Chapter 31

Tank
I can’t believe Brit’s nasty mouth. Change that yes I can. But she thought she could tell me what to do.Fucking venomous bitch. No wonder I had to be drunk just to fuck her. I’m not going to worry about her right now. I’ll deal with that shit later. I have more important things to deal with like this beauty in my arms. She needs rest and I’m going to make sure she gets it.

I feel Lilly shaking against me. The shit with Brit must have upset her. “ I’m sorry you had to hear that, Lilly. She shouldn’t talk about you that way. I will deal with her later.” I set Lilly on her bed and pulled back. “ I won’t let any of the bunnies near you.” Lilly lays back and I see she is laughing. That is why she was shaking. “ I don’t often see them get put in their place. I would have loved to see her face when her favorite member told her to shut up.She is always bragging how when you make her your ol’e lady she isn’t going to take shit from anyone.”

I'm happy she wasn’t scared. I look at her and take in her smiling face. She is laughing so hard she has turned a bright shade of red.Then it dawns on me what she said. “ I will never make that whore my ol’e lady. I don’t know what the hell she would get an idea like that. I have never said anything like that to Brit.” Lilly is still laughing “ Probably wishful thinking.” Looking at Lilly now happy and laughing I can’t help myself. I sit beside Lilly and pull her in my arms. I am thrilled she let me. I want her in my arms as often as possible.

I could lay here with her for the rest of my life and never get enough.But there is something else I want to do. No, I need to. I’ve been wanting to do this for a long time and I’m done waiting. I lift Lilly’s face to mine and lean in.I press my lips to hers and in one touch I’m in heaven. Lilly is a little stiff at first. Then she relaxes into me. I run my tongue along the seam of her lips begging her to let me in. She opens for me a little, giving me a chance to slip my tongue into her mouth. I swipe my tongue against hers. She tastes like strawberries from the water she was drinking earlier.From now on whenever I smell strawberries I will think of Lilly. Lilly hesitates at first. I pull her closer to deepen the kiss. I swipe my tongue against hers again and she twists her with mine. Lilly slides her hands up my arms and wraps them around my neck.

I want to taste every inch of her but will settle for her mouth for now. If I thought I was in heaven before I was dead wrong. Having Lilly respond to me and kiss me back. A little moan escapes her and I swallow it. Those moans are just for me to hear. I feel my dick rising up to join in the action. But that fucker will have to wait. The first time with Lilly will not be while she is still healing. And it damn sure won’t be in the clubhouse for all to hear. When I finally get between those luscious thighs I will make it special for her. Away from everyone. Not in a place where I have fucked a bunch of bunnies.

As much as I am enjoying devouring Lilly’s mouth.I need air. I don’t want to pull away from those silky lips but I must. I rest my forehead against hers just breathing in her scent. “ Wow.” Lilly says breathlessly. She can say that again. “ That was an amazing first kiss.” That was her first kiss? I know she is a virgin but I didn’t think she was completely untouched. But just knowing I’m her first in everything makes me swell with pride. I will be her first and only if I have my way. “ Mr.Tank not that I’m complaining. Because I’m not. That was awesome. But why did you kiss me? You never kiss anyone.” How did she know that? Lilly giggles “ I hear the bunnies talk. Or complaining is more like it. You never kiss them.”

I have never told anyone this but Lilly deserves the truth from me. “ No, I never kissed them. To me kissing is more intimate than fucking. I wasn’t in a relationship with those bunnies.I was using them to get off. That’s it. Nothing more.” Lilly licks her lips and I am mesmerized by it. I wonder if she can still taste me like taste her. “ Ok,but that doesn’t explain why you kissed me. Up until recently I thought you hated me.” My poor girl. The things I regret when it comes to you. I pull her in my lap and hold her tight. “ I kissed you because I have wanted to do that for a long time. Lilly, I know it is going to take time for you to believe me. I’m going to tell you the truth. In time as I prove myself I hope you will see everything I say from the heart.”

I take a deep breath. It is now or never. I’m not going to hide from my feelings anymore. “ I never hated you. It was the opposite.” “ I don’t understand.” Lilly says.” I have always cared for you Lilly. But when my feelings got too much. I did something stupid to push you away. I thought I was doing what was best for you. I thought you deserved better than a guy like me. But just pushing you away wasn’t enough to get you out of my head and heart. No matter how much I drank. Or messed around. I couldn’t get rid of you. Unfortunately it took your accident to make me wake up. I thought I lost you before I truly had you. I made a vow the instant you were but in the ambulance that if you made it out of this I wasn’t going to let you go. I was going to prove to you I could be a good man for you. The only man for you.”

We sat silent for a minute letting Lilly absorb what I said. “ Tank, why would you say you weren’t good for me.” She didn’t call me mister this time so I have to be making head way. “ I’m just a hard biker that does tattoos for a living.” I told her. Lilly guides her hand to my face. “ Oh, Tank. You are so much more. You are a brother that fiercely protects his family and friends. You are an uncle who will play with toy cars for hours. Or tickle little babies to get them to laugh. Your tattoos are works of art. You get excited over something as silly as a cheesecake. You help build swing sets. And you wreak havoc on anyone that hurts your family. You always have a hug ready when Merigold or the kids need one. You helped set up Jace and Jax’s birthday party because you wanted their first birthday here to be extra special. To me that doesn’t sound like someone who isn’t a good man.”

Lilly sees all that in me? And it shows she has been watching even when I pushed her away. She still saw good in me.” And Tank don’t you think it is unfair for you to take my choice away from me? Shouldn’t I have the right to choose who I want to be with? Shouldn’t I choose who is good for me? I understand you thought you were doing the right thing. But Tank, you should have talked to me. You should have asked me what I wanted.” I know she is right. I should have talked to her. Lilly has never judged any of us for being bikers or the jobs we do. “ And since you are opening up to me it is only fair that I open up to you. If you had come to talk to me and told me how you felt. I would have told you how I felt as well.” Lilly runs her thumb along my jaw like she is trying to sooth me.

“ If you had come to me I would have told you that I loved you. I would have told you that I see all the sides of you and I like what I see. I would have told you how proud it would make me to be with a wonderful, loyal man like you.” Lilly loves me. She loved me from the beginning. I wasted all that time. “ I’m so sorry Lilly. I should have come to you. What can I do to make it up to you?” Lilly leans into me. “ Tank, you made a mistake. You didn’t cheat on me. Since we weren’t together. Yes, you hurt my feelings. You can fix that by never doing it again. As for the rest. How about we start over with a clean slate. You are going to have to learn to talk to me. I won’t tolerate being cheated on so if you are with me that means no more bunnies. If you want to be with me as much as I want to be with you. Then we start anew right now.” I don’t know what I did to deserve her but I will not let Lilly down. She is giving me a chance that to be honest I haven’t earned. She is giving me a do over and I’m taking it. “ This time Lilly I won’t let you down. Thank you.” I smash my lips to hers pouring all my feelings for her into it. Lilly whispers against my lips `` You could never let me down.”