Chapter 40: Ella's POV

I've been crushing on that jerk Jimmy for over two months now and he still hasn't spoken to me. Guys would always say girls are complicated and I agree but if I said boys are much more complicated than girls would you believe me?

Okay for a start what do men really want? do they want love or sex, a Relationship or hook-up, slim girls or busty girls, tall girls or short girls, a crazy girl or a peaceful girl? Or do they want a dick instead because they aren't just specific.

Last 2 years I had a friend called Marlie, she was in love with this guy called Alex. Okay I have to admit, Alex was really hot. You need to have seen him, he was super cute. Anyways Marlie loved Alex so much, in fact, if she came back from school she would come over to my place to tell me about Alex and honestly I was happy she found someone to love but the only problem was she didn't know if Alex liked her too.

Speaking of Marlie, I consider her an angel because she was super hot and so beautiful, you need to have seen this girl, she was so hot and she had a very nice stature, everyone thought she did surgery but she was just Marlie. One day marlie made up her mind that she was going to tell Alex how she really feels about him. I tried to stop her but it was impossible.

The next day when Marlie went to school because we both don't attend the same school, she told Alex how she feel about him and the jerk checked her out, he looked at her from her chest down to her waist and told her he liked her too. In fact, he lied that he had always loved her from the beginning and she believed him.

Okay here are the issues with most girls, sometimes you have it in mind that this guy doesn't love you but yet you doubt his actions because of his words, he said he loved you but does he shows it?

Anyways Marlie and Alex became a couple, at first he was nice and all that but then he revealed his true colour. He asked Marlie for sex but she couldn't give it because she was a virgin. Alex would give her a bad attitude continuously because she refused to have sex with him, when she saw it was causing too much trouble between them, she agreed to have sex with him. Marlie lost her virginity to him and she felt it would make things right but it was the opposite. Ever since she had sex with him, he lost all interest in her. He never called her, he never texted her, he never even check up on her except he wants to have sex with her and Marlie would still go ahead and give him sex and when they are done having sex, he treats her like shit.

One day Marlie found out Alex was cheating on her and the Jerk wasn't even sorry, instead, he blamed her for not being there for him. Marlie would come to my place crying that Alex keeps breaking her heart but she just can't leave him.

Weeks later, I met this Alex in the store, I don't think he knew I was Marlie's friend. We spoke and exchanged numbers, I knew he was dating my friend but I wanted to prove something to her. Some days after we exchanged numbers, he began to confess his fake feelings for me, he even said he had never been in a relationship before. He invited me over one day and I went over to his place. When I got there he offered me a drink but I rejected it. Well we were having a conversation, he said something about him treating women nicely, he said he could never cheat on the one he loves, any girl who dates him is lucky and shit like that. It's more annoying when youre listening to someone that you're sure he's lying, but he speaks lies confidently. I swear I wish I could record his voice with my phone but he would suspect it, one thing about playboys is that they are very smart, they can tell when something doesn't feel right which is why they can date five different girls for years and they would never find out. When he was done saying bullshit, he looked at me and smiled, Then he tried to kiss me. I swear I wanted to slap him but I couldn't, I was at his place, who knows what he has in store? I politely pushed him back and left his house immediately because if I had stayed longer I would have done something crazy and I'm sure of it. When I got home, I told Marlie about it but she didn't believe me.

I don't know where Marlie is right now and I wish I know. But as of the last time we spoke, she was still dating Alex. I don't have to wait for their relationship to end In a bad way before I'm convinced that men are evil, with the little things I saw him do to her, it's enough to never confess your feelings to a guy.

Maybe Alex is a good guy, maybe he's not, maybe he did all that because sadly he doesn't love Marlie, maybe he did that because he was a bad boy. Who knows if he would treat the girl he loves the right way, that's just one thing about men, and one of the reasons why I could never tell Jimmy how I feel about him. If he doesn't love me, it's fine. It's best the person you love doesn't feel the same way rather he knows he doesn't love you and plays you.

I'm seriously in love with Jimmy, but I rather die than let my feelings known to him.