Chapter 24

I throw bread crumbs to the Pidgeon, hearing the flapping of their wings put a smile on my face, this is the one thing that makes me happy.

But then again, this is the place, Jesse and I had our first conversations, this is the place he told me he wanted to get to know me.

Tear gather, no, I shouldn't be like this.

"Hey, they seem to be a lot today". I hear Luther say with an exciting tone.
Hearing his voice suddenly brought some sort of comfort "Are you okay?". 

" Of course I am, I'm just happy to be here". I force a smile

"Well, that's great, I'm happy if you're happy". 

As soon as we were done, we go back to the house

" What a day today ". Luther said assisting me on the couch 

" Yea, apart from Benita I think it was quite okay".

I hear him sigh "You know, what Benita said wasn't wrong, it's gonna be hard taking your father's businesses away from him, he has everyone on his side".

" I know, we need to get married as soon as possible". I hear him gasp "What? what is it?".

" I didn't know you were so naughty". I scoff  "I guess you can't wait to have this body to yourself, doing whatever you want with it, just so you know I don't mind being the dominate".

"Pervert, like I'm marrying you for your body". I roll my eyes at him

" ah...for my looks then".

"Oh please, like I know what you look like ".

" Too bad, cause I'm incredibly handsome".

"Whatever, we are going to be married for a year anyway, lets' make the best of it, we can have Lisa come stay with us if you like?".

I hear him sigh "That's okay, she hates our guts right now, maybe after the wedding she can drop by from time to time, she'll be living with her mum soon anyway, as soon as Lana is comfortable".

"Well, good. That's sorted out, I'll go to my room now". I take my staff and stand on my feet 

" Let me escort you".He suggested 

"You don't have to". 

" Okay then". I smile at him, I go up the stairs and enter my room.

Immediately I take in a deep breath, the truth is, the whole talk about marriage is getting to me. It feels like yesterday I was married to Jesse, all those bad memories overshadow the good ones, looking back, it's like there weren't any good memories.

I can't believe he still did those things to me, I loved him with everything, did I deserve it?. Should I maybe curse on God for being blind?. My father use to tell me, that we all have a disability, but the worse one is the one of the heart and mind. even though it isn't physical, is there, and most times there isn't a curse when the person doesn't want to accept it.


I touch my staff, it has a bear made of jewels at the top. Luther sure is thoughtful, that's why the thought of me putting him through all of this doesnt sit right with me.







                         JESSE'S POV


Benita burst into my study "What's wrong?" I ask bluntly

"Your wife happened, you better make sure to keep the board and commission on our side".

I roll my eyes " That won't be a problem, remember that?, what did she say?".

Benita folds her arms acting all sassy "Well, she just went on about how she plans on taking back whatever belongs to her father, I swear she's such a headache, why can't she just fucking go away?".

"I'll take care of it, you may go now".

She scoffs "Thats all you have to say?, you can't even pet me or tell me everything is going to be okay?, Jesse, I'm your wife you know".

I hit my hand on the table " Benita, I don't have time for this".

"It's her? it's been her all along? you loved her didn't you".

" Benita, please stop!".

"That's why you helped her when she was in prison, even though I told you not to!".

I yell at top of my voice "Benita!" She gets scared  a bit "Just stop it, please, I have a lot on my mind, just leave!". With tears falling down her face she leaves banging the door.

I open my drawer, I see a photo of myself and Violet.


       * FLASHBACK *

"Come on, let's just take one photo together". I said pulling her to the photo studio

She stops me and turns my face to hers "What's the point?, its not like I can see it anyway. I already have a photograph of you in my heart". She kisses my lips

I touch her nose "I want to be able to see you, even when you're not close to me, please?".

She sighs "Fine...selfish brat, you already made a huge photo of our wedding now this".

I giggle "don't you want our future children to see how pretty their mummy was".

She gasp "Are you trying to say I wouldn't be pretty anymore". We both laugh

" I love you".

She smiles "I love you more".





____I use my hand to trace her face in the photo " I-i " I angrily toss the photo back in the drawer.

Fuck this.

Stella knocks on the door and enters "Sir". She bows 

" Yea, what is it?".

"I would like to take a break from work if that's okay with you?".

I nod "it's fine, you may be excused for a week, I bet your mind is filled with disturbing things right now". She doesn't say anything  "you may take a week off".

" Thank you, sir".

I smirk as i say "Take care of your autistic son".  She hesistates to say something, but then she just leaves.





                   LUTHER'S POV


I couldn't sleep well last night, I have tried to contact Lisa but she just won't talk to me. I have never had her this mad at me before.

I was done with making breakfast, I take the tray and I go up to Violet's room. 

I stand at the entrance of her room, her door was slightly open, I see she was on her bathrobe again, she was about to undress herself, my eyes widen, my breathing becomes heavier as I watch her slowly untie her robe, I see part of breast then i-

" Mr Benjamin Kim" I immediately turn almost losing my balance 

"Fuck! you scared me!".

" I'm sorry, did I?" It was the new maid "everything okay in there?".I block the view with my body

" Everything is fine". I nervously laugh

"Luther, is that you?". I hear Violet call

Shit