Chapter 58

The car began to move, Clarissa was the one driving because she loves my car and the way it makes her feel. She looked extremely happy today and her happiness was infectious.

Brendax moved me to rest on her lap while Rayden was busy making some bracelet that I found absurd. We aren't in high school anymore to be wearing friendship bracelets but I allow her to do it.

'Tell me you have plenty of food for me." I beamed.

'More than enough!" Rayden shouted.

Soon, the car arrived at the Park. I was so excited because it was the third time I am going out to have fun. I should do this often, it eases whatever pain I have mustered in.

Brendax and Rayden were the ones setting the picnic area while Clarissa and I brought out the food and makeshift tables and chairs we would be using. So good my car has a truck, we placed all the stuff in the truck.

Having carried the last piece of the chair, I went to help Clarissa set the remaining parts of the table while Rayden helped with the food. She cooked my favorite snacks and food the most which made me feel so loved.

'Alexander just texted me, he is coming along with his friend," Clarissa informed.

Alexander, he didn't pick up my calls after I turned in his proposal now. I just hope he understands me and gives me the space I need. For now, I want to be around people that inspire me to love myself first - These people.

Just then, a black SUV And Two Lexus cars pulled over at the parking lot. It was very far I faintly saw who came out of the car, it was Alexander and someone else.

'I think the president caught Alexander going out without his bodyguards, he must have forced him to come with them!" Rayden laughed as she talked.

Clarissa joined.
I continued to arrange the drinks, Brendax gently got to me, he squeezed my hand gently and I smiled back at him.

I loved that he kept assuring me that everything will be fine and I have him by my side every single time; he got my back. My tensed muscles soon relax and I waited for Alexander to make his way to us.

By the time I look up, Alexander was already a few inches away from us. I set the last plate of food on the table before dusting my hand against my jean pocket and looking up to meet Alexander standing right next to me.

I didn't know what to say, whether to apologize or hug him. He saved me from picking the wrong one when he pulled me into a hug and rubbed my back. I smiled and relax in his hands.

'It's fine, I understand you." He muttered.

How did my life have so many understanding people around me? I find myself with so many people that care about me and wouldn't even think of hurting me. I love that I don't have to feel lonely anymore, in and out these people have made me understand love. That love starts from loving yourself, they remind me of many reasons to fall in love with myself.

'Okay, let's start eating!" Clarissa shouted. She is the foodie no doubt.

Brendax sat beside me and Alexander sat by the right side leaving me in the middle. Rayden and Clarissa sat beside each other concerned about food alone.

'I have a game suggestion!" Rayden shouted at our chattering.

'Rayden, pass me the cheese, do you want to finish it!" Alexander yelled, I didn't even know he is capable of shouting until now.

Rayden rolled her eyes.
'I made it so yes I can finish it!" Still, she stretched the cheese to him and he collected it.

'The game suggestion?" Clarissa scooped a spoon full of food into her mouth. I smiled and started eating my food.

'Confession, let's spill out our feelings." Rayden completed.

'I'll start!" Clariss was the first to talk and I look at her.

'Okay, so these days I feel like my drawing isn't good enough. You know when you start doing something, a process wanting to finish it and conveying all your emotions in one piece to people but it feels like it's not right. That's what my drawing feelings like to me which makes most of my art incomplete. I want to be that artist that's able to convey the feelings of others in her drawing." Clarissa sounded so sad. I felt genuinely sad about her, drawing had been all she wanted to do her whole life. I wonder how it must feel feeling like you are not good at it and people won't get what you are trying to portray or perhaps, you are not portraying it right.

'I believe in your paintings." Alexander was quick to talk.
'You are good at it, just forget about being good or bad, do it." He added.

'Alexander you go next!" Rayden lightened the mood, everyone was already drawn in by Clarissa's confession.

Alexander smiled then he began to mix his food.
'Everyone assumes my life is the best. However, I don't have people of my own. I have always been indoors since I was young because dad had always been in politics which means our life was in constant danger. I grew up with no friends, no one but the butler to talk to which makes everything so lonely. One day, I hope I will find people of my own. And someone, someone who will love me." Alexander fixed his face on his food.

I appreciate that he didn't look at me, I would freak out if he did; I will feel bad like it's cause I rejected him. But he didn't have that expression on his face, he just genuinely wanted someone of his own and I can understand his situation.

'I don't want to cry," Rayden shouted trying to soothe the atmosphere again which I really appreciate. I am too shaken to do that.

'Brendax, go!" Clarissa shouted.

Brendax chuckled, he swallowed the food in his mouth before starting to talk.
'Emptiness was the moment of my life before. I was under the shadow of my best friend until someone walked toward me and offered me a chance, not a chance but I would say a chance because it allowed me to meet Alexia. You... All of you." He looked at Rayden while he spoke the word and I can swear I see some sparks but I back never seen Rayden and Brendax before so I tossed the thought off.

'Now, Alexia!" Rayden yelled.

I looked at her, and felt like stoning her because she yelled my name so loud and suddenly.
'I like that I am happier than I am before. His absence is making me see that there are many other reasons to be happy. I can live for something other than him. Yea, I really hope that he would feel the same way as I feel but.."

'But what?" the hoarse voice sounded behind me and my whole body froze at the spot.