Ravaged

*Jospeh*

I keep playing it over and over in my head. I swore I had her hand. I didn't let go. How did he take her from me? How could I let that happen? I sat in my office staring at nothing. I couldn't focus, I couldn't do anything but think of Sandra. What could he be doing to her? I didn't protect her. This is my fault. All of it is my fault. All I could hear was Ryan singing that song, over and over. I will destroy him. I will end him. I sat in my office ruminating. I heard a small knock on the door. I didn't say anything just kept staring off into space. Zeus walked in and shut the door behind him. "Jo, I have a report for you." He didn't look directly at me. I looked up at him and nodded. "I talked with Jay, he is going to be here in a little bit, one of the bullets didnt get him the other just bruised his ribs under his vest. I talked to him and he wouldn't say much over the phone, but he said something about mistaken identity. I think Ryan believed he shot you in the chest." My heart sank, he has probably told Sandra that he killed me. He is going to take away all of her hope. He is going to break down everything she has built back up. "Boss, this means he still doesn't know who you are. He won't see you coming. The other guard sadly passed but our men have his body and will get rid of it. Henry has his stitches and I am a bit sore but we will be okay. The doctor will be here later to check out your wounds. He sent in pain meds for you." He sat them down on my desk. I picked them up and absent-mindedly threw them at the wall. He didn't react. "Where did he take her Z?" He looked at me quietly but the sadness was all over his face. He sat down. He looked up at me running his hand through his hair. "We don't know yet Jo, we will find her. Then we will bring him back here and slowly rip his limps off." I saw his anger showing through his sadness. "Focus on that rage Z, we have to focus on that. That is how we will find her." He nodded in agreement. "Where is Henry?" I asked. Zeus looked up at me shaking his head. "It's not good Jo, I have caught him crying, I saw him in the kitchen after his stitches just staring off," I told him to bring him to my office and then head out and get all the info he could about Ryan. Even if he had to take a team to the police department or his parent's house. I wanted to know everything.

When Henry walked in he looked almost as bad as I felt. "Sit Henry." He didn't speak he just followed my order. "You have to focus bro, we have to find her, we can't do that moping around and feeling bad." He shook his head yes. "We have to focus on our rage, on our want to take her back, and rip his fucking head off." He looked up at me and I watched him change. I watched him tense up. He was ready. "Go and find out everything about Sandra. When she came to college, where she stayed, where they were the first time they kissed, I want to know everything." He nodded and walked out of the room. I was alone again. I couldn't just sit here. What if he hurts her? What if he touches her? What if he forces himself inside of her? I stood up and started throwing stuff around my office. I looked down at my phone thinking about what he said when he called me. I tried to call back and it just went to voicemail. Zeus told me he probably ditched the phone and sent a team to look for it. Nothing yet. Maybe if we could find the phone we could find what direction he took her in. I have to find something. I have to do something. I got up and started walking towards the staircase. The Dr had pulled up and I knew he would only see me in the fortress. This isn't his first visit. He only goes by Doctor. No names and we appreciate that. I walked up to my floor and almost couldn't walk through the door. It felt so empty without her. The Doctor walked in behind me. He took a good look at my injuries and gave me some antibiotics. I reached him a brown bag full of money and told him to stay available and he walked out. He never was one to talk. He looked a bit like a serial killer. Dark hair and eyebrows, dark eyes and a long nose. He always wore a button-up shirt and a leather jacket. He was a character.

When Zeus messaged me to tell me Jay had arrived from the hospital I told him to send him up. He walked in looking about as bad as the rest of us. "I'm sorry boss, I tried to stop him. He picked her up, she was unconscious, she had hit her head on the window when it broke in the wreck." I put my hand up and stopped him. "Jay, this was not your fault. This is my fault. This is his fault, and we will kill him." he nodded at me. " When I ran for him he shot me I kept going but the second shot knocked the wind out of me, and he threw her in the car and sped off." He shook his head and looked like he could rip his head off with his bare hands. I asked him how we wrecked. He told me he rammed the car into the back of the SUV slamming us into a pole. That he had to kick the door open but he watched as Ryan jerked Sandra through the window. "She was cut up but still breathing when he was carrying her to the car, I don't think her injuries were fatal." I flinched at his words. I dismissed him. As he was walking to the door, he turned around and asked me for permission to speak freely. I nodded. "Boss, I am sorry we didn't stop him, When he came to the car I was slowly gaining my senses. I turned around and you had her hand, you were holding it tight. That's why he shot you, he said something about not being able to protect her or Smoke. I don't know why he thought I was you, maybe he didn't see where I came running from, but you were protecting her, even when you weren't conscious." He nodded at me and walked out the door.

I was stunned, I knew I was holding her hand tight. I knew I had her, that son of a bitch shot me and made my hand let go. I turned around and walked into my bedroom. I looked around, It was already cleaned from the night before but the flashes of the night played through my mind. I smiled at the recent memory. Instantly feeling guilty. I quickly turned and walked back through to my kitchen. I grabbed a bottle of bourbon and took a big swig. Pouring about half of a whiskey glass full and sitting the bottle down. What am I going to do to save her? I have to get her back, I can't live this way. I never wanted to feel anything. Now I don't want to let my feelings for her go. I drank what was left in my cup and headed to my little office with the bottle. When I turned on the computer I didn't know what to even search for. I started watching the security footage, I watched as she flowed down the stairs in her beautiful little sundress, How she smiled when she saw me. I watched as we walked out the door and she got into the SUV. That can't be all I have left of her. Yes, I have to find her. I pulled up one of our search engines just staring at it. I didn't know where to start. I looked up Sandra Burd, but nothing showed up that I didn't already know. I looked up the detective as well but nothing new had shown. No secret homes, or buildings he could be keeping her in. I checked credit card trails but he hadn't used any of his since the divorce. He probably knew we could trace his movements that way. He was a cop after all, or pretended to be one.

I put my head in my hands and screamed. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't see my eyes were blurry. All I could see were her beautiful grey eyes... I put my hands on the keyboard.

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