Memories of Fenrir’s body owner

Fenrir's POV

It sounded like drums at the back of my head. The headaches became stronger by the minute until It started to feel like there was a parade in my head.
As all these were happening, my mind subconsciously began to remember. To remember…everything.

He was weak. The man who I just realized I now possess his body was pathetic. His wolf was far less weaker than his brother's. I could see the sadness in his eyes as his blurred face appeared in front of my mind's eye. It had been so shameful because he was the firstborn and his younger brother's wolf was way stronger. It didn't stop there. He was called the Alpha Heir all his life, but his younger brother was later crowned Alpha. Pathetic!

I could feel the annoyance creep into me as I lay there not part of the present world, I could see how utterly depressing and disgraceful it had been for him…so disgraceful that he had committed suicide.

Unlike a few minutes ago, it doesn’t ache so bad. I just lie there and let everything come to me, no struggle or stress. In the next second or so, I found out the name of this previous body owner's pack. Moonbound. I knew that wolf pack, it was the neighboring one, it shares a border with MY PACK. At this point, names started coming to me, and I soon found out more about this…man.

His name was Hawk. And his brother's name was Hunter. I couldn't remember their last names, not that it mattered anyway.

The headaches hit me once again and my subconsciousness travelled deeper into memory lane. I saw, the closeness between the brothers, Hawk loved Hunter and Hunter felt the same way, but Hunter…he looked down on Hawk. I could see the disrespect in his eyes.

"It's all for naught if you sit there pouting, brother" said Hunter.

"All of this is all for naught. There is no need for you to bother with the responsibilities of the crown that belongs to me. I am the Alpha Heir." Hawk tried hard not to show the hurt in him, the brewing shame as he watched his brother prepare for a coronation that was supposed to be his.

"Belongs to you?" Hunter mocked lightly, "Oh dear brother, you know our father would never let you take over the pack. Yes, you have been the Alpha Heir since you were born, but your wolf grew up to be weak. We can’t jeopardize the safety of the pack.”

It hit harder to hear his own brother say it. "weak?"

"Yes, Hawk. You are weak, you know that and as your caring brother, I don't want to trouble you more with the responsibilities of the crown. So younger or not, I will be the next Alpha…"

I felt deep pity for Hawk as I heard the short conversations between the brothers. It was not right, it was unfair.

I started questioning where their father was during all of this, why did he approved this? Immediately my mind provided the answer and my subconscious was launched into a past conversation..

"Weak, my boy. You're still very weak." The husky voice of his father echoed in his ears.

"Father…that's not true, I am not. I'm just not as strong as.. Hunter."

The Alpha scoffed, "do you know how shameful that is? Or how weak it makes you? Huh, Hawk?" The disdain was evident in his voice, "your own younger brother is stronger than you, how can you still be the Alpha!"

"But the crown—"

"You forfeited your claim to the crown when you decided to be a weak shame!"

The brimming tears at the end of this lashes, spilt slightly on his cheeks, the pain clawing at his chest.

"Are you crying, lad?" The Alpha scoffed, "Another act of weakness"

The suicide was also an act of weakness but…I think I understand why he did. It must have been all so terrible for him, for Hawk.

I sighed deeply, suddenly feeling a bit better after knowing all this. Now that I know all of this, about what happened in the past to Hawk, I felt the need to know what had happened to me. How did I get here? Where did I come from? And why was I even in this body that was obviously not mine?

My brows furrowed as I tried hard to remember since it was obviously not coming as easy as the first ones. I forced myself to remember what I wanted, and the pounding in my head increased. I tried so hard but…I just couldn't. It was like there was a particular barrier in my head that I just couldn't get through.

"Ahh.." I groaned as I opened my eyes and slowly sat up from the bed. That was one heck of a mental ride through memory lane, too bad I learned nothing about myself.

I still thought about Hawk and my sympathy for him increased. It wasn't fair and it wasn't right, he was stripped of his what was his and it annoyed me immensely. Standing up, I stretched as I looked out the window, not seeing anything in particular. I needed to go to Moonbound Pack, Yes…I should. I needed to see this brother of his, this Hunter.

I grabbed my coat and a pair of boots as I walked out of the room. I was halfway through the hall when I suddenly remembered her. Marsai.

I paused without knowing. Was it normal that I missed her this much? Even after the embarrassment of what she did to me?
Not caring to answer that question, my legs made a turn in the direction of the room she was in. I wanted to see her, I needed to see her.

As I reached her room, I heard voices, it seemed they were all in a conversation. I didn't want to interrupt and It seemed rude to eavesdrop and I wouldn't have until I suddenly heard my name.
They were saying something about a 'Mate' and Leah asking if I was Marsai's mate. Mate…what was that?