Book 2: Chapter 1

**Amelia**


“We can’t keep doing this Amira. Her mind will split and there will be no going back. Even the spirits of the white wolves won’t be enough to protect her if her mind is lost.”

“We have no other choice. She is the only one who can survive this.”

“This is too much. No more!”

“Elena wait!”

“Amelia? Wake up.” A soft voice tries to wake me, but I don’t want to see any more.

I feel too tired to wake up.

“She’s too far gone. We need to do something else.”

“What do you suggest Isa? Your plan only worked for so long before it fell apart.”

“None of our plans were working. I don’t know what more we can do.”

“Perhaps their fate is already sealed. Nothing we have done has changed it and we can only step in so many times before we break things more.”

“Evana is right. We can’t do this again. Things must pass as they were meant to.”

“By letting a war wipe away two species?”

“If it must be then we have to let things take their course.”
“She’s waking up.”

I open my eyes just enough to see I’m not in my apartment or at my mom’s house anymore. This room is beautiful and completely white.

“Amelia? How do you feel?” Elena asks from beside me.

“Like I’ve had a headache for two years.” I say pushing myself up the best I can.

My body feels too heavy, and Elena has to help me to sit up.

“I apologize for putting you through this again, but we had no choice.” She says and I can hear the sincerity in her words. “You have endured so much already and have not been able to enjoy your life as you should.”

My life…is that what it is? Because every version of my life always ends with me heartbroken and confused. At this point I’m not sure if what I’m living is a dream or real. It’s like living in different corners of my mind and being locked out of reality completely. Can you imagine being so lost that nothing feels right?

“What went wrong this time?” I ask without much feeling in my voice.

I already know where this is going. They are going to tell me again that everyone dies at some point in time and that I need to help then I do and I end up dying of being pulled back here again.

“Nothing has changed. We thought it had, but the further in the future we saw things still end the same way. Your happiness is short lived, and war still comes. We do not think it will be possible to prevent it no matter what we do. Humans and wolf shifters will destroy each other.”

“Right. So why am I here then? Nothing I’ve done has fixed anything, so what good am I to your plans?” Honestly, I just want this whole part of the dream over.

“I told you. Her mind has been fractured from these shifts in reality.” Elena says.

She’s standing over me now and I don’t bother looking at her sad face. She always seems worried for me but allows the fates to use me each and every time. She is supposed to be the guardian of wolf shifters, but she hasn’t guarded me from these women tampering with my mind.

All I know is I’m done with all of this. No matter what they ask of me I won’t do it.

“We must put things right. Amelia, there is one way we can fix this for you, but it comes at a heavy price.” Evana says moving closer to me.

The way she walks is almost like she’s floating on clouds. Everything about her is majestic and beautiful.

“What would that be?” I ask with a little more bite than I mean to use.

“We erase everything. All the things you remember will be gone. It would be as if none of this ever happened and you would be able to live your life as you wish. It was cruel for us to put so much on your shoulders. We cannot allow such a young mind to be tampered with any further. You have done all you can do, and we cannot ask more form you. Would you agree to this?”

I look at her and wonder for a second if this is some kind of trick, but she isn’t the one who likes to pull tricks in this group.

“How much would I forget?” I ask because there is a lot.

“Everything. Who you are…who your family is…who your mates were…what you are… you won’t remember any of it.”

“Even you guys?” She gives me a sympathetic smile.

“Even us. It will be a clean slate. You can choose to live your life with a fresh start.”

It sounds too good to be true.

I don’t want to forget everything that has happened when it comes to Owen or Alexander. I don’t want to forget my brother or Olivia either, but I’m so tired. Everyone seems happy before I appear and tell them of war and how I’m meant to save them. Even the nice moments in my lives don’t last long enough for all this to be worth it.

“Will they forget me too?” I ask them.

“Yes.”

My heart aches at the thought that no one will miss or care about me, but I’m glad no one will be left wondering. They will live their lives and I would live mine without heart ache or pain for any of us. It sounds horrible and perfect all at the same time. Is it fair for me to also take the memories of those who would be part of my life? I don’t know, but no one will remember so what’s the harm?

Uh, this is too hard.

“Amelia. I think this would be good for you. Your heart aches too much, and you have yet to live a normal life. It is a blessing.” Elena adds as she sits on the bed. “You deserve this and much more for the pain we have caused you. Please consider it.”

“Would I still be a wolf shifter?” I ask her.

She gives me a small smile. “It will always be a part of you, but you will feel it as much as you did growing up. It will be a low hum inside you, but it may never emerge. That will depend on you.”

My wolf hadn’t been very noticeable until the fates started messing with my life, so maybe I could live a normal life. Thinking of Anaya and never speaking to her again is another thing that hurts. She will possibly always be trapped, and I won’t know it. Even now I don’t sense her. Elena and the fates have a way of silencing things, and my wolf is one of them. Any powers I have gained are also muted when I’m with them. It’s so quiet, and I hate to admit that I like it.

This is so selfish of me, but I can’t take much more of this. I can not have my heart broken over and over because it all ends like I’m waking up from a nightmare. It’s too much.

“Okay. Let’s do it.” I say to them before I try to change my mind.

“Very well.” Evana moves closer to me and reaches her hands out. “When you wake you will not know who you are or where you came from. You will have to start over completely. Are you ready to begin?”

“I am.”

Evana places her hands on either side of my head and a second later I feel a cold rush travel through my mind. I squeeze my eyes shut as the cold begins to turn to pain. My mouth drops open and I’m ready to scream when everything goes dark.


Three weeks later…

The annoying sound of beeping wakes me and not in a pleasant way. I try to move and smack whatever it is making all that noise, but my arm is caught on something. My eyes fly open when my mind goes to a scary place, but all I see is a white and cream colored room. There’s a TV directly in front of me hanging on the wall over some sort of closet. It’s playing a show or movie, but when I look around there is no on here watching it. I’m the only one in the room and I was sleeping, so who was watching the TV?

Why does that matter? Where am I?

I try to get a better grip on my surroundings just as the door to the room opens and a woman walks in.

“Oh my gosh! You’re awake. I-I have to get the doctor.” She rushes off before she’s taken a full step into the room.

Okay, that was a little weird.

The woman was dressed in scrubs and from everything else around me I guess I’m in a hospital. But how did I get here? Why am I here?