Wrong Is Right

STAR'S POV;

If I could just figure all of this out on my own, I'd know what I am supposed to do. For nearly months now, I have been this wolf and I have no idea what reason Conri picked me to be his mate. There are many others that he could have chosen to be his mate, but he chose me. I must find out the reason that he chose me, this is going too far.

I was standing at attention looking out into the field watching Conri and his pack of wolces train and suddenly I thought, "what is the pack really training for? Why me? What am I doing here at a reserve with wolves?" I squinted my eyes and became so confused. Everything is such a blur to me, I don't understand any of this now! Everything seems to be going wrong and I don't know how to stop any of this.

I must tell Conri that I can not do this any more, I cannot keep coming to the reserve and seeing him, this is all so wrong to me and I must get my normal life back. As I stand here watching Conri train his pack, I think that I will just leave, I do not have to tell him anyhting, he does not own me, "I thought."

I suddely left the reserve without telling Conri anything or even asking him what I am supposed to do as a wolf and his mate, I just got so sick of all this that I could not help but just leave. I walked back to my parents house and ran up to my bedroom, I jumped on my bed and laid there looking up to the ceiling. I start thinking about everything that has happened within the past few months until I fall asleep.

The next morning when I woke, I decided to call off work. I just couldn't go in the state of mind that I am in. I walked to the park, sat on the park bench staring out into this run down park. I thought to myself.

"Why isn't there ever any people here and why isn't there ever any kids playing?"

Then I found myself raoming around in the park, I suddenly went back to when I was a young girl playing in this park and I started to cry as my eyes glanced all around this park becasue I remember playing here with my friends and everything was so normal to me back then. Now everything seems like I am living in a big dream. "Am I really A wolf? Am I another person now?" I thought to myself. I can't even bring myself to leave here because my memories of a young child here. My life now is so different and it's not how I planned it to turn out. This is all so depressing to me that I am a wolf, who would have thought any of this could ever happen to them, "I know I would not have thought this."

The life that I am living now is just so wrong to me and there is nothing that I could do to change it! But why am I thinking that this life is wrong? My mind races as I try to figure this out, but this is my life now and I am happy with it, my subconcious mind tells me that it's wrong, I know in my heart this is how I want to live. Then suddenly I shook my head back and forth, I had to stop thinking about this before I drive myself crazy. As I leave the park, I ask myself, "Should I go to the reserve and ask Conri everything I need to know?" While I walk home, I decided to turn around and head to the reserve, I just can't take all this thinking anymore, so I must go ask Conri what the heck I am doing and what is my purpose now!

Once I arrive at the reserve, the field is completely empty, Conri and his pack are not out there training, I start to wonder, "Hmm... Where are they and why aren't they training." Then I thought to myself, "I hope this goes as I plan." This talk with Conri better fix my self control and my state of mind. I walk into the cave and the cave is dark, there is no light and no fire going. I suddenly became nervous, "What is going on? Where is Conri? I hope nothing had happened to him!" I thought. I searched throughout the cave and it is completely empy here also, so I decide to lay down and wait for him to get back. No use insearching for him, since I know he is the alph wolf and he is able to take care of himself. I am not sure of how long I had been sleeping, but I was woken up from a noise, a noise that I knew. It was Conri.

Finally, I could finally talk to him. He walks over to me and sits down beside me. He asked me where I have been the last few days, right then, my body started to flutter. I really did miss him. I then told him that I needed time to think about everything. He looks to me and asks me what is everything? I asked him, "why did you pick me? why did you turn me into a wolf?"

"You are my mate, the moon brought me to you and only you!" Conri said.
"But Why? Why me? I don't understand any of this?" I replied.
"You are my only mate, my one true love!" Conri said.

All I could do was stare into his eyes and I saw how his eyes gleamed when he told me this. Then I asked him, "what is my purpose of being a wolf?" "You are the healer, you will have the power to heal people from their injuries." Conri said. I nodded my head and said, "you mean I am a wolf to heal people? But how is this possible?
Conri looks to me and says, "On the next full moon you will have full powers to heal people, you will be able to heal people of their injuries."

"How will I know I have those powers though?" I said.
"You will feel them inside your body, You will become stronger and I will show you how to use them." Conri said.
"Come on, come with me," Conri said.
"A-Ahh, where are you taking me?" I asked.
"Just come with me!" Conri replied.

I went with Conri not knowing where he's going to take me.