Chapter 14: Wise words from Victoria

I don't know why but ever since I had sex with Jones, I began to overthink. I began to hate him, I couldn't stand looking at him and I couldn't resist seeing him with another girl because if I did, I would get jealous, and then I would begin to have that mindset that he's done with me and he's on to another girl now. I needed to talk to someone, a girl in particular so I went to my NEW bestie, Victoria.

I didn't know where she was so I texted her asking where she was and she said she was in the school's theater. I walked to the theater and when I got there, she was alone. She was fixing the drum in the school's theater when I found her. I walked to her and sat next to her,
"What's up Victoria,"

"Just a sec," she said and positioned the Hi-hat properly as she hit the drum and dropped the drumsticks, "So what's up," she asked,

"I really need to talk to a girl,"

"Okay Angie, you can talk to me,"

"It's Jones,"

"Aww it seems like you two are already having issues," she said and poked me, "Don't worry, you two would be fine,"

"No Vic it's not that," I said and sighed, "I don't know how to say this but if a girl loses her virginity, does that makes her useless?"

"Well it depends Angie, girls are destined to lose their virginity but the problem is most girls lose it before their time,"

"So if a girl loses it before her time, does that makes her useless?"

Victoria looked at me weirdly,
"Did you...have sex with Jones?"

"I... I did and I don't know, do you think I made a mistake?" I said as tears filled my eyes,

Victoria looked at me and sighed,
"Angie you see this is high school, and we're just trying to have fun. I've been popular ever since and it's cool, honestly, I go to parties, I play with boys and I do what makes me happy but do you know what I realized, I realized that all things end here in high school, so it's best we stay careful or else we may lose something that we may never be able to get back again,"

I covered my face and began to cry even more,
"But he got me lots of things, he gives me money and he's a good guy,"

"Angie," Victoria said and held my hand, "If you two break up then he wins, yes it's good he has spent a lot on you but if you two break up, he still has money but you can't get back your virginity so it's a no for me girl, you shouldn't have let him in," she said and drew me closer, then she hugged me, "It's okay Angie, they are lots of girls who have lost it but they are still unique, it's only Jones that got in it's not like they are many," she said but I was so hurt that I kept crying. "Angie please stop crying," she said and sighed, "Should I tell you something?"

I sobbed,
"What is it?"

"I'm not a virgin too," she whispered,

I looked at her surprisingly,
"What?"

"Yeah, I lost mine this year too but look at me, I'm fine," she said, "Angie, I know you're hurt but one stupid sex shouldn't way you down this much, how about girls who got raped as a virgin, do you think they were ready to lose their virginity? they lost it but they are fine, so stop crying Angie, you'll be fine, it's just one stupid sex," she said.

"Alright, thank you Victoria," I said and cleaned my eyes, "You know you aren't that bad after all,"

"I know Angie, I might be acting all popular in school but deep down, I have a heart," she said and smiled,

"But what about Jones, should I break up with him?" 

"No, why would you do that? he's your boyfriend. Just because he got in doesn't mean you should leave him,"

"Okay, thanks so much Victoria," I said, then we both hugged.

After our conversation, I felt very much relieved. I left the theater but Victoria stayed back fixing the drum. I walked to my locker and dropped my pack bag but when I closed it, I saw Jones standing behind my locker,

"Jones you scared me,"

"No... you scare me because I don't understand why you've been avoiding me ever since,"

"Avoiding you?"

"Yes, now you're making me feel bad about what happened yesterday,"

"Jones," I leaned my head on his chest, "It was my first time so I guess I was just overreacting," I said and hugged him.

"Of course you were,"

"I'm sorry Jones, you're my man and I'm probably meant to have sex with you and if it pleases you we should do it more often," I wasn't serious with what I said but I had to say it to make him feel better.

"What pleases me is seeing a smile on your face," he said and held my waist, "I love you Angie,"

"I love you too Jones,".