Chapter 40: Our Luna, Our Queen

***Guinevere***

Damien looked good. He looked stronger and his aura more powerful. I wanted to run and launch myself into his arms, and kiss him until I was breathless. I wanted to rip his clothes off and tear my dress and press my flesh against his, and feel the spark that lit my skin on fire, I wanted Damien to take me and claim me as his. But, I also wanted to slap him and yell at him. I wanted to tell him how lonely and unloved I felt without him these past two weeks. How I’d spent the mights lying in bed awake at night wondering when I’d see my mate again.

Vladimir had made these last two weeks bearable but it wasn’t the same as being with Damien. As much as I loved Vladmir I wasn’t in love with him and I never would be. Damien was the only man my heart belonged to, and without him I felt empty.

Damien was upon me before I had sorted my emotions.

“Guinevere,” Damien purred wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me into him tightly, “ I missed you.” He leaned down and kissed the top of my head.

I felt my anger dissipate the moment his arms went around my waist. I leaned into his embrace, soaking in the warmth and the smell that was my mate.

“I missed you too.”

I let him hold me a moment longer before I pulled myself out of his embrace.

“How Is the pack?” I asked looking into Damien’s eyes, waiting to hear what had kept him from me for so long.

“The pack is well,your mate has a good head on his shoulders. He’s made some many much needed changes the last two weeks.”

The voice that spoke wasn’t that of my mate, but of another voice, one that I’d heard everyday of my life since the moment I took my first breath. I tore my eyes off of Damien’s and whipped my head in the direction the voice had come from, I’d been so distracted by Damien that I had failed to notice the familiar smell and scent.

“Daddy!” I squealed. “What are you doing here?”

I ran over to my father and wrapped my arms around him hugging him tightly. God I had missed him and mama so much. It had been just a little over three months since my eighteenth birthday and so much has changed since the last time I saw my parents, tears were glistening my eyes when I pulled back.

My father looked at Damien, who gave him a nod before he responded back to me.

“ I am the new head of the council.”

I looked at daddy with my eyebrow raised, ‘what? When did this happen?’ I thought to myself.

‘Your father did say, a lot has happened in the last two weeks,’ Sabrina acknowledge.

“And,” my father said a large smile lighting up his face, “I am here to commiserate your Luna ceremony.”

“As well as your coronation as Queen ceremony.” Vladimir added on.

“And lastly he will announce the joining of the vampire pack Del Sol with the werewolf pack, Blue Moon, making it the Lunar Blue Sol pack.”

My head whipped around starring at Damien, “wait what.”

“We,” Damien said gesturing between Vladimir and himself, “cannot live without you, and we don’t want to split your time between us, so we’ve decided to merge the packs as one.” His voice was full of emotion and he cleared his throat before continuing. “And it will strengthen our pack borders and help us prepare for the battle against Jupiter.”

I found myself stumbling over my words. “I… I don’t know what to say.” My mind was a jumbled mess. Never had I imagined that Damien and Vladimir would come together and join the packs as one. They’d been enemies for so long, to think that they both loved me so much to put their differences aside, it was an overwhelming thought.

“It’s for the best Guinevere,” Vladimir said reaching towards me , stroking his hand down my back, I felt a sense of calm wash over me, and I knew that Vladimir had felt the sense of overwhelmingly uneasiness that had passed though me through our soul keeper bond. “The ceremony is about to start. I’m going to walk your father through the process of a vampire queens coronation ceremony.” Vladimir beckoned my father too him and took off near the stage where the ceremony was to be held. Leaving me alone with Damien.

“You look beautiful.” Damien said reaching towards me and pulling me into his arms kissing my forehead.

“Damien, listen about Vladimir and I….”

Damien interrupted me, “Guinevere, you have no need to explain. He holds a part of your soul. He is as much of your mate as I am. I cannot imagine taking him from you. These past two weeks without you they’ve been hell. A hell I don’t want you to have to go through again.”

Instead of taking the time to explain to Damien that Vladimir and my bond was that of close friends instead of lovers I took the opportunity to ask him the question that had been bothering me since he left.

“Damien, why did you leave me?”

Damien fidgeted with his clothes for a moment, gathering his thoughts before answering me.

“Guinevere,” he said taking me by the hands, “I didn’t know what was waiting for me back at the pack. I didn’t want to risk taking you home after such a difficult loss, and something happening to you. And you’d just met your other mate. I didn’t want to rip you away from Vladimir. If I’d taken you back with me, I’d never have allowed Vladimir to mate with you. And I didn’t want to take that decision from you.”

My eyes began to fill with tears. “So you weren’t angry at me. You weren’t disappointed in me for losing the baby.”

“Guinevere,” Damien ran his hands across my face, wiping up the tears that were now spilling down. “What happened,” Damien’s expression turned pained and I could also see glints of anger in his eyes, “you losing our baby, that was not your fault, Gwynn. There was nothing you could have done differently to change the account, and I am so sorry that I made you feel that way baby.”

For the first time since I met Damien, I saw some of his hard exterior Knick away and I saw tears in his eyes. I knew that losing our baby has been as painful for him as it was for me, as grateful as I was for knowing that I wasn’t alone in missing what could’ve been, I wish I could take his pain away.

I tilted my head up and wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him into a kiss. It was a sweet gentle kiss, when I pulled away I smiled shyly at Damien. This had been one of the purest moments we had shared together.

“Damien, there’s something else I need to tell you.”

“It’ll have to wait sweetheart. Vladimir is trying to get our attention.”

I turn from Damien to face towards where Vladimir had walked off to see him standing on the stage waiving his hands in the air trying to get our attention.

I laughed at the sight shaking my head at his antics.

Damien laced his fingers through mine and smiled at me, “I love your laugh. Now let’s hurry up before Vladimir loses it.”

We hurried over to Vladimir.

“Hello lovebirds.” Vladimir teased. I felt my face go red, “how nice of you to finally join us. I was just telling you father, about the ceremonies today and I was wondering if you wanted to become a Queen or a Luna first?”

Both Sabrina and Cierra started argue amongst each other. Cierra wanted me to be a Queen first since I had mated to the Wolf Alpha first, Sabrina wanted me to be Luna because I’ve always known about my wolf side and because Damien was our true mate, while Vladimir and I held a strange bond.

‘The bond isn’t strange, Sabrina!’ Cierra yelled at my wolf. ‘Just because it’s different from what you know doesn’t make it strange. Soul keeper bonds can be stronger than mate bonds. We know our partners soul, what they’re feeling, every single moment of the day.’

They were giving me a headache so I decided to block both of them out, trying to decide what I wanted. I wanted to be true to myself, and I knew that I was Botha. Queen and A Luna and I wanted to be made both at the same time.

“Can we do the ceremonies together?” I inquired, looking at Vladimir.

“Hmmm.” Vladimir sat and thought for a moment, “we can do them simultaneously but it’ll take a lot out of you. The power surge you’ll feel will be overwhelming.”

I squared my shoulders and stood tall. Feeling Sabrina and Ciera agreeing with my decision.

“I can handle it.”

Damien, Vladimir and my father all smiled in unison, “Then let the ceremony commence.”

***next update is wednesday, let me know your thoughts. xoxo Marriah.