The Wolf Inside Me

STAR'S POV;

The sex with Conri is so hot and steamy that he's the best i've ever had! My life feels so complete now, that I cannot tell him about Ben. I can't ruin what I have with him. But then I thought to myself, "I'm not sure if it's me just being paranoid about Ben or if he is really making the moves on me." Now it seems like I am afraid of going to work because of Ben, but I know I must not be afraid of him. What could he possible do to me? As I get ready to leave for work, I tell myself, "I must not worry about Ben, he's nothing to me."

When arriving at work, I raced right to my locker, I didn't want to see Ben, and I didn't want him to see me. I put my things inside it, when I opened my locker door I found a piece of paper inside it, so I took the paper out and it was a not to me that read, "I hope your day goes well!" I do not know who this could be from because there is no name on it. I have never gotten anyhting like this before so this note is making me a bit nervous, but more suspicious and now I think to myself, "Should I tell Conri about all of this? Is this going to get out of control?" I must decide before I get to the reserve tonight.
As I stand at my locker, I cannot move, I feel a bit of rage inside me, is the wolf going to come out of me? I cannot let this happen, I cannot let anyone see me as a wolf! Everything seems to be getting out of control for me, suddenly. I don't know what to do about this, right now the only thing I can do is go to work and try to forget about it.

While I try to do my work, all I can think about is that note, I can't imagine who it is from. Then suddenly I thought, "maybe it's from Conri!" "No, it can't be, he wouldn't do something like this and he wouldn't just come to my work." This is driving me crazy thinking about it. I must stop thinking about it so that I can do my work, maybe someone put it in my locker by mistake. "That's probably it!" I shrugged my shoulders and went to work, I have to focus on my job instead of a note. The rest of the workday, I kept thinking about the note, but not as much as I was when I had first read it, it's just very weird to me. After the workday is over, I stood by Justice and I showed her the note, she told me not to worry about it, it's probably someone just messing around. Then I crumbled the note up and threw it away. Then we left work.

I had to go home before I had to go back to the reserve because that not got me in a mood and I do not want to tell Conri about anything just yet, since I don't even know who put that note in my locker. I will wait to tell him everything until I know for sure who is doing it or if it is really meant for me. While I walk home I can feel some rage inside me, I don't know if this is because of Ben and that note or if it's the wolf coming out. I've never experienced this feeling before and I don't know if I can control it. When I arrived home, I stormed inside my house, I went upstairs to my bedroom and all I could do was try and fight this rage. I have never been this angry before, I don't even know what is happening to me at this point. "How am I supposed to control this? How can I stop this rage?" I thought. Especially being at home, my parents will be home soon. I had to get out of this house soon, so I left and went to the reserve.

While walking to the reserve, I can feel more rage going through my body, I hope this stops soon or at lease until I talk to Conri about this. When I arrived at the reserve, Conri and his pack were training agian, so I instantly went inside the cave. I did not want his pack to see me like this, then they will probably think something is suspicious with me, which it is not. I actually do not know what's going on with me right now!
Then suddenly something is happening to me, my body started shaking, my heart started beating hard and fast, I have no idea what is going on, I hope Conri comes inside this cave soon. I need him. I need him to help me figure out what is hapening to me. Then I fell on the ground, I couldn't move and moments later, Conri came inside.

Conri rushed over to me and asked me if I was okay, I told him, that I am not okay and I do not know what is happening to me. He sat on the ground next to me and held me in his arms and said, "Star, this is what happens when you start to turn into a werewolf, this is the beginning. You must learn how to control it! I will teach you how to control it. Then I asked him why this happened all of a sudden, why now? Conri replied, "Sometimes it just happens, and sometimes something may set us off and the wolf just comes out, for our protection. So that no one can hurt us. I just looked to him and rolled my eyes. My whole life has changed dramitically in a matter of minutes, and now I must figure out a way to become stronger and control the wolf inside of me. "What type of wolf am I going to turn into?" I thought.