A Lovers Quarrel

STAR'S POV:

Now I have to go to work, I'm not even sure why we had that argument. Conri didn't even want to talk to me. I hate going to work mad like this! This has got me so mad that I''m going to approach Ben with dangerous momentum and he will not be able to get one word in. I'm telling him off as soon as I see him.

"I'm over this!"

Ben has no idea how dangerous I can be, and when I show him just how dangerous I am, he'll realize that he's messing with the wrong people. Conri and I have not argued like this before, and I'm so angry because this is all Ben's fault. I know lovers argue, but this is different because Ben caused this for no reason. I feel trapped, I'm not sure how to really approach this, If I argue with Ben then my job will be in jeapordy, and if I let it go, Conri and I will keep arguing.

I'm never going to be able to concentrate on work tonight. The thoughts of this just have me in an upraor.

"Is this happening becasue of the Full Moon coming?' I asked myself as I stood up agianst the hallway wall.

I must stop this right now, I gotta get to work. Somehow I had to put these raging thoughts in the back of my head, just so I can do my job.

As soon as I finished with my first rounds, I reached for the chair in the breakroom, sat down and layed my head on the table. I'm not sure if I'm tired or just frustrated with all this going on in my personal life. Whatever it is, I must fix this. Not only for me, but for Conri and our relationship. I'm planning this surprise party for him, but how can I do this with us arguing like this? I'm sure I'm just overthinking this stuff, but I'm just so upset right now.

I'm going back to work and forgetting abou this!

I'm going work so that I don't keep thinking about this stuff. I'm becoming more and more frustrated by it. After I finishe with these rounds, I'm going to ask the charge nurse if I can leave. I don't want to be here anymore, I want to be with Conri. I'm gonna show him just how much I love him.

As soon as I finished with my work, I went to the nurses station and ask if I could leave, I just told the nurse that I"m not feeling well. She looks at me like I'm lying, but I don't care what she thinks, I'm still going to leave.

I left the hospital and went home to Conri. When I arrived home, Conri was still out in the field, I stood by the fire pit, he glances over and sees me standing here, he rushes over and gives me a kiss and a hug and says, "what are you doing here? Why are you hime so early?" "I want to be home with you at nights," I replied. "I want you here too," he said.

I mention to him that I don't want to work at night anymore, I want to be home with him. Conri agrees with me. Then I make it clear to him that I only want to be with him and working night turn is just putting stress on our relationship. I mention to him that I'm going to go back to working in the daytime so I can be with him at night! Conri gives me a smile and hugs me tightly.

Conri mentions to me that I'm going to have trouble with Ben when I tell him that I'm not working at night anymore, I look at Conri and say, "I don't care what he thinks or advises me, I'm not leaving you in the night hours again."

"I love you so much Conri, I don't care what it takes for me to be with you at night," I said "Are you sure?" he asks. "yes. I'm sure," he replied.

I made it clear to Conri that that's what I'm going to do. I'm not going to work nights anymore, it seems like it puts pressure on our relationship, Conri is more important to me than work.

After deciding on changing my work schedule, I start thinking about what Ben might say or do once he finds out that I'm not working nights. I don't even care about the benefits of working nights, I just want our relationship to go back to the way it was before I started working those hours.

That's the only thing important to me.

If Ben wants to cause trouble just because I don't want to work nights, then we will take care of him. I'm not his girl or anything like that, so if he tries anything I will quit my job.

As soon as it becomes morning, I'm going to give Ben a call and tell him what I have decided. For now, Conri and I are going to enjoy our first night together in a while.

Conri and I sit out by the fire, enjoying each other's company. I look at Conri and say, "I love this. I'm never going to go back working at night. I'm sorry I even made that decision." "I love this too. I love you and being with you. Don't be sorry babe, you tried it and it didn't work out, it's okay," Conri replied.

I'm so glad our relationship will get back to normal. I'm hoping what I did tonight made Conri know that I will do anything for him, I"ll do anything to keep our relationship going in the right direction.

I know when I call Ben and tell him what I have decided is going to cause issues, I'm not sure what he will be like when I tell him, but I do know he's not going to like what I have to say to him.