Concussed

*Sandra*

My head was pounding, I didn't want to open my eyes. If I let any light in it only hurt. I hear ringing in my ears, I'm pretty sure I am bleeding from my nose and forehead. I can't breathe through my nose very well and there was something shoved in my mouth. It was dry, like a t-shirt or a rag. It makes me want to gag. I try not to realizing I might choke. There is noise around me but it's hard to hear over the ringing. I feel like I am moving, but I can't move my feet and my hands are behind my back. I was instantly filled with fear. Someone tied me up while I was out. *Why say someone Sand, It's him* I started shaking. "You awake my beautiful Sandy?" I heard his voice and froze. I started breathing a little heavier to try to make him think I was still unconscious. He didn't speak again. I slowly tried to open my eyes, I had to see where I was. I had to start working on a plan to get away. It didn't matter if it was excruciating I had to get back to Joseph. I could see a leather seat and the sun shining through the window. I tried to turn it over but I couldn't. He must have thrown me in the back of a car. I worked hard moving my head while using my tongue getting the gag out of my mouth. I closed my eyes again trying to remember what happened taking deep breaths trying to calm my mind. My head is so cloudy. *Concentrate* I remember smiling over at Joseph, he was taking me to get pizza. He knew I loved pizza. I heard a crash and felt him grab my hand. I heard a loud bang, and then two more. Gunshots. "Did you kill them, Ryan?" I couldn't stop myself from blurting it out. He couldn't have killed them, surely they were alive, looking for me. I felt the car come to a sudden stop. He got out of the driver's seat and opened the back door dragging me out. I rolled down a small grassy hill. He followed. " I shot him, Sandy, he will never touch you again." I started crying. I kicked at him and screamed when he walked over to me trying to pick me up. He cursed at me slapping me hard making my head pound even harder. All I could feel was rage, a fire burning inside me, the anger took the fear away. I held onto it. "Is that all you can do?" I smirked at him and spat blood on the ground. He picked me up and pushed me down to sit on the edge of the backseat.

"Oh look you got brave didn't you baby." He walked up and ran his hand down my cheek. I jerked away. He grabbed a handful of hair and forced his mouth on mine. I kept my mouth shut tightly until he stopped trying to shove his tongue in my mouth. He stood up looking down at me in that devilish way he did before. He ran his hand up my leg and started to push it up my dress, I squeezed my legs together as hard, screaming as loud as I could. Someone would have to hear me. "Shut up!" he screamed at me, but it worked and he moved his hand. "Don't fucking touch me" I said through my teeth. "You belong to me Sandy, your life with Smoke has ended, the quicker you accept it." he got right in my face, "the better." I closed my eyes and pictured Joseph. I smiled to myself remembering what he said, "Sunshine, I will burn this whole city down to protect what's mine." I was willing for him to be okay. He had to be, the universe wouldn't have brought us back together to just take him away from me. "He's not coming Sandy." This time he was whispering in my ear. I got instantly nauseous. I opened my eyes and looked straight into his, I refused to look away, "Yes, he will." That enraged him but I kept eye contact. "He will come for me, and you will disappear." He punched me this time, picked me up and threw me back in the car. Then started driving down the country road we were on. I couldn't tell where we were but it wasn't the city anymore. I didn't speak anymore while we drove. My head was pounding, it was all I could do not to vomit all over the back of the car. I think I was going in and out, I was getting flashes of light and darkness. flashes of Ryan and then Joseph. I closed my eyes again, and the light was gone.

I woke up shivering laying on my back on a hard surface. I couldn't move my arms but my legs for free. He had something covering my eyes and I think he removed my dress. I was still wearing my bra and underwear. I pulled against the ties on my wrists feeling something cut into my skin. "You cant move Sandy." He said smoothly. I felt his hand run down my side to my leg. I jerked away. "I am going to remind you who you belong to, but you need to be cleaned first, You let that dirty trash inside of you, you ruined my sheath." I felt my body starting to shake. He started laughing but it was dark. His monster was in full force, all that has happened had erased any humanity that was left in him. "Ryan please, Just let me go, We will figure this out." I felt a familiar stinging on my thighs and couldn't help but cry out in pain. He had his belt. "You remember that Sunshine, you remember what happens when you forget that I am your king." He struck me again. This time I forced myself to hold in my reaction. I won't give him the satisfaction. "Stay quiet little woman. Be tough. You will submit to me like you always have." He hit me again. I gave him nothing. He ran his fingertips down my cheeks. " are you ready to get clean?" I took a sharp breath in but didn't answer. It got quiet. I laid there feeling the tears betraying me and running down my face. I could feel the stinging from the belt marks on my legs. My shoulders ached from my arms being tied and my head was still pounding. I couldn't completely open my left eye from the punch. I closed my eyes and pictured Henry teaching me how to make crepes. He was so proud of himself, so glad to have someone around to teach his passion to. It was so quiet, so dark, I couldn't keep my eyes open. I drifted out again.

Im drowning, he is drowning me. It's so cold, it stings. He is spraying me with something. "Wash all that brotherhood stink off baby." He was spraying me with a hose I think. Where is he keeping me? Will they find me, will they know where to look? "Please stop" I was sobbing now, I was shivering, and my body was stinging and burning. I was so cold. He laughed and sprayed me again. "You going to submit to me, Sandy?" I didn't respond. When he finally stopped spraying me I couldn't catch my breath. "Please," I said again through labored breaths. he had his hand on my chin and he kissed me, I kissed back. He was going to kill me, I couldn't let him kill me. I cried more as I kissed him. "That's my Sandy" he whispered in my ear. He ran his hand down to my breast and started telling me how my nipples were hard because I knew I wanted him. I cried harder. He squeezed my breast hard, really hard, making me cry out. "I missed this Sandy, I missed watching you give in to me. I can't believe you let someone else touch what was mine." He squeezed my other breast just as hard. I didn't feel that one as much. I was dizzy and shaking. He took my blindfold off smacking my cheeks, "Wake up I am not even close to done with you." I tried to talk but I couldn't get anything out. I looked around and knew where we were. It was my dads cabin. He left it for me. He left it for Elizabeth Oxide. How did he find it?

I couldn't keep my eyes open, I tried. I was going back into the darkness.