lana, Lisa's mum".

"Oh, yeah I already got that". I let out an awkward chuckle

"Ah, Uhm, I guess my mum got to tell you the gist huh".I nod "it's okay....truth is, she still needs some growing up to do".

"We all do". 

He chuckles "Fun fact, do you notice all our names start with the letter L?"

"Oh yeah, that's true".

" Lana thought of it since both our names start with an L".

"Cool, like a family of L". We both laugh

"Yea..family". He clears his throat "I was thinking, its best to see your lawyer now".

" oh right, yea, I should, uhmm, do you have like his number or something?". 

"I'll set up a meeting with him".

" Thank you, for everything, I'll make it up to you, I promise". I smile at him.

"Don't sweat it" There was an awkward silence " I'll be leaving now, I got some deliveries to make by the end of today, if you need anything mother and Lisa can attend to you, okay?".

"Okay". I hear the door close. I let out a sigh


_______I hear a baby cry, I suddenly see myself in a tower, with hundreds of stairs leading down, I was so high up that I could feel the clouds, the cry becomes louder, with my shaky leg I take the first step down, using the wall of the tower as my guide. The cry becomes even louder "Mummy is coming!" I yell with tears slowly rolling down my cheek...I take the second step down I almost fall off, I hold on to the wall as I try to catch my breath, I was going for the third one when suddenly I feel someone grab me, the harsh smell nearly chokes me "Benita". She starts laughing, and all of a sudden she pushes me, and I fall. 

I wake up panting
" Violet are you okay?". I hear Lisa's voice

Still trying to calm myself ,  I hold my tummy, I don't feel anything, tears start to drop "He's gone"

"Who is gone? why are you crying?" I feel her hands on my face 

I sob "I'm fine, I'm okay". I sit up " What are you doing here?".

"You might not know this but your room is the only room that has an inbuilt mirror".

I use my hands to clean my face " Oh yeah? go ahead, dont let me disturb you".

"Are you sure you are okay?".

I nod " I just had a nightmare".

"May I ask who he is?"

"Huh?"

"You said he's gone, who is he?".

I sigh "my baby".

She gasp "You had a baby?"

"I was going to, I was pregnant".

" I'm sorry".

"It's fine, probably for the best, we can't question God's decisions, even the cruel ones, there's always a reason".

" At least he's in a better place now, he has angles taking care of him".

I smile "Yea, I guess, it's better than being born into this cruel world ".

" Violet can I ask you something?".

I nod"Sure go ahead".

" Do you think I'm immature?".

"What do you mean?".

"Some kids in my class say I act like a child, probably because I dont have a boyfriend or done some of the things they do".

"If that's what kids your age think maturity means then they are the ones that are immature".

She laughs " You think?".

"Uh-huh, most of them will end up regretting most of their decisions, but their teenagers, it's an age for mistakes, but you shouldn't make them though, take a look at your parents and your grandma". She starts laughing

"You're right, thank you, Violet".

"Are you going somewhere? you mentioned the mirror".

" oh that, no, I'm trying out an outfit, I'm hanging out with my mum tomorrow".

I force a smile "oh that's great". I don't know why I don't like the sound of it, the sound of her. I'm not a quick judge of character, but for some reason, I don't like her. Not even a bit.

"Okay, I'll see you later, bye Violet". She leaves the room.