Part B: Chapter 42

A moan escaped my lips as Aidan continued to place kisses all over my body. This was the first time in weeks that both of us were free and I wasn’t so tired from training with Carter because he had given me the day off saying he had work to catch up on. I gladly took the day off and lazied around the house in one of Aidan’s shirts which reached below my knees.

Aidan had come back from work, looking just delicious enough in his suit and when he saw me in his clothes, his eyes darkened and that’s how we found ourselves in such a position. Me sprawled on the couch naked and he was still dressed on top of me, his tongue doing wonders to my body.

“*Fuck*, you taste so sweet,” he lifted his head up so that he could look at me and I could see the lust in his eyes and it made me want him even more. I wonder what my mother would think of me if she knew of the things I let this man do to me.

“Less talking, more of this,” I ran my fingers through his hair, tugging him back up and kissing him. His hands roamed all over my body, tracing different shapes and igniting the fire inside me.

Aidan groaned as he pulled back and traced kisses down my neck, my breasts and my belly. His other hand was squeezing one of my breasts, rubbing and pinching just enough but not too hard to cause unbearable pain.

“Yes,” I moaned as I bit my lips and closed my eyes. “Oh gosh, that feels so good.”

I felt him smile against my skin as he made his way all the way between my legs and spread them wider as he pulled me closer to the edge of the couch and he knelt down. “Tell me what you want and I will give it to you. Today is about your needs.” His breath fanned the inner part of my thighs making a warm sensation run through my body. He ran his fingers tentatively on my exposed skin, his eyes hooded with his hair a mess and his tie hanging loose around his neck. “Love, I need you to talk to me, use your words.”

I bit my bottom lip and smiled. I didn’t know what I needed but I knew if he did it, it was going to make me see stars and that’s all I cared about. “Do whatever you please, ravish me the way you want,” I said, my fingers playing with his locks. “As long as you are the one doing it, I know I’ll love every moment of it.”

Aidan licked his lips and spread my legs wider then he slowly lifted my hips up with one hand and used the other to remove my underwear and toss it on the floor. “You are going to regret giving me all the control.” His head lowered between my legs and he placed kisses, slowly moving all the way to my opening. He used his tongue to lick and suck before I felt two of his fingers enter.

My body clenched as I accommodated him and then another finger entered. He remained still and lifted his head just enough that I could see his eyes. “I want to see you come apart because of me,” he said and then gently began to move his fingers inside me. It started off slowly and then picked up pace, each thrust of his fingers drove me over the edge and I could see stars dancing in front of me. “Open your eyes, I want to see you.”

I obeyed and opened my eyes. He was watching me, his eyes hooded and no longer the bright green I knew them to be. Just as I was about to reach the edge, he pulled out his fingers and used his other hand to forcefully pull my neck down so that our eyes were on the same level. Without waiting for me to say anything, he gently ran his thumb over my bottom lip as he brought the other hand to my lips. I bit my lip in anticipation for what he was going to do.

“I’ll save the harder stuff for another time.” He got up and lifted me up and I wrapped my naked body around his waist as he carried me into the bedroom and all the way to the bathroom where he placed me down. I watched as he turned the tap on for the tub and let it fill. “I’m going to take care of you today.” He poured some gel and other scented soaps I’d seen lying on one of the shelves then he picked me up yet again and gently placed me in the bath.

The water smelled like daisies and lavender. Aidan sat on top of the bathtub and grabbed a loafer.

“Aren’t you going to get in?” I asked, my body relaxing as my eyes drifted shut. “The water feels good.”

“Today is your day, you’ve been working so hard and I just want to make you feel happy and loved.” His fingers smoothed my hair down and then I felt him washing my body with such care.

I’d never seen this side of Aidan and I loved it. My heart soared with so much love that I didn’t know whether I should let him know how I felt. I was afraid if I said anything too soon, I’d scare him off and we would never be able to go back to this.

“Just relax, I’m here.” His voice carried through in my thoughts, numbing all my worries. “Tell me what you want. Whatever it is, I can make it happen.” There was sincerity in his words but I could help but wonder what had brought the sudden change of heart. It wasn’t like we were in a bad place or anything like that, but I still held so many doubts about our future.

What if I wasn’t good enough and failed to complete the mating ritual? What would happen to me, much worse, what would he think of me and what would his people think of him?

“Can you tell me what I should expect during the mating ceremony?” I finally asked, pushing away all my worries and fears for another time.

Aidan stopped his movements and I opened one eye to look at him. “I can’t tell you,” he replied, then he went back to washing my hair. “All I can tell you is that it’s one of the best things.”

“That’s exactly what Carter told me,” I huffed in frustration. “Why can’t you just tell me?”

“Because it’s not how it’s supposed to be,” he simply replied.

I was getting frustrated with everyone keeping secrets from me. “You know what, forget it. I want to be alone.” I got out of the tub and wrapped a towel around myself.

“Come on, don’t be like that. You know if I could I would tell you,” Aidan pleaded as he followed me out of the bathroom.

I spun around and glared at him. “Then why didn’t you tell me that Sean talked to you, huh? Why did you keep that a secret from me?” I asked, feeling tears prick the corners of my eyes as I held the towel tighter around my body. “Is it because you still don’t trust me and haven’t truly forgiven me for what I did, is that it?”

Aidan took a step closer but I held out my hand to stop him. “It’s more complicated than that.” He racked his fingers through his hair agitated. “Not everything has to be about you.”

“Figured you wouldn’t answer me.” I picked up some leggings and hoodie and threw them on. “You know what, I’m tired of all the secrets, if you aren’t going to trust me with information then why are we wasting our time?”

“You don’t mean that.”

“This whole back and forth is honestly too much for me and I don’t think I can take it anymore.” The words left my mouth and I couldn’t take them back. “I think it’s best we stay away from each other to evaluate where this relationship is going.” I turned and walked out of the bedroom and out of the house, leaving him standing there looking broken the same way my heart was breaking.