Chapter31

LUTHER'S POV

My mum constantly glares at us, Violet and I were sited directly opposite of her in the living room, I gulp 

"Mother, can we get your blessing now?" I feel cold sweat on my forehead, my legs felt cramped

"No". She replies rather blunt. 

" Please?". I ask nervously.

"No".  Well begging doesn't do anything

" Well fine, like I need your blessing, Violet and I will just get married without it". I get on my feet "come on Violet we are leaving". I take her hand and forcefully drag her 

" Stop!". My mum yells before we could walk out of the door, I smirk a little "let's talk about it". I knew this would work, my mum can't stand the idea of me leaving again. Violet and I go back to our position."Can I ask you one thing?".

" Of course mother".

"Do you love each other?". Violet turns to me, I give her a look and sigh 

"I-I do".

"That doesn't sound sincere, I just hope you are getting married for the right reason, Violet, you of all people should know what marriage is like". Violet doesn't say anything

" Mother please, Just trust me, if I don't marry Violet, I don't think I can live with myself". Violet suddenly gets on her feet

"I'm sorry, I can't". She runs out. I run after her

" Violet, please wait". She stops and turns to me with tears on her face 

"I can't let you do this Luther".

I grab her by her shoulders  "What did I tell you?, I'm the one who wanted to do this, I know what I'm getting into, I want to do this".

" What about your mother, your daughter, Lana?".

I shake my head "Let me worry about them" I hug her "You've cried so much today, I'm sure the water in your system is empty" I hear her giggle a little "you're sure a cry baby do you know that?". We slowly separate from the hug

" Thank you, Luther".

"There's no need for that". 

" Dad?". I turn and see Lisa 

"Lisa I-". She runs back inside the house, I turn to Violet "I should go talk to-".

Violet stops me  "No, I will do it"

"Are you sure?".

"Yes". 

I let out a sigh  "Okay then".




       

                    VIOLET'S POV

I knock softly on Lisa's door "Go away!". She exclaimed.

"Come on Lisa, let's talk". 

She groans "I don't want to talk to you!".

"At least hear what I have to say?". 

She unlocks the door "You have 5mins". I smile walking into the room. I sit on her bed, she sits next to me "So, what do you want to say?".

" I know you are upset that your father and I are getting married".

"Duh..."

"Well, what can I do to change your mind? name it".

" Easy, don't get married to him".

I smile at her "You don't like me?".

She groans "it's not like that okay?, I-i always imagined my dad and mum getting married one day, at least that's what my mum use to tell me, now you're ruining it, my mum loves my dad and you getting married to him is only going to break mums heart".

I let out a sigh " I'm sorry, I had no idea".

"Well now you do, you're not only taking my dad from my mum, but you're also taking him away from me too". 

"Lisa, I would never, your dad loves you very much, he would never leave you for anyone, if you like, you can always come live with us".

" Don't you get what I'm saying? I don't want you guys to get married". She's angry.

"So I can't change your mind?".

"No". Well, I guess I lose, how can I change her mind? Obviously she'll take her mum's side

"So you won't even change your mind for your dad's sake?". She doesn't say anything, I smirk "You know, I have a lot of money, I can probably get you anything you want, the latest gadgets, clothes, shoes, jewellery".

She clears her throat "You can do that?".

I smile "My house is so big, people say it looks like a castle, I even have this huge garden people go crazy over, you can even take pics on your social media to make your school friends jealous".

"I-I well, if you want to marry my dad I guess that's okay, but I am still against it".

"I am okay with that".

"So when are you taking me shopping?.  I laugh




                    LUTHER's POV

Lana walks into the living room "Lana? what are you doing here?". 

My mum clears her throat to get my attention "I called her here". 

Lana starts hitting me "How dare you! Why are you doing this to me!" She starts crying "You are such an ass!".

I grab her hands "Listen to me, I'm sorry okay?, I-I fell in love".

" You what!". Uh oh. She takes a throw pillow and continues hitting me 

"Let's use our words!" I yell running away from her

"First you get me pregnant, then you make me wait till after college, now you are getting married to someone else, why do you treat me this way! I can't let you be with anyone else, it's either you are with me or you die!!". She goes back chasing me

I run to my mum using her as a shield 
"Enough you two!" My mum yells "You are behaving like kids".

I point at her panting "She started it" she glares at me.

"You two have a lot to talk about". My mum leaves us " I don't want to hear any yelling!".

Lana folds her arms "Start talking". 

I gulp "Have I told you how beautiful you look today?".

" Luther, you know I love you, ever since we were kids, even when I got pregnant I told you I wanted us to get married, you told me after college, you promise me".

I sigh "I know, and I hate myself for not keeping my promise, I didn't just-I didn't know things will turn out this way you know?".

"No I don't, what of our daughter? did you even think of her?".

" Lisa will come around, eventually".

"I did everything you asked Luther, I even got the job, I'm a secretary of a big-time company, chads-" I stop her

"Did you just say chad? You don't mean Anthony Chad?".

" Is there a problem?".  I put both hands on my head, shit shit shit!

"Resign, resign as soon as possible".

" No, I just got the job, and it pays well, they don't just give anyone, especially without some kind of connection".

I grab her by her shoulders "You are going to resign do you hear me?". She pushes me away

" No. I'm done listening to you, I don't care".

"You have no idea-you didn't happen to meet a Jesse Harrison did you?".

"No".

I let out a relief sigh "good".

"I met his wife Benita Harrison". I feel like crying

"Why.....why......do you even know what's happening? You didn't mention anything about me did you?".

"No, well except the fact we have a child together".

I take in deep breath "Okay, okay, first thing Monday morning, you are going to resign".

"I'm not doing that Luther, I don't care what the problem is, you hurt me and if working in this company bothers you so much then, so be it".

I stomp my feet on the floor "Lana....". She rolls her eyes

"When I get my first paycheck, Lisa will finally come live with me, just like you wanted, it's not like she would want to live with you and that-" We hear Lisa and Violet giggling as they were walking into the living room. I smile at the sight of them

"And that pink glittering lipgloss, it smells like watermelon all the cool kids in my school like them and-".she stops seeing myself and her mum " Oh, hi mum, what are you doing here? It's not weekend yet".

Lana smiles "I know I just missed you".

She wears a confused expression "That's weird, anyway Violet invited me to choose her wedding dress isn't that exciting?".

Lana forces a smile "Yea, I guess it is".

"And she promised to take shopping, this weekend is going to be so much fun!".

"What of our hang-out?".

"We can always do that some other time mum, please let me go with her, please...." 

Lana gets upset, she fights back her tears, with her shaky voice she responds "Of course, you can just hang out with her, she's going to be your new mum anyway". Lana runs out of the house. What's with girls today and running?.

"Mum wait!" I hold Lisa

"I'll go talk to her".

Lisa turns to Violet "I'm sorry, but I don't think I can, it hurts my mum too much, this was a dumb idea". Lisa runs back to her room

Violet let out a sigh 


_______I see Lana outside crying looking at the stars "You okay?" I ask walking toward her

"No, obviously"

"Did you have to act up like that? Lisa isn't going to get along with Violet if you keep this up".

Lana suddenly slaps me "Shut up, I'm the one who's in tears and you are worried about Violet?". I try my best to overlook it 

"I-I'm sorry".

"You really are something, tell me, when we were together, did you really love me?"

"Of course I did, but that's a long time ago, 14 years ago, we were both kids".

"It isn't long ago to me, What we had was special Luther, you are the reason why I went through high school and college, if you didn't love me, you wouldn't have done that ".

I look down "I didn't do it out of love Lana"

"You lie" She walks away

Lana went through a lot because of me, if I didn't get her pregnant, she wouldn't have had to experience and go through what she did, that's why I took it upon myself to help her go through school and college. I never thought of marrying her, she would always bring it up but I guess I never truly loved her that way, it hurts me, it does. 

Sometimes I fear I'm a creature who isn't capable of loving. I look at my hands. How can a monster like me love anyway? if anyone finds out what I did, what I've done, what I'm capable of doing, the real me, they wouldn't look at me the same way.




We all hold a monster inside. The only difference is what form it takes when freed. - Author: Mary Lindsey